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Um wow.

Ive been a member of this site since 13th October '06 which is pretty amazing.
it was on my old account though fobfreakonaleash :')
http://fobfreakonaleash.buzznet.com/user/

i made this account on 1st November '06
I think its pretty amazing how much ive changed.
Not just in looks in personality and my whole being
I think its safe to say that this site totally changed me

Pretty sad right?
But meh who cares
At least i had fun rofl.

I think thats pretty amazing ^
Dont you?

what if the critics hate you?

So,
two more months have past and still no update
Tbh, i dont think there will be another one guys :/
I'm sorry,
So many things have happened since i've last updated,
I've lost friend(s), fallen in love, grown up, left people behind, met new people
Everything tbh.
I'm never going to forget my buzznet people thats for sure,
I'll just have to see what's going to happen,
I'm not going to leave buzznet,
but for a while
I'mma stop posting stuff
Like, just use this for talking and commenting etcc.
And we'll see where i go from there,
I have too much work to do tbh
My GCSE's start next week :/
And i have coursework to do
I guess i'm making excuses
I'm sorry guys

I'll never forget youu,
and if you have myspace and/or msn and actually want to talk
message/comment/leave me a note, with your address,
I will add youu promise [:

Rachel Iero
xox.

Dear Buzznettt people;

I hope you dont feel i've abandoned you
Because i havent written a chapter in like foragess
I could make a thousand excuses
But I guess all in all i dont really know why I havent updated
I'm sorry
I guess not many people will read it when i do update
But I shall do anyway
So expect an update in the near futrue
For everyone who reads this/reads my fanfic
Thank you,
It means alot

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year
[:

I Probably Should've Told You Sooner...

I dropped my laptop,
meaning the screen smashed,
So I have no laptop for the time being,
So the chapter, is on hold,
But I'll get it out asap,
It's the same for mine and Bri's fanfic
It was my turn to do that,
I'm sorry ><
But I promise,
As soon as I can post it,
I shall

Thank you for understanding
xox <3

Are You Thinking Of Me? With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin Chapter 3

Sorry for the wait, school and shit :// well enjoyy xox

I knocked back my tenth shot of the night and lay my head on the bar. Frank had been calling me once everyday for the last week and I was not coping well. With each call and message I missed him more, I wanted to ring him back just to talk to him, but I knew if I did that Iâ�™d have to explain.

Iâ�™d get a call every-other-day from Nicole; she told me that Becky now knew too, which I was a bit upset about as I wanted Nicole to keep the secret. Also Becky and Frank were close; Becky was the one that introduced me to Frank so I was worried that she may tell him.

I asked the bar tender to get me another drink, as this was my place of work I got free drinks, I didnâ�™t work tonight but I thought Iâ�™d come here anyway, I had nowhere else to go, and I was drowning my sorrows so to speak. I watched as the bartender poured me one she placed it in front of me and I went to take it but before I could a hand reached for it and picked it up. â�œHey-oh hi Zackyyyâ� I slurred before turning back to the bar and lying my head on it. â�œRach, how many drinks have you actually had?â� he asked me and I shrugged. â�œWhy?â� I asked and I heard him sit down on a stool next to me. â�œI just want to know.â� He said and I sighed looking up at him, he was a little blurry. â�œYouâ�™re not my fucking mother.â� I said and he reeled back in shock like someone had slapped him. â�œIâ�™m sorry, I just want to make sure youâ�™re okay.â� He muttered and I put my hand on his. â�œPlease just tell me how many youâ�™ve had.â� He said and I sighed. â�œI lost count at number six.â� I said and he sighed. â�œDo you really think itâ�™s a good idea to consume this much alcohol, when youâ�™re pregnant?â� Zacky asked and I muttered â�œItâ�™s this baby that got me in this mess in the first place.â� Luckily he didnâ�™t hear me, or if he did, he didnâ�™t respond. I took the drink heâ�™d taken from me earlier back off him and threw it down my throat letting it burn, the liquid ran into my stomach and the numb feeling became grater, I sighed and smiled at the fact everything that seemed to matter was disappearing. â�œNo more now okay?â� she heard him say. â�œStop acting like my fucking mother, I know when Iâ�™ve had enough,â� I slurred sitting up I leaned forwards to smack him but I missed and fell off my stool, I got up stumbling and straightened my dress. â�œDance with me!â� I slurred pulling Zacky towards the dance floor. I collapsed into his arms and I saw him sigh before I passed out.

I woke up the next morning with the worst hang over Iâ�™d ever had. â�œArhhh Rachel youâ�™re so stupid!â� I said to myself rolling over in my bed. Well I thought it was my bed until I opened my eyes, I shut them again quickly as light was shining through the curtains. I sat up and rubbed my eyes before opening them again, I looked around the room to see clothes thrown on chairs, most of them seemed to be Misfits shirts, menâ�™s misfitâ�™s shirts which made me start to worry. I still had my clothes on luckily but I was in a strange house. I stumbled out of the bed and out of the door.

It opened out to an apartment. I walked through looking around and bumped into something. I gasped and looked up to see Zacky with a tray. â�œWh-why are you here?â� I asked him stepping away. â�œWell, this is my apartment.â� He laughed placing the tray down on the coffee table. â�œOh, thank fuck for that, I thought some stranger had abducted me.â� I said laughing nervously and he smiled. â�œNo, you passed out and seeing as I donâ�™t know where you live I brought you back here.â� Zacky said and I sat on the couch rubbing my head. â�œHere,â� he said passing me an asprin and some water. â�œThanks,â� I said taking them both from him. â�œSo um, did we..sleep like together?â� I asked nervously. â�œWhat? No no, of course not, I slept on the couch, I thought the bed would be better for you and the baby, so yeah I slept on the couch.â� Zacky said and I smiled. â�œThat is kind of you, I appreciate it.â� I smiled and he sat next to me on the couch. â�œHow is your head?â� he asked and I looked at him. â�œFeels like Iâ�™ve stood next to you, and youâ�™ve blasted your guitar into my head for like an hour.â� I said and he laughed smiling. â�œI made you some breakfast, if you want.â� He said pointing to the tray which had two pieces of toast and some orange juice on it. â�œThatâ�™s really kind of you, but to be honest, Iâ�™m not that hungry.â� I said leaning back on his couch. â�œThatâ�™s okay, Iâ�™ll eat it if you wont.â� He said and I laughed as he picked up a piece of toast and took a bite out of it.

â�œI was an ass last night, wasnâ�™t I?â� I said after a while. â�œIâ�™ve seen worse.â� He laughed. â�œWhat did I do?â� I asked waiting for Zacky to start complaining about me, but he didnâ�™t. â�œYou were fine honestly,â� he said and I smiled. â�œReally?â� I said and looked at him and he nodded. I sighed with relief and he looked over at me. â�œIâ�™m a mess when Iâ�™m drunk,â� he said and I laughed. â�œHow so?â� I asked and he laughed thinking about it I presume. â�œI fall over a shit load and act like a total idiot.â� He said and I giggled. â�œI can imagine that.â� I smiled and he got up. â�œIâ�™m going for a shower, you can watch the tv or whatever, make yourself at home.â� Zacky said getting up and walking out of the room. I lay my head on the couch and closed my eyes, my headache was starting to fade thankfully. I smiled at how kind Zacky had been considering weâ�™d only known each other a month tops. I switched the tv on to a music channel and turned the sound down so the music could just be heard. Hinder- Lips Of An Angel came on and I started singing along, eyes still closed.

I heard what must have been the bathroom door open and Zacky came out and started singing the song I was listening to which made me smile. I sat up slowly rubbing my head and I rested it against the arm of the chair as the song finished. I sighed thinking about the lyrics and wiped stray tears from my eyes. Not really the ideal song to be listening to when Iâ�™m like this. Zacky walked back in the room and I sniffled. I walked into Zackyâ�™s room and picked up my phone. There was another message, I sighed opening my phone I looked at my screen that read 1 missed call. I pressed cancel and then closed my phone over.

I didnâ�™t know whether it was the alcohol still effecting me but Iâ�™d never been able to do that, in a way I felt bad, in another way it made me feel relieved. â�œZacky, can I use your shower please?â� I asked him and he nodded. â�œSure,â� he said and I smiled walked into the bathroom.

I undressed and got in the shower the hot water soothing my head and cleaning all the memories from the night before off me. I looked up at the shelf in the shower and laughed. Zacky must have had more shampoos and shower gels then me. I picked one that looked half decent and started lathering my hair with the clear liquid, I washed my hair getting the smell of alcohol and smoke out and I then got out of the shower. I put my clothes back on as I had no others with me. I walked out of the room and Zacky was sitting on his kitchen counter. â�œComfy?â� I said with a smirk and he nodded his wet hair flopping over his eyes. I let out a chuckle and walked into the bedroom, to see my purse lying on the floor.

I got my phone out to check my messages, there was one from Brina asking how I was, I couldnâ�™t reply to her. Out of everyone I felt worst about lying to her, she was my best friend, I couldnâ�™t lie to her, so I ignored the text. I looked at another I had, it was from Nicole it read: â�œGet on msn asap we gotta talk to you, itâ�™s important xo Nicoleâ� I sighed and saw I had another message...from Frank.

I listened to it and he went on about how he missed me and then he said something Iâ�™d never heard him say before. â�œWe need to talk,â� I sighed and closed my phone over. Iâ�™m sure if I was still with him and talking to him that he was now going to break up with me. I know from past experience that â�œwe need to talkâ� never ended well. I took another look around Zackyâ�™s room which was messy but organized and chuckled picking up my purse and walking out of the room.

I was making my way to the kitchen when I tripped and started to fall forwards but I felt two hands grasp my waist just in time for me not to fall. I turned around and smiled and I got lost in his enchanting green eyes. â�œUm sorry,â� I said gaining composure, although I had not yet been able to pull myself away from looking into his eyes. â�œItâ�™s alright Rach,â� he said and I noticed he was staring at me too. A small smile formed on his lips and he stood up straight letting a thumb of his caress my cheek slightly. I took his hand away from my head and laced my fingers through his. â�œI donâ�™t think Iâ�™ve been totally honest with you Rach,â� he said and I just made a small noise, too lost in his eyes to reply. â�œI-I....I donâ�™t know how to put this,â� he said and then stepped towards me again. Placing a hand on my forming babyâ�™s bump. â�œI want to help,â� he said and I didnâ�™t fully understand what he meant. â�œHm?â� I said and he sighed. â�œI want to be there for it, for you.â� He said and I smiled. â�œZack Iâ�™m not going anywhere neither are you,â� I said and he sighed breaking eye contact. â�œI didnâ�™t mean like that sort of being there.â� He said and then started leaning in. I started panicking slightly although I couldnâ�™t seem to move. His lips pressed softly against mine and I found myself kissing back. I felt him smile into the kiss as I kissed back and he placed his hands on my hips. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I was enjoying the kiss when I felt his tongue run along my top lip, I moaned slightly opening my mouth and letting our tongues collide. I felt two of his teeth take hold of one of my lip rings and he tugged on it making me smile.

I pulled away for air and he smiled at me while I turned a bright shade of red. â�œAs I said, I want to be there for you,â� he said taking my hand. I smiled and pecked his cheek. â�œThank you,â� I said and he hugged me.

Are You Thinking Of Me? With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin Chapter 2

Do you realise how much I love this banner? I Dont think so xDDD Brina made it for me as she's the best person everrrr and she's extremely sexxy too xP So cheyeah read! Enjoy! Comment? Buzz?

I lay on the couch with my head hanging off the edge of it, I threw my phone in the air and let it fall down catching it again. I threw it up and missed when I went to catch it causing my phone to fall to the floor. "Fuck," I muttered to myself getting up and picking my phone up before I sat back on the couch. I started looking through my phone. I smiled at the pictures of Rachel and I, I then looked into further files and found pictures of Dawn, I started tearing up so I closed my phone over and chucked it next to me on the couch.

I heard someone walk in the room and looked up "Becky What the hell?" I said as she walked into the room and sat on the couch across from me. "What? I haven't seen Mikey in four weeks, and seeing as you have a week off he invited me here." she said. Becky was tall and slender, with short black hair and glasses that she rarely wore, she would not wear much make-up as she never needed to although her eyes were always lined with eyeliner. "I thought you'd be with Rach," she said to me and I sighed and shook my head. "She hasn't called since I got here." I sighed heavily picking up phone up and chucking it on the floor. I looked up at Becky who was staring at me so I quickly got up and picked my phone from the floor. I swear she was like my mother sometimes she was able to get me to do things like apologize and clean without saying a word. "Have you not called her?" Becky asked and I shook my head and then realized what a stupid motherfucker I'd been. I looked down at my phone and rubbed my eyes.

"It's Dawn's birthday next week." I muttered beginning to tear up slightly. I looked up a little and saw Becky nod, she got up and walked over to me and embraced me into a hug, I broke down on her shoulder and started crying. I know I shouldn't be doing this, it's been about two years now, I know she wouldn't want me to be unhappy, but I couldn't help it, she was the love of my life, and she got taken away from me by some worthless motherfuckers. â�œOhâ�¦I guess you heard about Rachel then,â� I heard a voice say I looked up at Nicole to see her standing there biting her hoodie sleeve. â�œWhatâ�™s up with Rachel?â� I said wiping my eyes and looking at her. â�œN-nothing,â� she said quickly exiting. I got up to follow her but Becky stopped me and followed her. Nicole had long blonde hair with blue and white extensions she was tall and thin with pale skin, she constantly had rosy cheeks because of her make-up and eyes lined with eyeliner.

(No oneâ�™s Pov)

Nicole walked into the hallway and was met by a yawning Bob. â�œMorning Beautiful.â� He said and she smiled kissing him softly. â�œBob, you need to shave.â� She said and he laughed. â�œI thought you liked me all stubbly.â� He said and she smiled. â�œI did, but now itâ�™s just all spikey and it tickles.â� She giggled and he kissed her again tickling her with his forming beard. â�œLike that?â� he said and she nodded smirking. He smiled and hugged her until Becky grabbed her arm and pulled her to the corner of the room. â�œOwww,â� Nicole exclaimed rubbing her arm and Becky put her hands on her hips. â�œWhatâ�™s the matter with Rachel?â� Becky asked Nicole seriously. â�œNothing,â� Nicole sighed looking away. â�œNic, tell me, I deserve to know! Sheâ�™s my friend too!â� Becky demanded. â�œSh-sheâ�™s pregnant.â� Nicole said in such a whisper that Becky almost didnâ�™t catch what she said. â�œThatâ�™s great! Why wont she tell anyone? I mean shouldnâ�™t Frank know?â� Becky said quickly thinking out loud. â�œShe, she thinks Frank doesnâ�™t love her, sheâ�™s run away.â� Nicole sighed looking down at the floor once more. â�œWhat!? Why the fuck did she do that, he does love her, Nic weâ�™ve got to tell him.â� Becky said raising her voice. â�œShh, no Becky we canâ�™t I promised I wouldnâ�™t tell you or anyone let alone him, Iâ�™ve broken one promise, we canâ�™t break another.â� Nicole said. â�œBut Nic, he deserves to know.â� Becky sighed. â�œI promised Becky, sheâ�™s our best friend.â� Nicole said with sorrow in her eyes because of the situation they were both in. â�œSo what are we supposed to do? Wait until he finds out, and then weâ�™ll be the ones stuck picking up the pieces once more.â� Becky exclaimed and Nicole nodded slowly. â�œHe doesnâ�™t deserve this.â� Becky sighed and Nicole nodded again. â�œWhat are we going to say to him though? Heâ�™ll want to know whatâ�™s up with her.â� Nicole said biting her lip. â�œWeâ�™ll just think of something.â� Becky sighed.

(End Of No oneâ�™s pov)

My phone had now been replaced by a tennis ball I found down the side of the couch and I started throwing it against the wall and it bounced back to me, I sighed throwing it but let go too soon and it bounced back at an odd angle, I watched as Gerard caught is as he walked into the room and rolled it off his hand onto mine. He sat on the couch and looked at me. â�œHow you holding up?â� he asked and I shrugged my eyes fixated on the lime green tufty ball in my hands. I heard footsteps once more and looked up to see Sabrina, or Brina as she was more commonly known walk in and sit next to Gerard. Brina was tall and thin with brown hair that came just past her shoulders, it was straight almost always although her hair was naturally curly. She wore little make-up and had a great smile. Gerard took her hand and she kissed his cheek. I sighed and her brow furrowed. â�œWhatâ�™s up Frank?â� she asked and I looked up saying nothing and then looked back down again, I heard Gerard whisper something to her, I guess it must have been what was wrong with me because I saw Brina nod her head in the corner of my eye.

I heard someone walk in the room for about the tenth time today and this time I didnâ�™t bother to look up. â�œUmm Frank,â� Becky said and I looked at her. â�œYes Becky?â� I replied and Becky pushed Nicole forwards. â�œNic wants to tell you something.â� She said and I looked over at Nicole who was rubbing the back of her head. â�œThe reason why I asked if youâ�™d heard about Rachel is because, because,â� Nicole said and Becky sighed. â�œSheâ�™s sick; I think she has the flu.â� Nicole said hurriedly not looking at me but looking at the floor. â�œOh right,â� I said â�œWhy did you think Iâ�™d be crying over that? Sheâ�™s not dying is she?â� I asked a little worried about her, but I guess it would explain why I havenâ�™t been getting any phone calls. â�œNo, no sheâ�™s just in bed ill.â� Nicole said and then left the room quickly. I sighed and looked over at Gerard. â�œDude, Iâ�™m sorry, Iâ�™m sure sheâ�™ll be fine, I mean itâ�™s not the end of the world, just flu not like sheâ�™s pregnant or anything.â� He laughed and I nodded smiling slightly. â�œTrue,â� I shrugged. â�œAnd whatâ�™s wrong with being pregnant?â� I heard Brina say and I looked up at her and Gerard. â�œNothing, you arenâ�™t are you?â� he said and she laughed shaking her head. â�œGood,â� he smiled and kissed her on the forehead..

I envied their relationship, it had to be said. Iâ�™m sure most people did. Theyâ�™d been going out for about five years and they were absolutely perfect for each other and they never fought. Everyone noticed how cute they were together and I think even the fans had released it was love and all the little fan girls with their crushes donâ�™t bitch about them. Not like me andâ�¦.Dawn, we always had our problems with them, they refused to see that we were in love, it really upset me that more than anything else, the fact every time I went on a site and saw a picture there was always a bitchy comment, it was the same with Rach I guess, on a larger scale as people had started getting used to seeing me and Dawn, I never really did anything about the situation with Rachel, and for that I am a bad boyfriend.

I rubbed my eyes hoping that Gerard or Brina didnâ�™t notice that a tear had fallen from them, I cried way too much, it was pretty pathetic, but I guess when youâ�™re stuck in this place all your emotions go out of whack. Gerard got up and patted my back. â�œCall her,â� he said before taking Brinaâ�™s hand and leading her out of the room. Brina gave me a sympathetic smile as she walked past and I opened my phone. I typed in her number and let it ring for what seemed ever. I was about to hang up when I heard a voice â�œHey,â� I heard it say and I replied â�œHey Rach,â� but the voice carried on talking, it was her voicemail. â�œthis is Rachelâ�™s phone Iâ�™m sorry I couldnâ�™t get to the phone but if you leave me a message Iâ�™ll get back to you asap have a great day.â� I heard her recorded voice say. â�œHey Rach, call me back Iâ�¦love you.â� I said and then hung up sighing. I threw the tennis ball at the wall with all my might and it smacked the wall hard before hitting the couch. â�œSo?â� Gerard said walking back into the room. â�œShe didnâ�™t answer, sheâ�™s probably asleep or something.â� I said and Gerard nodded. â�œYeah, probably.â� He said but even he was doubting what Iâ�™d just said. I lay back on the couch and just stared at the ceiling until I fell asleep.

I was woken by someone shaking me, I looked up to see Brina standing over me. â�œFrankie, itâ�™s time for your session.â� She said and I rubbed my eyes. â�œFuck, I have one of them today?â� I asked groggily sitting up and she nodded. â�œYes Iâ�™m afraid so.â� She said and I nodded getting up and grabbing my coat putting it on and walking out of the door I got a pair of sunglasses out of my pocket and put them on before walking down the long driveway onto the main road.

I guess going to these sessions got me out of the house and supposedly â�˜helpedâ�™ but I didnâ�™t really think they did. Gerard wanted me to go on them, he watched me crumbled when Dawn left me and thought itâ�™d be a good idea for me to talk to someone about it. I didnâ�™t see why I could just talk to him and Rachel and the others but he said a professional would be able to â�˜help you get betterâ�™ more like diagnose the fact everyone thinks Iâ�™m crazy. I ruffled my hair under my hood as I grew closer to the psychologistâ�™s office. I hated this place, I donâ�™t understand why Iâ�™m still going after two years itâ�™s not helping, I think everyone can see that.

I walked inside and signed in before sitting in the waiting room. I unzipped my coat and took my glasses off before sitting back on my chair and waiting to be called in. I got lost in my thoughts until I heard my name called by a woman in a white uniform. I followed her into the room where the psychologist was situated and the woman in white whispered something to her before leaving again. I sat down on the edge of the seat and Lola , the psychologist smiled at me.

â�œHow are you today Frank?â� she asked and I rubbed my neck. â�œIâ�™m not sure.â� I said and she raised an eyebrow. â�œHow so?â� she asked. I hated the way all she did was ask questions, I hated explaining myself. â�œIâ�™m not feeling so happy right now.â� I sighed picking at my finger nails. â�œExplain.â� She said softly and I tensed up getting sick of the questions already. I felt like screaming at her â�œNo you explain,â� and leaving the room, but I didnâ�™t. â�œWell itâ�™s Dawnâ�™s birthday next week.â� I said and she nodded before writing something down on the clipboard in her hand. â�œI guess Iâ�™ve just been thinking about her more, and with me not having Rachel to take my mind off things I guess Iâ�™ve just missed her more than ever.â� I said sighing heavily. â�œI see,â� she said and wrote something else down. I rubbed my forehead and curled up in the car.

â�œSo do you think that Rachel is just a distraction from the grief you are feeling at the moment.â� Lola said sitting her clipboard on the desk in front of her and putting her hands on her lap. â�œWhat?â� I said in disbelief and she repeated what sheâ�™d just said word from word. â�œNo, no! I love Rachel.â� I said trying to reassure her, but it wasnâ�™t working. â�œAre you sure about that Frank?â� she asked me and I nodded. â�œIt seems to me that you still love Dawn, and Rachel is just someone who is there.â� The doctor said and I sneered at her. â�œThatâ�™s bullshit.â� I said and she looked at me. â�œI donâ�™t think it is Frank,â� she said. â�œIt is itâ�™s fucking bullshit!â� I repeated louder. â�œFrank, please donâ�™t use language like that.â� She said and I sighed. â�œI love Rachel.â� I said to her and she wrote something down on her clipboard. â�œI think you just need to realise what sort of love it really is.â� She said and I looked at her confused. â�œFrom what Iâ�™ve heard it seems she comforts you, so she is more like a friend that you care for.â� She said and I sighed furiously. â�œItâ�™s so much more then that! You wouldnâ�™t know you donâ�™t even fucking know her! Youâ�™re talking bullshit and this session is over.â� I said getting up and walking out of the room before slamming the door behind me, sheâ�™d left me with so many questions, wowâ�¦I really am fucked up.

About My Story,

Sorry guys but my Dad decided to reboot my whole laptop when he found out the sound had stopped working, after doing that the sound still doesnt fucking work so I lost everything for well nothing,

My latest chapter has totally gone and I'm trying my best to remember what I wrote and write that down on some paper,

My computer is being taken away on Monday to get fixed (i dont see why they cant just replace it after all it's still under guarntee) so yeah, I'll try type it up before then but if not I'm not sure when it'll be out, I'm really sorry I know a few of you have been asking when it's out,

I'll get it out asap, Thank you for understanding.

Love you all xRachelx :))

Are You Thinking Of Me? With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin Chapter 1

I like this text :)) New story, it needs a new banner, but I think i may wait until i get my hair but but cheyeah, I hope it isnt too terrible guys, enjoy and thank you for reading

If you can tell me what band/song the title is from I'll be very impressed :)

I looked back down the street at the house and let tears run freely down my snow white face. I looked down at my bags in my shaking hand and then to my stomach, now she was all I had. She was my baby. Yes, I was four months pregnant and running away from the father, now I know what you are thinking, what the hell am I doing? But you see, I have reasons, many actually. I had to leave now, while heâ�™s away itâ�™s better this way. The â�˜heâ�™ Iâ�™m talking about is a guy, a guy called Frank, Frank Iero the rhythmic guitarist of the band My Chemical Romance. And I Rachel Powell am holding his child, our child. That is why I had to leave.

I know he doesnâ�™t love me; he never has, even though I love him deeply. I understand though. I mean losing someone you care deeply is bound to have an effect on you. What Iâ�™m talking about is Frank, he lost his long-term girlfriend, Dawn, she was murdered, the police said it must have been mistaken identity; they never did catch the murderer.

I guess I was there for Frank in his time of need. I was able to comfort him, and thatâ�™s what he needed most, comforting. I was the one that would stay up late at night while he sobbed and mourned over the death of her. I never knew her myself. I was just a lucky fan I guess.

I met him about two months after the incident. I was the one that took him to the side and asked how he was, and I stayed while all my â�˜friendsâ�™ disappeared after finding out that the rest of Mcr were not interested in whores like them. The first time I met him we talked for about two hours, he explained what happened and showed me pictures of them. I didnâ�™t know what she looked like; I wasnâ�™t one for stalking them on the internet. She was beautiful, just as heâ�™d described her, her eyes and smile were perfect, and you could tell he loved her dearly. That night I fell asleep with him on the couch, in the morning we exchanged numbers and I left. Over the next couple of weeks we talked a lot over the phone and whenever he was in the area weâ�™d meet up for coffee. Then one night he was back in town and he invited me over to his house. He showed me some more pictures of them and then we talked but this time it wasnâ�™t about Dawn or himself, it was about me. He let me know how grateful he was, how much he appreciated me, and that heâ�™s sorry that Iâ�™d had to listen to him go on about her, I of course said I didnâ�™t mind. He just smiled at me and leaned forward slightly, I bit my lip nervously, and his lips touched mine, he placed a hand on my cheek and started caressing it with his thumb as he added more pressure to the kiss. His tongue slowly ran along my bottom lip and I opened my mouth and his tongue hesitantly slid in, our tongues crashed and glided together and my arms self-consciously wrapped around his neck. I pulled away for air and he smiled kissing my cheek. That moment was the happiest moment in my life, I was totally in love and I thought he was too.

Everything was amazing until the first time we had sex. It was about two months after weâ�™d been seeing each other it seemed a bit soon for me, but Frank had been hinting for a while so I gave in. It felt so amazing, having him inside me, the feeling it gave me as he moved in and out of me, everything was sensational until he came, I remember it like it was yesterday. He moaned, yelling a name but it wasnâ�™t my name, it was Dawnâ�™s. Thatâ�™s when I realised, he didnâ�™t love me, I was just a distraction for his heart break. It was so hard hearing him say that, when weâ�™d finished I went into the bathroom and cried for about fifteen minutes, I switched the shower on so he couldnâ�™t hear me, he didnâ�™t ask if I was okay and by the time Iâ�™d come out he was fast asleep in bed, well so I thought. I got in bed and he slid over towards me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He kissed the back of my neck and whispered â�œI love you Da-Rach.â� He said. That broke my heart even more, and I quietly cried myself to sleep, so quietly in fact he didnâ�™t hear me.

I stayed with him, hoping that he may learn to love me, but I didnâ�™t see it happening. I went on tour with him and I hardly ever saw him, girls would be jealous of me and make bitchy comments but he wouldnâ�™t say anything, he didnâ�™t even look at them, but if anyone even muttered the name â�œDawnâ� or something to that effect heâ�™d freak muttering things, heâ�™d be emotionally hurt and would sulk for the rest of the day. There was no one I could confide in, all the rest of the guys though we were happy together and Gerard was always saying how he was glad Frank had found someone to love again.

When we got back from tour I noticed Iâ�™d put some weight on, I got really nervous rushing to the store while Frank was out and buying every pregnancy test in the store. I got home and the first one I did said negative, I sighed with relief but decided to do the other three just to clarify. The second said positive so I did another and then the last one, those both said positive. I burst into tears, I couldnâ�™t tell Frank, he wouldnâ�™t want it, and he wouldnâ�™t love it, like he doesnâ�™t love me. I couldnâ�™t get an abortion as I am one hundred percent against them, so basically I was fucked. I decided to stay a little longer, Iâ�™m not totally sure why I decided to stay, I just did.

Last week Frank along with the rest of the band went away. They went to create their third album, they had been working on some songs and it was set to be the best yet. Thatâ�™s when I decided, I had to leave. There was no point staying longer, just so Frank could come home and find out I was pregnant and then leave me. I wasnâ�™t sure where I would go, but I just knew I couldnâ�™t stay here.

So one night about a week after Frank had left, I decided to leave. He hadnâ�™t called so I figured he didnâ�™t really care about me. I thought it was best, I packed all my stuff and grabbed some money, I silently left. And that is where you find me.

Running away I guess you could say was what I was doing. But as Iâ�™ve just shown you, I have reasons. Iâ�™ll bring up my child by myself and watch Frank from afar, just to make sure he would be alright. Iâ�™m sure he would be though. Gerard would look after him and heâ�™d soon find someone he could really love. I guess all I ever was in life, a good ear someone that cared in a world full of haters.

I got on the bus and gave some money in, â�œWhere to?â� the driver asked. â�œWherever.â� I replied and he gave me a ticket for the whole journey. â�œIs there something wrong miss?â� the driver asked and I shook my head. â�œNo, Iâ�™m good.â� I sighed and then sat down sitting my bags next to me. I leaned my head against the window. I watched as the town Iâ�™d lived in for the last six months, I was leaving behind all Iâ�™d known for all those months, all I felt slightly comfortable with was fading into darkness as I left Belleville, hopefully forever.

I was awake most of the night, as the bus just kept going, It stopped every now and then and a few people got on. I just thought about what names to give my little girl, I wanted to find out the sex of the child as soon as I could, so I could give it a name, personalise it. I eventually decided on Georgia, itâ�™s such a pretty name. For a pretty girl, I knew sheâ�™d be pretty, I just knew.

Eventually we stopped and the driver turned around and looked at me. â�œThis is the last stop miss.â� He said and I nodded getting up, and picking my bag off the seat. â�œAre you sure youâ�™ll be alright miss, I mean you with that baby and all.â� He asked. â�œIâ�™ll be fine thank you anyway.â� I smiled and him and he nodded and I got off the bus. I started walking, getting extremely tired. I eventually found a hotel and I was able to book a room for the night. I threw my bag down and collapsed onto the bed. I slipped under the covers and quickly fell asleep, alone, I missed Frank already but I had to move on, for the sake of my child, she canâ�™t grow up with a father that doesnâ�™t love her, sheâ�™s better off with no father at all, weâ�™ll be fine me and her, we donâ�™t need him we donâ�™t need anyone.

I woke up early in the morning and threw up, thatâ�™s the downside with being pregnant, morning sickness, I was supposed to have stopped having it about a month ago, but no it kept coming, I think that also the stress Iâ�™m dealing with probably doesnâ�™t help either, but hopefully itâ�™ll get better. When Iâ�™d finished puking I got into the shower and the baby started immediately kicking, sheâ�™s going to turn into a right little madam, just like her fa- never mind. I do remember though, Frank was particularly keen about hygiene maybe thatâ�™s why Georgia is kicking, why ever she was doing it, it was fucking annoying!

I collected my shit together and walked out of the room locking it up safely. I got some coffee from a Starbucks down the road and started my search for a new job and apartment, to start my new life. I was walking down the road when I came to a club, I paused seeing a sign and my I smiled slightly thinking that my luck may have changed. It was a â�˜help wantedâ�™ sign. I walked inside the club and coughed slightly as it was quite smokey inside, nothing I couldnâ�™t handle though, seeing as Frank smoked. I walked up to the bar and asked about the job telling them Iâ�™d seen the sign outside. The girl at the bar told me to wait and she went into the back to get her boss. â�œMiss, is it you looking for the job?â� he asked me and I nodded smiling. He had a kind face, greying hair and he was quite short and fat, but smiley all the same. â�œDo you know how to work lights and sounds, and if so can I see your proof?â� he asked me walking out from behind the bar and walking me over to a table to sit at. â�œYes, of course I think I have all the appropriate certificates.â� I said and started rooting through my bag. Luckily Iâ�™d packed the certificates to say I that I had had the appropriate training to work with light and sound. Frank said it would be a good idea for me to get them, as it meant I could come on tour with them, and it would give me something to do while Frank was playing. Anyway, I laid out my certificates on the table. The manager picked them up and inspected them.

â�œThese are very impressive.â� He said before passing them back to me, and smiling. â�œWhen can you start?â� he asked. â�œAre you serious?â� I asked shocked and he nodded. â�œWell, I-I donâ�™t mind, whenever.â� I said. â�œHow about tomorrow? We have a gig from a local band called Avenged Sevenfold, they wont need to much work, so itâ�™ll break you in gently.â� He said smiling. â�œSounds great.â� I said and he nodded. He got up and I shook his hand, â�œSo be here by four okay? Then you work until about midnight, and I shall pay you one hundred dollars a day, and you work every week night, is that okay?â� he asked and I nodded extremely pleased. â�œOkay good, thank you Rachel, I shall see you tomorrow.â� He said smiling and I nodded and then walked out of the club.

I walked down the street smiling. Things seemed to be looking up, maybe I could do this by myself, well there was no maybe about it, I had to now. I walked back to the hotel and paid for another night, now I had a job I could plan my spendings. I went to my room and sat on the best in front of the television I switched it on and started flicking through the channels and I started feeling really tired I switched onto some programme about celebrities and lay down. I was about to fall asleep when I heard something I looked at the Tv and my eyes started watering. It was Frank on Tv, well all of My Chemical Romance. I switched off and walked into the bathroom, I ran myself a bath and sat on the toilet with the lid down and I let tears roll down my face. Why did it have to be so hard? I shook It off trying to forget about it. I slid into the bath-tub after getting undressed and submerged myself in water except for the top of my stomach, it stuck out of the water, which I thought was quite funny, boy I was getting fat, I opened my eyes under the water and then came up for air.

Once Iâ�™d had a bath I got dressed in my pyjamas and fell asleep. Frank tormented my dreams meaning I had a very restless sleep, I kept waking up in sweats, which probably wasnâ�™t good for the baby, but there was nothing I could do. I got up eventually not wanting to be tormented by my dreams anymore, I sat on my bed wondering what to do I noticed there were computers in the lobby. I walked down and sat down at a computer. I bought two hours of internet time on it and then signed onto msn. I changed my name hoping to avoid talking to anyone that knew Frank well but it didnâ�™t work Nicole Bobâ�™s girlfriend popped up.

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Hey Rach,

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Hi

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Are you home?

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Coz I called yesterday and you werenâ�™t in,

Blue_coloured_pencil says: And your mobile is off

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Hello? Earth to Rachel!

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Yeah?

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Whatâ�™s wrong??

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Nothing, listen Nic, I left home, and Frank, he doesnâ�™t love me and Iâ�™m pregnant with his child, so I left and Iâ�™m not coming back, Iâ�™m trusting you to keep my secret, now, Iâ�™ve got to go, bye.

Kiss_me_im_contagious has signed out.

I sat there staring at the screen, I couldnâ�™t quite believe what Iâ�™d just done and said, I really hoped she could keep my secret she was one of my best friends, I should be able to trust her. I decided to go on myspace, for something to do. I got on and had several friend requests but when I looked they were all from fan girls that probably wanted to learn about Frank or pick a fight with me just for dating Frank. I declined them all and then looked at my photos I had many of me and Frank together, I deleted them all and then saw I had a new comment, it was from Nicole.

Nicole-BlueColouredPencil <33:

Rach. Wtf? I donâ�™t understand please call me as soon as you get this, you left me with so many questions, I just wanna make sure youâ�™re okay, please reconsider. xx

I sighed and went onto Frankâ�™s myspace, only his close friends knew he had this one, he had a public one and a friendâ�™s only one. I looked through it, it had one picture of me on it, and a big paragraph about Dawn which made me cry every time I read it as it was so sweet, and seeing as I was in a hotel lobby I decided not to read it. I sighed and exited myspace and shut down the computer. Great, I thought to myself, that wasted half an hour, now just three more the waste. I went back to my room and lay on the bed, I must have fallen back to sleep as I heard an alarm go off, I looked and it was three. I put some make-up on and changed my clothes to something more suitable and straightened my hair a little more. I left the room at quarter to four and walked to the club.

I arrived on time and walked up to the bar. The club hadnâ�™t opened yet and the manager was behind the bar re-arranging things. â�œHello Mr Rosette,â� I said, he turned around and smiled at me. â�œRachel, welcome to your first day of work.â� He smiled at me and I laughed a little. â�œNow the band are setting up in the back, if you want to get acquainted with the sound and light board then you can go ask the band what theyâ�™d like to do for the show. Rachel sat at the board and looked at it, luckily it was just like the one theyâ�™d had on tour.

I walked backstage and knocked on the door that had the sign â�œAvenged Sevenfoldâ�™s dressing roomâ� attached to it. I heard someone yell come in and I opened the door and poked my head around. â�œHi,â� I said and then paused looking around the room. There were five guys and one girl in there. â�œHey, whatâ�™s up?â� one of the guys said, he had black short hair, and when he opened his mouth two of his teeth gleamed, he seemed to have grills on two of his teeth. â�œHi, Iâ�™m Rachel and Iâ�™m doing the lights and sounds for the show, so does someone want to tell me what you want, and I shall carry that out.â� I said smiling, they seemed a friendly bunch. â�œZacky, you go.â� One of the guys said. A guy nodded, I guessed it was Zacky he got up and led me back out to the board. He showed me what they wanted and then walked backstage. I sat down and started flipping switches and I moved a few lights for them.

Two of the band came out and the girl came and sat next to me. â�œHi, Iâ�™m Becca.â� She smiled. She had pillar box red hair and bright blue eyes lined with a little eyeliner. â�œHey Iâ�™m Rachel,â� I smiled back. â�œSo what do you play?â� I asked her and she chuckled. â�œIâ�™m not in the band, Iâ�™m just going out with one of them, the drummer.â� She said. â�œOh sorry.â� I said, but she smiled at me. â�œDonâ�™t worry about it. So you new to this?â� she asked me and I shook my head. â�œNo, Iâ�™ve done it before, for some band,â� I said not really wanting to get into detail. I think Becca took the hint as she nodded and didnâ�™t talk about it anymore.

The band came out and started to introduce themselves and I flipped a few switches. I watched as they started playing a song they called Bat Country, I had to say I was quite amazed, they sounded so professional, so finely tuned. The guy I was talking to before seemed to be playing the same instrument as Frank did, rhythmic guitar. I watched them perform and I was quite taken aback by their skills. â�œAre these guys signed?â� I asked Becca when the song had finished and she shook her head. â�œTheyâ�™re hopefully in the process of getting signed, maybe in a month or two why?â� she asked me and I smiled, â�œTheyâ�™re amazing.â� I said and she nodded. â�œCouldnâ�™t agree with you more.â� She said. I looked onto the stage and Zacky was looking at me, I smiled slightly and he winked at me which caught me off guard, I looked at him again and he smiled, I looked at the floor and blushed slightly. Itâ�™s too soon, I thought but then again, I should try and get over Frank, right?

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When You Go You'll Return To Me My Love Chapter 13 [THE END]

okay so yes last chapter, and I'm sorry this chapter has quite a few time changes in it, and i probably should have put it in 2 chapters but I thought it was better to get it all out before I go away for 3 weeks, so enjoy :)

*1 year later*

Rachel, Brina, Sarah, Sky, Nicole had gone along with the whole of My Chemical Romance to visit Fall Out Boy and Lois on the Warped Tour as a sort of holiday, they were staying for two weeks before going back to the recording studio. â�œFrank!â� Rachel yelled walking around the backstage of the stage. â�œWhat?â� he called from somewhere else, he then appeared with his guitar pansy around him. â�œWhy have you got Pansy out?â� she asked looking him up and down. â�œSome band called the Gallows want me to play with them, and seeing as Iâ�™d be bored the rest of the day as the others have fucked off to check out some band or other I agreed.â� He explained tuning his guitar. â�œAhh okay, well Iâ�™ll be in the audience watching you then, I was going to check them out anyway, seeing as theyâ�™re English.â� Rachel smiled. â�œI checked them out the other day while you were shopping, theyâ�™re really good.â� Frank said before kissing Rachel on the forehead and walking off. â�œYou missed.â� She said â�œHuh?â� Frank said turning to her. â�œYou missed, this is how you do it.â� Rachel said walking up to Frank and kissing him on the lips. â�œThatâ�™s the way to do it.â� She said smiling. â�œAhh, sorry Iâ�™ll remember that next time.â� He said winking before walking back again.

Rachel heard the frontman yelled â�œOkay fuckers listen up, we have a guy, likes to call himself Frank Iero, heâ�™s apparently in some band My Chemical Romance, and he begged to come play with us so give him a fucking warm welcome.â� He said and Rachel laughed, she then made her way down the stairs and got the security guards to let her to the front of the crowd. Frank spotted her and smiled before thrashing on his guitar and head banging. Rachel started dancing and head banging also. Frank watched from the stage as he hips swayed and her perfect body danced to the beat the band was playing. He then watched as she started gasping, he thought that she was probably out of breath from the dancing. But before he could do anything she collapsed.

He gasped and ran to a mike. â�œEveryone keep still someone has just collapsed at the front of the crowd, donâ�™t move!â� he said throwing down his guitar breaking it. â�œShit,â� he said as he heard it smash. He jumped of the front of the stage and ran to the crowd jumping over the barrier, he picked Rachel up and kissed her forehead. â�œRach, Rachie wake up please, come on baby.â� He said as he took her out of the crowd. He walked to the ambulances situated at the side of the stage and some paramedics took her off of him. â�œDude Iâ�™m sorry, I hope sheâ�™s okay.â� The singer of the Gallows said as he ran up to Frank. â�œThanks, Iâ�™m sorry I canâ�™t play but I gotta go with her.â� He said and then got into the ambulance and it drove them out of the venue. They arrived at the hospital and soon Rachel was being put onto a gurney.

â�œWhatâ�™s wrong with her?â� Frank asked straight to the point as he looked down at Rachel, the colour had now drained from her flawless skin. â�œIâ�™m sorry sir, we will have to carry out extensive tests before we can be sure we know, now can you tell me what was she was doing before she collapsed.â� A nurse asked as they wheeled her into accident and emergency. â�œErrmm, well I was onstage playing guitar and she was dancing and head banging just having an all round good time and like I watch her like gasp, and she like put her hand on her chest and then just collapsed,â� Frank explained and the nurse nodded taking in what Frank was saying. The nurse started walking into the A&E and Frank followed but was soon stopped by her. â�œIâ�™m sorry sir but you canâ�™t come in, but can I ask what is your name?â� she said. â�œItâ�™s Frank Iero.â� He said scratching the back of his head nervously. â�œIâ�™m guessing that is Mrs Iero then?â� she asked and he shook his head. â�œNo no, sheâ�™s just my girlfriend, her name is Rachel Powell.â� He said, the nurse nodded and then closed the door.

Frank sat outside on a chair before spotting a pay phone. He called up Brina and told her what was happening he then asked her to spread the word before sitting back down, he was shaking. He was worried sick, literally he couldâ�™ve puked he was so sick with worry, all he thought over and over was â�œwhat if itâ�™s my fault?â� He soon heard running and then Brina joined him on the chairs and hugged the living shit out of him. â�œWhatâ�™s happening Frank?â� Brina asked and Frank just broke down. â�œI donâ�™t know Bri, I really donâ�™t the fecking know, they wont tell me anything.â� He said wiping his eyes. â�œWhat why not?â�Brina said enraged. Frank just shrugged. â�œRight thatâ�™s it.â� Brina said and marched to front desk. â�œWhat the hell is wrong with my sister?â� she yelled with tears in her eyes. â�œBaby calm down.â� Gerard said coming up behind Brina. â�œNo Gerard I cant calm down I want to know whatâ�™s wrong with Rachel!â� she said before bursting into tears and burying her head in Gerardâ�™s shoulder. â�œSorry nurse, we were just wondering do you know what is wrong is Miss Rachel Powell she was brought in about forty-five minutes ago.â� Gerard said calmly while comforting Brina. â�œIâ�™m sorry Sir she is still under examination, if you wait patiently a doctor will come out and tell you the news.â� The nurse said and then walked away. â�œCome on Bri, letâ�™s sit back down again.â� Gerard said kissing her forehead and leading her back to the chairs were Sky, Sarah and Nicole were comforting Frank. â�œItâ�™s probably nothing Frank,â� Nicole said giving him a side hug. â�œI have this feeling though Nic, that it is something, something real bad.â� Frank said hugging her back.

They waited two hours more until a worried doctor came with a worried look on his face. â�œMr Iero?â� he asked and Frank looked up, many of the others had fallen asleep as it was nearly 11pm and everyone had had a busy day. â�œYes,â� he said quietly in a croaky voice. â�œI have news on Rachel.â� The doctor said sighing. Frank looked up and so did Gerard as he was now awake. â�œShe has a hole in her heart,â� he doctor started explaining. â�œIt seems, that she was born with it closed up soon after she was born, but somehow, it reopened for whatever reason and as she seemed to be, well from what you have told my nurses doing physical activity itâ�™s put pressure on her heart on and she collapsed, she smacked her head on the floor and sheâ�™s in a coma, Iâ�™m sorry Mr Iero.â� The doctor said and Frank started to cry again. â�œWi, wil she wake up?â� Frank asked. â�œWe are not sure, there are no promises, we have to operate on her though, to fix the hole, otherwise she will definitely die.â� The doctor said and Frank nodded. â�œSo can you give me your permission please, as Rachel canâ�™t.â� the doctor said, Frank nodded signing the form on the clipboard. â�œOh and Iâ�™m not sure if you knew, but Rach is pregnant, four months gone it seems, did you know?â� the doctor asked and Frankâ�™s jaw dropped. â�œNâ�¦no I didnâ�™t, is the baby okay?â� Frank asked. â�œYes it seems fine, and donâ�™t worry it should be fine during the procedure as well, would you like to know the sex?â� the doctor asked and Frank looked over at Gerard and he shrugged. â�œUm, not right now thank you anyway.â� Frank said and the doctor walked back into the room which Rachel was situated in. Frank got up and headed out of the hospital he got a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, he hadnâ�™t had one in three weeks and was trying to keep clean for Rachel, but he was so angry , upset and worried right now he needed one. He put the fag to his lips and lit it he inhaled and blew it out of his nose, savouring the taste of nicotine once more. â�œFrank,â� Gerard said walking towards him. â�œI thought youâ�™d quit those cancer sticks man!â� Gerard said looking at him. â�œI had but itâ�™s just too much to deal with right now.â� Frank said taking another puff. â�œI understand, so how come you didnâ�™t want to know the sex of the baby?â� Gerard asked. â�œWell I know Rachel never wanted to know until the birth so I thought I wouldnâ�™t know either.â� Frank shrugged. Gerard nodded. â�œSheâ�™ll be fine dude. Sheâ�™s a fighter, just like you.â� Gerard said before heading inside.

When Frank had finished his fag he headed back inside to see everyone but Ray and Sarah awake. â�œIâ�™ve never seen them so quiet.â� Frank laughed. â�œHow are you holding up?â� Brina asked. â�œWell, finding out Rach is pregnant was a big shock, but yeah I guess Iâ�™m okay, I just really want to see her.â� Frank sighed and sat back down. â�œWeâ�™re gonna go Frank, I hope you donâ�™t mind, itâ�™s just me and Nic got a busy day tomorrow, weâ�™re starting to plan the wedding.â� Bob said standing up and Nicole stood up too smiling. â�œNo thatâ�™s fine dude, see you some time.â� Frank said hugging Bob and Nicole. â�œYou sure youâ�™re okay Frank? I mean I wouldnâ�™t want to leave you if youâ�™re really upset.â� Nicole said looking him in the eye. â�œIâ�™m fine Nic, honest, you go, donâ�™t worry about me.â� Frank sighed. â�œYou know we will but yeah, see you soon okay?â� Nicole said hugging him again before Bob took her hand and they left. â�œEveryone else you can go now if you want? Theyâ�™re probably prepping Rach for surgery and it seems pretty serious so itâ�™ll probably be a long procedure, I donâ�™t mind if you guys go.â� Frank said. â�œIâ�™m staying Frank.â� Brina said nodding. â�œSo am Iâ� Gerard informed Frank. â�œGuys you really do-â� Frank said but Brina interrupted him. â�œWeâ�™re staying.â� She said. â�œYou should go home Frank, you look like death.â� Sky said. â�œGee thanks Sky, you boost my self esteem so much.â� Frank said sarcastically. â�œI was just saying.â� Sky said in her defence as Mikey got up and wrapped his arms around her waist resting his head on her shoulder. â�œYeah I know, I was joking.â� Frank said. â�œOh right sorry, not my fault, Iâ�™m tired.â� She explained. â�œReady to go Sky?â� Mikey asked looking at her his head still on her shoulder, she nodded and kissed his cheek before he stood up and gave Frank a hug. â�œSee you later dude.â� He said and Frank nodded. Sky then hugged Frank and they left together.

About fifteen minutes later Ray woke up and woke Sarah up and they both left leaving just Brina, Frank and Gerard. â�œFrank I think you should rest, see if there is a relativeâ�™s room or something you can rest in.â� Brina said. â�œBRINA! I donâ�™t want to fucking rest okay!â� Frank yelled. â�œIâ�™m sorry itâ�™s just-â� Frank said but Brina stopped him. â�œItâ�™s okay I understand, Iâ�™m worried too but seriously you need to rest Frank, please Rachel would want you to.â� Brina said and Frank sighed nodding. â�œIâ�™ll go see if they have a relativeâ�™s room.â� He muttered getting up and heading towards the desk. Brina watched as the nurse pointed Frank towards the room and Frank nodded before walking off. â�œSheâ�™ll be alright wont she Gerard?â� Brina said as her head lay in his lap. â�œOf course.â� He said stroking her hair but he was lying, he was sceptical himself whether sheâ�™d be okay, what was wrong seemed pretty serious.

After a six hour operation Rachel was taken back into her room. Frank was now awake and waiting outside the room, Brina and Gerard had gone home to get some more clothes Frank and Rachel and to rest. The doctor walked out of Rachelâ�™s room. â�œMr Iero, Iâ�™ve got news on Rachel.â� The doctor said and Frank nodded, the doctor sighed and then looked at his clipboard. â�œThere were some complications during the surgery we almost lost her, but we fixed it, but we saved her and the surgery is a success sheâ�™s still in a coma though.â� The doctor said. â�œDo yo..you know what sheâ�™ll wake up?â� Frank asked. â�œIt could be tomorrow it could be never, Iâ�™m sorry Mr Iero, there is nothing we can do from now on.â� He said and then walked down the hall. â�œYou may see her now.â� A nurse said coming out of the room also. Frank walked in tears threatening to spill over again. He sat down on a chair next to Rachelâ�™s bed, it all seemed so familiar. Only this time, there was a big chance, she may die.

He took hold of her hand and kissed it softly, I put his other hand on her small stomach, he remembered Rachel saying that she was missing periods but she said that it maybe just because of the anorexia so she left it. He could hear her heart beat it was really slow and faint, it broke his heart to think what may happen to her.

â�œIâ�™m sorry Sir, but we have to do some more work on Miss could you wait outside, or maybe sir, you should go home, you donâ�™t look so good.â� The nurse said â�œCan I not have ten more minutes with her?â� Frank asked and the nurse shook her head. â�œIâ�™m sorry but these tests should be done now,â� the nurse said. Frank sighed nodding and getting up he kissed her on the lips, they were cold which made him upset, he kissed her forehead and stroked her arms. â�œCould you do something about the heat in here? Itâ�™s freezing; I want her to be comfortable.â� Frank said and the nurse nodded. Frank walked out of the room.

He got his cigarette out and walked out of the hospital, he sat on a bench and lit it. After a few puffs of his fag when a girl sat next to him. â�œExcuse me,â� the girl said, she was pale with black straggly hair and green eyes, she was wearing a black dressing gown with white stars. â�œYes?â� Frank asked stubbing out his fag as he didnâ�™t want to be blowing smoke in her face. â�œAre you Frank Iero?â� she asked nervously and he nodded smiling. â�œOh my, I love you guys so much, your songs have helped me so much.â� She said and Frank smiled. â�œWhy are you here may I ask?â� she said and Frank decided to tell her, she seemed nice enough. â�œWell,â� he paused. â�œWhatâ�™s your name may I ask?â� he said and the girl blushed. â�œAlexandra, I prefer being called Alex though.â� She smiled. â�œWell Alex, my girlfriend, you may have heard of her-â� Frank said but Alex interrupted. â�œRachel,â� Alex said and Frank nodded. â�œWell I was performing with The Gallows at Warped and Rach, see was in the crowd and well she collapsed, please donâ�™t tell anyone I told you that, I donâ�™t want it on the news just yet.â� Frank said. â�œIâ�™m so sorry to hear that,â� she said and he smiled at her. â�œAnd donâ�™t worry about it getting on the news, I have no one to tell.â� Alex smiled. â�œSo Alex, why are you here?â� he asked and she bared her wrists. â�œOh I see, Iâ�¦Iâ�™m sorry.â� He said looking at the floor before looking back at her blood stained bandages on her wrists. â�œMeh my fault.â� Alex shrugged. Frank sighed, â�œI donâ�™t understand why youâ�™d do that, youâ�™re beautiful.â� He said smiling and she shook her head. â�œAs Gerard says, everyone is beautiful in their own way.â� Frank said and she smiled. â�œIs Gerard married now?â� she asked and Frank nodded. She looked disappointed and Frank laughed. â�œYou gotta crush on him?â� Frank asked and Alex nodded embarrassed. He just smiled. â�œYeah heâ�™s married to Rachâ�™s sister.â� Frank said. â�œOh yeah thatâ�™s right and Pete Wentz is going out with their younger sister, Oh my god I just realised how much of a stalker I sound, sorry.â� She said embarrassed. â�œDonâ�™t worry about it, so Iâ�™m going to go home now, I need to rest,â� Frank sighed. â�œOh okay,â� Alex said and then paused before she opened her mouth again. â�œCould I have a picture of just me and you?â� she asked. â�œAre you sure you want one, Iâ�™m sure I look shitty.â� Frank said and Alex laughed. â�œYou donâ�™t.â� she said and took her phone out of her pocket. â�œShhh, Iâ�™m not supposed to have it.â� She smiled and then took a picture of them both. Frank then waved goodbye to her and then headed towards a taxi drop off.

He got them to take him back to the venue and when he arrived he was greeted by the lead singer of the gallows. â�œHow is she?â� he asked and Frank sighed. â�œHeâ�™s in a coma.â� Frank said, he gasped and hugged Frank â�œIâ�™m so sorry mate.â� He said and Frank nodded heading for the tour bus theyâ�™d brought to stay on. He got into his bunk finding a cuddly toy Rachel had. Frank bought it for her, it was a little puppy king charles spaniel, he got it for her as she was missing her dogs back home. Frank hugged it close, it smelt of her still, he started quietly crying until he heard a commotion on the bus that woke him up, the curtain he was behind was pulled away and he saw a Loisâ�™s tear stained face with Josh in her arms, Josh was almost one so it could babble and it sure as hell did. â�œIs it true Frank? Is Rach really in a coma?â� Lois said crying. Frank nodded and Lois cried harder, Frank took Josh off her and she sat next to him on the bunk. Josh started babbling at Frank and Frank babbled back. â�œYouâ�™d make a great Dad Frank,â� Lois smiled at him through her tears. â�œI may get a chance to find out.â� Frank said, â�œRach, sheâ�™s pregnant.â� He said to Lois and her jaw dropped. â�œOh my Frank, thatâ�™s great,â� she said hugging her. He nodded and she took Josh back off him. â�œAnyway weâ�™ve got to get back to Daddy, see you later Frank.â� She said getting up and waving as she walked off the bus. He sighed and lay back down, he started looking at some photos he had tacked to the top of his bunk, sheâ�™d changed so much since the incident with Matt. He thought about her more until her eventually fell asleep again.

*5 months later*

Since Rachel had collapsed Frank had had her moved to a hospital nearer to home, she hadnâ�™t woken up yet and Frank was starting to lose more hope everyday. He visited her like he did almost everyday but today was different. The doctor approached Frank and smiled at him. â�œGood Morning Mr Iero, as you know Rachel is pregnant and this baby of hers has been giving us signs the last couple of days that it wants out,â� she said and then paused. â�œNow we could give Rachel a C section which would involve making a small incision in her stomach to get the baby out, or we could leave it and hope Rachel wakes up, both come with a lot of risks.â� The doctor sighed. â�œThe C section would make Rachel some what weaker and she may find it hard to heal, on the other hand if we leave the baby inside her and she does not awaken, the baby will die, and this may cause Rachel to become weaker.â� The doctor explained carefully, she then took a deep breath and continued. â�œSo what would you like us to do?â� she asked Frank. Frank sighed running his hand through his hair. â�œI think, it sounds best to do a C section on Rach,â� he said and the doctor nodded before walking over to the desk telling the nurse what was happening.

Frank saw as they took Rachel away again to a operating theatre. Two hours later they took Rachel back to her room in a hurry, the baby was no where to be seen, Frank stopped the doctor. â�œIs everything okay? I mean where is the baby?â� Frank asked worried. â�œOh the baby is fine, itâ�™s just being weighed etc, itâ�™ll be put in itâ�™s Mumâ�™s room in about ten minutes and youâ�™ll be able to hold it if you want, the baby is yours right?â� the doctor asked sceptically. â�œEr yeah,â� Frank said looking at the doctor weirdly, thinking â�˜is she trying to imply Rachel is a whore?â�™ he shook it out of his head when he saw a cot being wheeled into Rachelâ�™s room, the doctor looked at him and he walked into the room to see a little bundle in a pink blanket, that told Frank it was a girl. He picked her up carefully, she was sleeping, and she looked so cute, she took her over to Rachel and got Rachelâ�™s hand to caress the babyâ�™s face, the baby woke up and opened its eyes slightly, Frank could see she had his eyes, which made her even more special to him. He kissed her head and studied every inch of her, she was perfect, she had a little tuft of white blonde hair coming from her head which meant she was going to have Rachelâ�™s hair. He decided to go to the hospital shop and get the baby something to wear, he reluctantly put the baby down and went to the shop, he got her a little pink hat and a matching jumpsuit with little teddies on it, he paid for them then took them back to the room, when he got back she was asleep again so he just left them, not wanting to wake her. He watched over her as she soundly slept trying to think of possible names. He knew Rachel had always like unusual names, but he just couldnâ�™t think right now, he decided to call Brina and Lois, for help.

He called them and told them the news and they both rushed down to the hospital. They arrived and the baby was still sleeping. â�œAwww Frank sheâ�™s perfect.â� Brina said Frank nodded he was sitting next to Rachelâ�™s bed holding her hand. Josh stumbled over to Frank and Frank picked him up placing him on his knee. â�œUncle Frank, is Auntie Rachel still sick?â� he babbled slightly but Frank understood. â�œYes she is,â� Frank said looking at Rachel. â�œWell she should get better, I miss her, she used to play with me all the time.â� Josh said folding his arms. â�œI miss her too,â� Frank said. â�œWe all do,â� Lois said taking Josh off Frankâ�™s knee, as she could see Frank just wanted to sit for a while, she took Josh over to the baby and showed him his new cousin. â�œWhatâ�™s her name?â� he asked. â�œI donâ�™t think she has a name yet, does she Frank?â� Lois asked and Frank shook his head â�œI know Rachel would want to be something peculiar she loves those sort of names.â� Frank said and Lois nodded. â�œI know sheâ�™s always liked the name Raphiella.â� Brina said. â�œThatâ�™s a really pretty name.â� Frank smiled. â�œIâ�™m going to call her that I think.â� Frank smiled and Brina and Lois nodded. â�œMr Iero, I just wanted to tell you, maybe, and Iâ�™m sorry to say this, but maybe you may want to think about switching Rachel off, sometime in the near future, her condition doesnâ�™t seem to have improved greatly.â� The doctor said. â�œNo, Iâ�™m not switching her off, I donâ�™t even want to think of that, no no no no no!â� Frank said the doctor nodded and left the room and Frank started to cry. Brina walked over to him and hugged him. â�œBri do you think I should?â� he asked. â�œI donâ�™t know Frank, I just donâ�™t know.â� She said honestly.

*4 months later*

Frank had been able to take Raphiella home now for 3 months and she was doing great. Frank still visited Rachel everyday at exactly the same time with Raphiella but his hope of her ever waking up was fading. He sat in the same old spot next to her bed and placed Raphiella on the bed next to Rachel and Raphiella started playing with Rachelâ�™s hand. Frank smiled and started talking to Rachel and Raphiella. He and looked at Rachel. â�œThe doctors have been talking about, about switching you off Rachel, and I really donâ�™t want to know, I know youâ�™d want me to be happy and I really miss you Rachel, but I think youâ�™re dying, we need you back Rachel, Raphiella needs her Mummy.â� Frank said and started to cry he kissed her lips softly and went to leave.

Rachelâ�™s monitored started bleeping faster, Frank turned around and saw as Rachelâ�™s eyes flickered open. â�œOh my god,â� Frank said rushing back over to Rachel. â�œF-Frank?â� she asked and Frank smiled kissing her forehead. â�œWhoâ�™s that?â� Rachel asked backing away from Frank who was holding Raphiella. â�œSheâ�™s our child Rach,â� Frank said. â�œNo, I..I never had a child, Iâ�™ve never even been pregnant.â� Rachel stuttered. â�œRach, youâ�™ve been a coma for nine months, when you went into the coma you were four months pregnant, this is Raphiella, sheâ�™s our baby girl.â� Frank said just as a nurse walked in. â�œOh my Miss youâ�™re awake.â� She said before pushing a button on the wall. The doctor walked in followed by two nurses. â�œSir can you please wait outside.â� The doctor said. â�œI want to stay.â� Frank said but he was forced to leave.

After about half an hour Frank was allowed to go back in. â�œRach? Are you okay?â� Frank asked and she nodded slowly. â�œIs it really mine Frank?â� Rachel asked. â�œRachel I love you, youâ�™d be the only one Iâ�™d ever have a baby with and if you still donâ�™t believe me look at your stomach there should be a scar where they did the C section.â� Frank said, Rachel looked. â�œIt really is mine,â� Rachel said quietly and Frank nodded. â�œCan I hold her?â� Rachel asked and Frank passed her over. Rachel held her close and Raphiella took hold of her finger. â�œI called her Raphiella, Brina said you like that name.â� Frank said and Rachel nodded. â�œI love it, Oh Frank sheâ�™s perfect.â� Rachel smiled, she leaned forwards and Frank softly. â�œI love you,â� Frank said. â�œI love you too.â� Rachel smiled. â�œBut I just want to know,â� she said. â�œWhat happened? The last thing I remember is watching you play onstage at Warped.â� Rachel said. â�œWell Rach, you collapsed as a hole in your heart had re-opened when you collapsed you hit your head which put you in the coma. They fixed the hole in your heart but you didnâ�™t wake up well that is until now.â� Frank explained, Raphiella started to cry. â�œOh she needs feeding.â� Frank said. â�œCan I do it?â� Rachel asked and Frank smiled passing her the bottle of milk, Raphiella suckled on the bottle while Rachel talked to Frank.

Frank went out and rang Lois telling her she was awake and she said sheâ�™d be there as soon as she could, he then phone Brina and she said sheâ�™d call everyone else and be there soon. â�œThe whole gang will be here soon.â� Frank smiled. â�œEven Lois and Pete and Josh?â� she asked and Frank nodded. â�œTheyâ�™ve been staying at my place as they wanted to be near you.â� Frank said and Rachel smiled. Sarah and Ray were first to arrive smiling their heads off and hugging Rachel. They were followed by Sky and Mikey, Sky wearing an engagement ring and then Nicole and Bob, who were having the wedding in a couple of weeks. â�œYou woke up just in time.â� Nicole smiled, â�œJust in time for what?â� Rachel asked. â�œTo be one of my maids of honour.â� Nicole said. Brina and Gerard walked in and Rachel smirked. â�œSomeoneâ�™s been busy.â� She said looking at Brina and her pregnant stomach. â�œI may look really fat, but Iâ�™m having twins, so sue me.â� Brina said hugging Rachel and laughing. Finally Josh ran through the door followed by Lois and Pete. â�œAuntie Rachel!â� Josh said at the top of his voice and Frank put him on the bed, he was almost two now and could sleep properly. â�œOh Joshie Iâ�™ve missed you.â� Rachel smiled hugging him. â�œIâ�™ve missed you loads you werenâ�™t there to play fire-trucks with me.â� Josh said. â�œOh well when I get out thatâ�™s the first thing Iâ�™ll do.â� Rachel smiled.

Two days later Rachel was let out although for the first six months sheâ�™d go back once a month so they could check on her heart. Six months later the band was doing great and after the success of their second album and touring theyâ�™d started working on a third album, which was set to be the best yet. Brina had her twins and named them Craig Mark Way and Natasha Lina Way. Nicole and Bob married in a massive church in Nicoleâ�™s home town Glasgow and they then went on a honeymoon to the Caribbean. Sky and Mikey were in the process of planning their wedding it would just be a small affair but perfect. Sarah and Ray were moving house and buying cats as they were not ready for children just yet. Lois was pregnant again and they were planning on getting married after the birth of their second child and Josh would be starting preschool very soon. Frank was planning on asking Rachel to marry him on Valentines Day and Raphiella was growing up to be a right little madam just like her mother and aunties.

So there is the end, I will be writing another while I'm away a Mcr/A7x so you have that to look forward to hehe or not as the case maybe I hope you enjoyed this story, and I'm sorry it wasnt long, but please comment/buzz, thank you →Rachel←

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When You Go You'll Return To Me My Love Chapter 12

*2 weeks later*

Frank, Rachel Brina and Gerard were all hanging about in Frankâ�™s house. Frank was in the kitchen making coffee, Rachel was lying on the floor and Gerard and Brina were cuddling on the couch. â�œYou guys make me sick.â� Rachel said throwing a screwed up piece of paper at them both as they cuddled. â�œRach, youâ�™ll be just the same when you and Frank get married.â� Gerard said. â�œMarried? Weâ�™re not even engaged yet.â� Rachel said sitting up. â�œYouâ�™re as good as engaged, why else do you think he gave you that ring?â� Brina said â�œReally you think so?â� Rachel asked getting excited â�œI wouldnâ�™t say it if I didnâ�™t mean it.â� Brina said smiling and laughing slightly at how excited Rachel was getting. â�œBut, I-oh shh, heâ�™s coming.â� Rachel said smiling like a fool and staring at her ring.

â�œTalking about me again are you?â� Frank said walking into the room and setting coffees on the coffee table. Rachel laughed rolling on her back and she stared at Frank standing above her. He smiled and her and kneeled next to her kissing her forehead before sitting on a couch at the other side of the room. Rachel got up and sat on his lap, he groaned as she sat on him and she giggled smiling at him completely content with the moment, she wanted it to last forever. â�œI love you.â� He whispered in her ear and she looked into his glistening hazel eyes. She put his hand against his cheek and stroked it with her thumb, â�œI love you tooâ� she said softly before pecking him on the lips which turn into a passionate kiss. â�œHey! Slut, not while your sister is in the room!â� Brina yelled. â�œShut up whore!â� Rachel said turning around and flicking Brina off while she sat there laughing. â�œThere you go again with those insulting nicknames.â� Gerard sighed. â�œWe were teenagers okay? Young and stupid, and itâ�™s not like weâ�™re going to change them after all these years.â� Rachel said in a matter of fact tone. â�œSorry Mrs Iero.â� Gerard said putting his hands up defensively. Rachel shot Gerard a glare until Frank spoke up. â�œMrs Iero hey? I like it.â� He said tightening the grip around Rachelâ�™s waist. She smiled at him and he picked her hand up kissing her ring. â�œDo you really like it?â� Rachel pondered. Frank nodded, â�œReminds me of my Mum.â� He laughed and Rachel grimaced at him, but he carried on laughing.

The doorbell rang and Frank got up pushing Rachel onto the couch. â�œAwww poor Rachie.â� Brina said and Rachel got up and kicked her. â�œDickhead.â� Brina yelled. â�œFuckface.â� Rachel yelled back and then walked into the hall. â�œNic!â� Rachel exclaimed walking over to Nicole and hugging her, Nicole hugged Rachel back smiling. â�œCome on in guys,â� Frank said as Nicole Bob walked into the house and he closed the door behind them. â�œThank you kind sir.â� Nicole said as Bob took her jacket off her â�œAnytime Princess.â� Bob replied kissing Nicole softly on the lips. Rachel tutted and Nicole pulled at tongue at Rachel. â�œGo in guys, me and Rach will make you some coffee.â� Frank said smacking Rachel on the ass and following her into the kitchen. Rachel jumped onto the counter as Frank started boiling the water in the kettle. â�œYouâ�™re especially cheery today.â� Frank commented getting cups out. â�œWell, yeah itâ�™s nice just hanging around with friends, itâ�™s just a shame, Lois and Pete couldnâ�™t be here and the others.â� Rachel sighed. â�œWell Lois and Pete are flying back today arenâ�™t they?â� Frank asked and Rachel nodded. â�œYup.â� She replied while nodding and Frank turned around and chuckled at her. He finished making the coffee and carried it into the lounge. As Rachel was following out of the room the phone rang. She walked over to it and picked it up answering â�œHello,â�. â�œHi,â� the voice answered, Rachel immediately recognised it as Pete. â�œI just wanted to let you know Lois has started having frequent contractions and her waters have broken so weâ�™re on our way to the hospital.â� Pete said quickly. â�œOh my, okay, what hospital?â� Rachel said slightly panicked. â�œUmm,..â� Pete said and Rachel heard him ask the cab driver which one he was taking them to. â�œBelleville State hospital.â� Pete stated and Rachel made a mental note of that. â�œWeâ�™ll be there soon Pete.â� Rachel said and then hung up. â�œGuys,â� Rachel shouted into the house. â�œWeâ�™ve gotta get to the hospital, Lois is having her baby.â� She said walking to the room. â�œWhat? Now?â� Brina asked standing up. â�œNo, in three weeks, yes now!â� Rachel said throwing Frankâ�™s hoodie at him and then putting her own on. â�œWill everyone fit in the car?â� Gerard asked as they walked out of the house. â�œWell, theyâ�™re going to have to arenâ�™t they!â� Rachel said getting in the front seat. Everyone piled into the car, and they were soon on their way to the hospital.

Meanwhile Lois was being laid onto a gurney and carted off to the delivery room, her contractions increasing every minute. â�œFuck, shit fuck, fuck fuck fuck!â� she screamed as more pain came. She eventually arrived at the delivery room and to maternity nurses were there waiting for her. They attached drips to her and watched over her as she screamed. Pete was by her side getting his hand crushed by Lois. â�œPete, I swear, you ever do this to me again Iâ�™mma fucking kill you.â� Lois screamed at Pete. â�œI know baby, youâ�™re doing great, just hang on in there.â� Pete said kissing Loisâ�™s sweaty forehead.

â�œI can see the head.â� One of the nurses said. â�œThank fuck for that.â� Lois sighed. â�œMrs Wentz, please refrain from swearing.â� One of the old nurses said. â�œI will do, when you call me by my real name, weâ�™re not married, Iâ�™m Miss Powell thank you very much.â� Lois said and then screamed in pain again. â�œShhshshh Lo, itâ�™ll all be over soon.â� Pete said softly in Loisâ�™s ear and she nodded before squeezing the shit of Peteâ�™s hand once more. â�œMiss, one more big push and the baby will be delivered.â� The nurse informed Lois, Lois nodded and pushed once more before, she heard crying. She collapsed onto the bed sighing heavily. Pete kissed her before being handed the baby. â�œWell done Miss, youâ�™ve just delivered a beautiful baby boy.â� The nurse said. Pete smiled and passed the baby to Lois. She took it and kissed itâ�™s forehead before taking itâ�™s fragile hand and letting it wrapped itâ�™s baby fingers around her finger. â�œWeâ�™ll be back in a couple of minutes to weigh him.â� The nurses said and Lois nodded.

Rachel poked her head around the door and smiled at Lois and Pete. â�œWeâ�™ve got half the tribe out here, can we come in?â� she asked. â�œSure, just donâ�™t be too loud.â� Lois said and Rachel nodded, she opened the door fully and walked in followed by Frank, Brina, Gerard Nicole and Bob. â�œAwww, heâ�™s gorgeous.â� Nicole cooed. â�œHow did you know it was a he?â� Brina asked. â�œCome on, itâ�™s pretty obvious, blue blanket.â� Nicole said smiling and stroking the babyâ�™s head softly. Lois smiled, â�œWell sheâ�™s right, itâ�™s a boy.â� Lois announced and everyone smiled. â�œWhatâ�™s his name?â� Gerard asked. â�œWell one thing is for sure, heâ�™s not going to be called Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz the fourth.â� Lois laughed. â�œAwww,â� Pete said disappointed but he was laughing slightly. â�œWe were thinking about Josh.â� Lois said. â�œAwww, thatâ�™s so cute.â� Rachel said and then stroked Joshâ�™s cheek with her finger.

â�œMakes me want one now.â� Brina said and Gerard smiled and whispered something in Brinaâ�™s ear which made her giggle. â�œOh God.â� Rachel said laughing and Frank wrapped his arms around her waist. â�œYou know,â� he whispered in her ear making her shiver. â�œItâ�™d be nice to hear the pitter-patter of tiny feet around the house.â� He continued and Rachel looked up smiling at him. â�œWell maybe,â� Rachel said but was interrupted by one of the nurses coming in. â�œOh we have quite a congregation in here, Iâ�™m afraid Miss Powell weâ�™re going to have to take the baby away for a while to check him out, have you thought of a name yet?â� the nurse asked taking the baby from Lois. â�œYes, Joshua Lewis Wentz.â� Lois said, the nurse nodded and walked out of the room cooing at the baby. â�œLewis hey?â� Pete said. â�œHe had to have something from his Daddy.â� Lois said. â�œI love the sound of that, Daddy.â� Pete smiled and Lois kissed him. â�œAnd you Mummy look exhausted.â� Pete said and Lois sniggered. â�œNo, Iâ�™m fine, guys you should all get a chair.â� Lois said, Rachel nodded and got everyone chairs. â�œSo, are you going to go back to England now?â� Brina asked. â�œWell, I think weâ�™re going to have to stay a little longer because of the baby, but eventually we will.â� Lois explained.

â�œIâ�™m really going to miss you guys.â� Rachel sighed as she was sitting on Frankâ�™s knee. â�œWeâ�™ll miss you too Rach,â� Pete said. â�œYeah, but you can come home and visit, but if you come back because youâ�™re running away weâ�™ll send your ass back home, you and Frank need each other.â� Lois said and Rachel nodded smiling as Frank tightened his grip around her waist. â�œYou really think Iâ�™d let her go that easily now? Not after everything that weâ�™ve been through, Iâ�™d fucking follow her.â� Frank said and that was followed by and â�˜Awwwâ�™ from the girls and laughter from the guys. â�œFrankâ�™s finally gone soft, it took long enough.â� Gerard said and Brina hit him lightly. â�œDonâ�™t be mean.â� She said and Rachel laughed. â�œYeah, donâ�™t be mean!â� Rachel laughed. â�œGod, sorry.â� Gerard said putting his hands up in defence. â�œWe forgive you.â� Rachel said smiling and he pulled a tongue at her.

â�œAw, Mummyâ�™s fallen asleep.â� Pete said smiling and stroking Loisâ�™s cheek. â�œIâ�™m so glad she found you Pete.â� Rachel smiled looking at Pete stroking Loisâ�™s cheek. â�œYeah me too, so many guys took her for a ride, used her, but you, youâ�™re the real deal,â� Brina smiled. â�œWell, sheâ�™s extremely lucky to have you both as sisters, you two care about her so much, I remember when we first started dating all she could talk about was how great you both were.â� Pete smiled. â�œBrina, I canâ�™t believe our little sister has grown up.â� Rachel sighed. â�œHow do you think I feel? I have two little sisters that have grown up, itâ�™s all rather, breath taking to say the least.â� Brina said. â�œWell I got one thing right.â� Rachel said. â�œWhatâ�™s that?â� Brina asked. â�œI knew youâ�™d be married first, I could tell, you seem the married type.â� Rachel said laughing slightly. â�œWell I have to say married life is marvellous, especially with the great guy Iâ�™m married to.â� Brina smiled and Gerard kissed her cheek. â�œI think Iâ�™m the lucky one Bri, to get such a wonderful woman.â� Gerard smiled.

â�œI think me and Nic are going to go now guys.â� Bob announced standing up and taking Nicoleâ�™s hand. â�œOkay guys, just use protection.â� Frank said. â�œWhat if we donâ�™t want to?â� Bob said and Nicole blushed. â�œDo you need a lift back to our house guys?â� Rachel asked and Bob shook his head. â�œWeâ�™re okay thanks.â� He said and then walked out of the room with Nicole â�œWhere are we going?â� Nicole asked Bob as they walked out of the hospital. â�œThatâ�™s for me to know and you to find out darling.â� He said smiling at Nicole. â�œBob, youâ�™re so sweet.â� She said smiling at him. Once they were outside the hospital Bob spun Nicole round and kissed her. â�œCome on.â� He said and then took her hand and they ran across the car park. They started walking Bob led Nicole. â�œNic, get on my back, itâ�™s quicker that way.â� He said and Nicole nodded before jumping onto his back. He started walking down a road when it started raining heavily. Bob laughed and he ran the rest of the way. He got to where he was heading and put Nicole down. â�œBob, why are we here?â� Nicole asked looking at the park in front of her. â�œWell, it wasnâ�™t supposed to be raining but-â� Bob said and got down on one knee and got a little velvet box out. â�œNicole Eilizabeth McWilliams Shand, will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?â� he asked smiling and opening the box. â�œAwww Bob yes, yes I will.â� Nicole said, Bob got up and hugged her before kissing her passionately. â�œYouâ�™re all wet.â� She laughed rubbing her nose against him. â�œI could say the same about you.â� He said, he pulled away from the hug and took the big diamond ring out of the box and slid it onto her wet finger. â�œItâ�™s so beautiful.â� She said admiring the big diamond set in platinum. Suddenly the rain stopped and the sun came out bringing a rainbow with it. â�œThis moment is so perfect.â� Nicole whispered to Bob. â�œA perfect moment for a perfect girl.â� Bob said before kissing Nicole again.