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Ive been a member of this site since 13th October '06 which is pretty amazing.
it was on my old account though fobfreakonaleash :')
http://fobfreakonaleash.buzznet.com/user/

i made this account on 1st November '06
I think its pretty amazing how much ive changed.
Not just in looks in personality and my whole being
I think its safe to say that this site totally changed me

Pretty sad right?
But meh who cares
At least i had fun rofl.

I think thats pretty amazing ^
Dont you?

:)

So,
two more months have past and still no update
Tbh, i dont think there will be another one guys :/
I'm sorry,
So many things have happened since i've last updated,
I've lost friend(s), fallen in love, grown up, left people behind, met new people
Everything tbh.
I'm never going to forget my buzznet people thats for sure,
I'll just have to see what's going to happen,
I'm not going to leave buzznet,
but for a while
I'mma stop posting stuff
Like, just use this for talking and commenting etcc.
And we'll see where i go from there,
I have too much work to do tbh
My GCSE's start next week :/
And i have coursework to do
I guess i'm making excuses
I'm sorry guys

I'll never forget youu,
and if you have myspace and/or msn and actually want to talk
message/comment/leave me a note, with your address,
I will add youu promise [:

Rachel Iero
xox.

I hope you dont feel i've abandoned you
Because i havent written a chapter in like foragess
I could make a thousand excuses
But I guess all in all i dont really know why I havent updated
I'm sorry
I guess not many people will read it when i do update
But I shall do anyway
So expect an update in the near futrue
For everyone who reads this/reads my fanfic
Thank you,
It means alot

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year
[:

I dropped my laptop,
meaning the screen smashed,
So I have no laptop for the time being,
So the chapter, is on hold,
But I'll get it out asap,
It's the same for mine and Bri's fanfic
It was my turn to do that,
I'm sorry ><
But I promise,
As soon as I can post it,
I shall

Thank you for understanding
xox <3

Sorry for the wait, school and shit :// well enjoyy xox

I knocked back my tenth shot of the night and lay my head on the bar. Frank had been calling me once everyday for the last week and I was not coping well.  With each call and message I missed him more, I wanted to ring him back just to talk to him, but I knew if I did that I’d have to explain.

I’d get a call every-other-day from Nicole; she told me that Becky now knew too, which I was a bit upset about as I wanted Nicole to keep the secret. Also Becky and Frank were close; Becky was the one that introduced me to Frank so I was worried that she may tell him.

I asked the bar tender to get me another drink, as this was my place of work I got free drinks, I didn’t work tonight but I thought I’d come here anyway, I had nowhere else to go, and I was drowning my sorrows so to speak.  I watched as the bartender poured me one she placed it in front of me and I went to take it but before I could a hand reached for it and picked it up. “Hey-oh hi Zackyyy” I slurred before turning back to the bar and lying my head on it. “Rach, how many drinks have you actually had?” he asked me and I shrugged. “Why?” I asked and I heard him sit down on a stool next to me. “I just want to know.” He said and I sighed looking up at him, he was a little blurry. “You’re not my fucking mother.” I said and he reeled back in shock like someone had slapped him. “I’m sorry, I just want to make sure you’re okay.” He muttered and I put my hand on his. “Please just tell me how many you’ve had.” He said and I sighed. “I lost count at number six.” I said and he sighed. “Do you really think it’s a good idea to consume this much alcohol, when you’re pregnant?” Zacky asked and I muttered “It’s this baby that got me in this mess in the first place.” Luckily he didn’t hear me, or if he did, he didn’t respond. I took the drink he’d taken from me earlier back off him and threw it down my throat letting it burn, the liquid ran into my stomach and the numb feeling became grater, I sighed and smiled at the fact everything that seemed to matter was disappearing. “No more now okay?” she heard him say. “Stop acting like my fucking mother, I know when I’ve had enough,” I slurred sitting up I leaned forwards to smack him but I missed and fell off my stool, I got up stumbling and straightened my dress. “Dance with me!” I slurred pulling Zacky towards the dance floor.  I collapsed into his arms and I saw him sigh before I passed out.

I woke up the next morning with the worst hang over I’d ever had. “Arhhh Rachel you’re so stupid!” I said to myself rolling over in my bed. Well I thought it was my bed until I opened my eyes, I shut them again quickly as light was shining through the curtains. I sat up and rubbed my eyes before opening them again, I looked around the room to see clothes thrown on chairs, most of them seemed to be Misfits shirts, men’s misfit’s shirts which made me start to worry. I still had my clothes on luckily but I was in a strange house. I stumbled out of the bed and out of the door.

It opened out to an apartment. I walked through looking around and bumped into something. I gasped and looked up to see Zacky with a tray. “Wh-why are you here?” I asked him stepping away. “Well, this is my apartment.” He laughed placing the tray down on the coffee table. “Oh, thank fuck for that, I thought some stranger had abducted me.” I said laughing nervously and he smiled. “No, you passed out and seeing as I don’t know where you live I brought you back here.” Zacky said and I sat on the couch rubbing my head. “Here,” he said passing me an asprin and some water. “Thanks,” I said taking them both from him. “So um, did we..sleep like together?” I asked nervously. “What? No no, of course not, I slept on the couch, I thought the bed would be better for you and the baby, so yeah I slept on the couch.” Zacky said and I smiled. “That is kind of you, I appreciate it.” I smiled and he sat next to me on the couch. “How is your head?”  he asked and I looked at him. “Feels like I’ve stood next to you, and you’ve blasted your guitar into my head for like an hour.” I said and he laughed smiling. “I made you some breakfast, if you want.” He said pointing to the tray which had two pieces of toast and some orange juice on it. “That’s really kind of you, but to be honest, I’m not that hungry.” I said leaning back on his couch. “That’s okay, I’ll eat it if you wont.” He said and I laughed as he picked up a piece of toast and took a bite out of it.

“I was an ass last night, wasn’t I?” I said after a while. “I’ve seen worse.” He laughed. “What did I do?” I asked waiting for Zacky to start complaining about me, but he didn’t. “You were fine honestly,” he said and I smiled. “Really?” I said and looked at him and he nodded. I sighed with relief and he looked over at me. “I’m a mess when I’m drunk,” he said and I laughed. “How so?” I asked and he laughed thinking about it I presume. “I fall over a shit load and act like a total idiot.” He said and I giggled. “I can imagine that.” I smiled and he got up. “I’m going for a shower, you can watch the tv or whatever, make yourself at home.” Zacky said getting up and walking out of the room. I lay my head on the couch and closed my eyes, my headache was starting to fade thankfully. I smiled at how kind Zacky had been considering we’d only known each other a month tops. I switched the tv on to a music channel and turned the sound down so the music could just be heard. Hinder- Lips Of An Angel came on and I started singing along, eyes still closed.

I heard what must have been the bathroom door open and Zacky came out and started singing the song I was listening to which made me smile. I sat up slowly rubbing my head and I rested it against the arm of the chair as the song finished. I sighed thinking about the lyrics and wiped stray tears from my eyes. Not really the ideal song to be listening to when I’m like this. Zacky walked back in the room and I sniffled. I walked into Zacky’s room and picked up my phone. There was another message, I sighed opening my phone I looked at my screen that read 1 missed call. I pressed cancel and then closed my phone over.

I didn’t know whether it was the alcohol still effecting me but I’d never been able to do that, in a way I felt bad, in another way it made me feel relieved. “Zacky, can I use your shower please?” I asked him and he nodded. “Sure,” he said and I smiled walked into the bathroom.

I undressed and got in the shower the hot water soothing my head and cleaning all the memories from the night before off me. I looked up at the shelf in the shower and laughed. Zacky must have had more shampoos and shower gels then me. I picked one that looked half decent and started lathering my hair with the clear liquid, I washed my hair getting the smell of alcohol and smoke out and I then got out of the shower. I put my clothes back on as I had no others with me.  I walked out of the room and Zacky was sitting on his kitchen counter. “Comfy?” I said with a smirk and he nodded his wet hair flopping over his eyes. I let out a chuckle and walked into the bedroom, to see my purse lying on the floor.

I got my phone out to check my messages, there was one from Brina asking how I was, I couldn’t reply to her. Out of everyone I felt worst about lying to her, she was my best friend,  I couldn’t lie to her, so I ignored the text. I looked at another I had, it was from Nicole it read: “Get on msn asap we gotta talk to you, it’s important xo Nicole” I sighed and saw I had another message...from Frank.

I listened to it and he went on about how he missed me and then he said something I’d never heard him say before. “We need to talk,” I sighed and closed my phone over. I’m sure if I was still with him and talking to him that he was now going to break up with me. I know from past experience that “we need to talk” never ended well. I took another look around Zacky’s room which was messy but organized and chuckled picking up my purse and walking out of the room.

I was making my way to the kitchen when I tripped and started to fall forwards but I felt two hands grasp my waist just in time for me not to fall. I turned around and smiled and I got lost in his enchanting green eyes.  “Um sorry,” I said gaining composure, although I had not yet been able to pull myself away from looking into his eyes. “It’s alright Rach,” he said and I noticed he was staring at me too. A small smile formed on his lips and he stood up straight letting a thumb of his caress my cheek slightly. I took his hand away from my head and laced my fingers through his. “I don’t think I’ve been totally honest with you Rach,” he said and I just made a small noise, too lost in his eyes to reply. “I-I....I don’t know how to put this,” he said and then stepped towards me again. Placing a hand on my forming baby’s bump. “I want to help,” he said and I didn’t fully understand what he meant. “Hm?” I said and he sighed. “I want to be there for it, for you.” He said and I smiled. “Zack I’m not going anywhere neither are you,” I said and he sighed breaking eye contact. “I didn’t mean like that sort of being there.” He said and then started leaning in. I started panicking slightly although I couldn’t seem to move. His lips pressed softly against mine and I found myself kissing back. I felt him smile into the kiss as I kissed back and he placed his hands on my hips. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I was enjoying the kiss when I felt his tongue run along my top lip, I moaned slightly opening my mouth and letting our tongues collide. I felt two of his teeth take hold of one of my lip rings and he tugged on it making me smile.

I pulled away for air and he smiled at me while I turned a bright shade of red. “As I said, I want to be there for you,” he said taking my hand. I smiled and pecked his cheek. “Thank you,” I said and he hugged me.

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I lay on the couch with my head hanging off the edge of it, I threw my phone in the air and let it fall down catching it again. I threw it up and missed when I went to catch it causing my phone to fall to the floor. "Fuck," I muttered to myself getting up and picking my phone up before I sat back on the couch. I started looking through my phone. I smiled at the pictures of Rachel and I, I then looked into further files and found pictures of Dawn, I started tearing up so I closed my phone over and chucked it next to me on the couch.

I heard someone walk in the room and looked up "Becky What the hell?" I said as she walked into the room and sat on the couch across from me. "What? I haven't seen Mikey in four weeks, and seeing as you have a week off he invited me here." she said. Becky was tall and slender, with short black hair and glasses that she rarely wore, she would not wear much make-up as she never needed to although her eyes were always lined with eyeliner. "I thought you'd be with Rach," she said to me and I sighed and shook my head. "She hasn't called since I got here." I sighed heavily picking up phone up and chucking it on the floor. I looked up at Becky who was staring at me so I quickly got up and picked my phone from the floor. I swear she was like my mother sometimes she was able to get me to do things like apologize and clean without saying a word. "Have you not called her?" Becky asked and I shook my head and then realized what a stupid motherfucker I'd been. I looked down at my phone and rubbed my eyes.

"It's Dawn's birthday next week." I muttered beginning to tear up slightly. I looked up a little and saw Becky nod, she got up and walked over to me and embraced me into a hug, I broke down on her shoulder and started crying. I know I shouldn't be doing this, it's been about two years now, I know she wouldn't want me to be unhappy, but I couldn't help it, she was the love of my life, and she got taken away from me by some worthless motherfuckers. “Oh…I guess you heard about Rachel then,” I heard a voice say I looked up at Nicole to see her standing there biting her hoodie sleeve. “What’s up with Rachel?” I said wiping my eyes and looking at her. “N-nothing,” she said quickly exiting. I got up to follow her but Becky stopped me and followed her. Nicole had long blonde hair with blue and white extensions she was tall and thin with pale skin, she constantly had rosy cheeks because of her make-up and eyes lined with eyeliner.

 (No one’s Pov)

Nicole walked into the hallway and was met by a yawning Bob. “Morning Beautiful.” He said and she smiled kissing him softly. “Bob, you need to shave.” She said and he laughed. “I thought you liked me all stubbly.” He said and she smiled. “I did, but now it’s just all spikey and it tickles.” She giggled and he kissed her again tickling her with his forming beard. “Like that?” he said and she nodded smirking. He smiled and hugged her until Becky grabbed her arm and pulled her to the corner of the room. “Owww,” Nicole exclaimed rubbing her arm and Becky put her hands on her hips. “What’s the matter with Rachel?” Becky asked Nicole seriously. “Nothing,” Nicole sighed looking away. “Nic, tell me, I deserve to know! She’s my friend too!” Becky demanded. “Sh-she’s pregnant.” Nicole said in such a whisper that Becky almost didn’t catch what she said. “That’s great! Why wont she tell anyone? I mean shouldn’t Frank know?” Becky said quickly thinking out loud. “She, she thinks Frank doesn’t love her, she’s run away.” Nicole sighed looking down at the floor once more. “What!? Why the fuck did she do that, he does love her, Nic we’ve got to tell him.” Becky said raising her voice. “Shh, no Becky we can’t I promised I wouldn’t tell you or anyone let alone him, I’ve broken one promise, we can’t break another.” Nicole said. “But Nic, he deserves to know.” Becky sighed. “I promised Becky, she’s our best friend.” Nicole said with sorrow in her eyes because of the situation they were both in. “So what are we supposed to do? Wait until he finds out, and then we’ll be the ones stuck picking up the pieces once more.” Becky exclaimed and Nicole nodded slowly. “He doesn’t deserve this.” Becky sighed and Nicole nodded again. “What are we going to say to him though? He’ll want to know what’s up with her.” Nicole said biting her lip. “We’ll just think of something.” Becky sighed.

(End Of No one’s pov)

My phone had now been replaced by a tennis ball I found down the side of the couch and I started throwing it against the wall and it bounced back to me, I sighed throwing it but let go too soon and it bounced back at an odd angle, I watched as Gerard caught is as he walked into the room and rolled it off his hand onto mine. He sat on the couch and looked at me. “How you holding up?” he asked and I shrugged my eyes fixated on the lime green tufty ball in my hands. I heard footsteps once more and looked up to see Sabrina, or Brina as she was more commonly known walk in and sit next to Gerard. Brina was tall and thin with brown hair that came just past her shoulders, it was straight almost always although her hair was naturally curly. She wore little make-up and had a great smile. Gerard took her hand and she kissed his cheek. I sighed and her brow furrowed. “What’s up Frank?” she asked and I looked up saying nothing and then looked back down again, I heard Gerard whisper something to her, I guess it must have been what was wrong with me because I saw Brina nod her head in the corner of my eye.

I heard someone walk in the room for about the tenth time today and this time I didn’t bother to look up. “Umm Frank,” Becky said and I looked at her. “Yes Becky?” I replied and Becky pushed Nicole forwards. “Nic wants to tell you something.” She said and I looked over at Nicole who was rubbing the back of her head. “The reason why I asked if you’d heard about Rachel is because, because,” Nicole said and Becky sighed. “She’s sick; I think she has the flu.” Nicole said hurriedly not looking at me but looking at the floor. “Oh right,” I said “Why did you think I’d be crying over that? She’s not dying is she?” I asked a little worried about her, but I guess it would explain why I haven’t been getting any phone calls. “No, no she’s just in bed ill.” Nicole said and then left the room quickly. I sighed and looked over at Gerard. “Dude, I’m  sorry, I’m sure she’ll be fine, I mean it’s not the end of the world, just flu not like she’s pregnant or anything.” He laughed and I nodded smiling slightly. “True,” I shrugged. “And what’s wrong with being pregnant?” I heard Brina say and I looked up at her and Gerard. “Nothing, you aren’t are you?” he said and she laughed shaking her head. “Good,” he smiled and kissed her on the forehead..

I envied their relationship, it had to be said. I’m sure most people did. They’d been going out for about five years and they were absolutely perfect for each other and they never fought. Everyone noticed how cute they were together and I think even the fans had released it was love and all the little fan girls with their crushes don’t bitch about them. Not like me and….Dawn, we always had our problems with them, they refused to see that we were in love, it really upset me that more than anything else, the fact every time I went on a site and saw a picture there was always a bitchy comment, it was the same with Rach I guess, on a larger scale as people had started getting used to seeing me and Dawn, I never really did anything about the situation with Rachel, and for that I am a bad  boyfriend.

I rubbed my eyes hoping that Gerard or Brina didn’t notice that a tear had fallen from them, I cried way too much, it was pretty pathetic, but I guess when you’re stuck in this place all your emotions go out of whack. Gerard got up and patted my back. “Call her,” he said before taking Brina’s hand and leading her out of the room. Brina gave me a sympathetic smile as she walked past and I opened my phone. I typed in her number and let it ring for what seemed ever. I was about to hang up when I heard a voice “Hey,” I heard it say and I replied “Hey Rach,” but the voice carried on talking, it was her voicemail. “this is Rachel’s phone I’m sorry I couldn’t get to the phone but if you leave me a message I’ll get back to you asap have a great day.” I heard her recorded voice say. “Hey Rach, call me back I…love you.” I said and then hung up sighing. I threw the tennis ball at the wall with all my might and it smacked the wall hard before hitting the couch. “So?” Gerard said walking back into the room. “She didn’t answer, she’s probably asleep or something.” I said and Gerard nodded. “Yeah, probably.” He said but even he was doubting what I’d just said. I lay back on the couch and just stared at the ceiling until I fell asleep.

I was woken by someone shaking me, I looked up to see Brina standing over me. “Frankie, it’s time for your session.” She said and I rubbed my eyes. “Fuck, I have one of them today?” I asked groggily sitting up and she nodded. “Yes I’m afraid so.” She said and I nodded getting up and grabbing my coat putting it on and walking out of the door I got a pair of sunglasses out of my pocket and put them on before walking down the long driveway onto the main road.

I guess going to these sessions got me out of the house and supposedly ‘helped’ but I didn’t really think they did. Gerard wanted me to go on them, he watched me crumbled when Dawn left me and thought it’d be a good idea for me to talk to someone about it. I didn’t see why I could just talk to him and Rachel and the others but he said a professional would be able to ‘help you get better’ more like diagnose the fact everyone thinks I’m crazy. I ruffled my hair under my hood as I grew closer to the psychologist’s office. I hated this place, I don’t understand why I’m still going after two years it’s not helping, I think everyone can see that.

I walked inside and signed in before sitting in the waiting room. I unzipped my coat and took my glasses off before sitting back on my chair and waiting to be called in. I got lost in my thoughts until I heard my name called by a woman in a white uniform. I followed her into the room where the psychologist was situated and the woman in white whispered something to her before leaving again. I sat down on the edge of the seat and Lola , the psychologist smiled at me.

 “How are you today Frank?” she asked and I rubbed my neck. “I’m not sure.” I said and she raised an eyebrow. “How so?” she asked. I hated the way all she did was ask questions, I hated explaining myself. “I’m not feeling so happy right now.” I sighed picking at my finger nails. “Explain.” She said softly and I tensed up getting sick of the questions already. I felt like screaming at her “No you explain,” and leaving the room, but I didn’t. “Well it’s Dawn’s birthday next week.” I said and she nodded before writing something down on the clipboard in her hand. “I guess I’ve just been thinking about her more, and with me not having Rachel to take my mind off things I guess I’ve just missed her more than ever.” I said sighing heavily. “I see,” she said and wrote something else down. I rubbed my forehead and curled up in the car.

“So do you think that Rachel is just a distraction from the grief you are feeling at the moment.” Lola said sitting her clipboard on the desk in front of her and putting her hands on her lap. “What?” I said in disbelief and she repeated what she’d just said word from word. “No, no! I love Rachel.” I said trying to reassure her, but it wasn’t working. “Are you sure about that Frank?” she asked me and I nodded. “It seems to me that you still love Dawn, and Rachel is just someone who is there.” The doctor said and I sneered at her. “That’s bullshit.” I said and she looked at me. “I don’t think it is Frank,” she said. “It is it’s fucking bullshit!” I repeated louder. “Frank, please don’t use language like that.” She said and I sighed. “I love Rachel.” I said to her and she wrote something down on her clipboard. “I think you just need to realise what sort of love it really is.” She said and I looked at her confused. “From what I’ve heard it seems she comforts you, so she is more like a friend that you care for.” She said and I sighed furiously. “It’s so much more then that! You wouldn’t know you don’t even fucking know her! You’re talking bullshit and this session is over.” I said getting up and walking out of the room before slamming the door behind me, she’d left me with so many questions, wow…I really am fucked up.

Sorry guys but my Dad decided to reboot my whole laptop when he found out the sound had stopped working, after doing that the sound still doesnt fucking work so I lost everything for well nothing,

My latest chapter has totally gone and I'm trying my best to remember what I wrote and write that down on some paper,

My computer is being taken away on Monday to get fixed (i dont see why they cant just replace it after all it's still under guarntee) so yeah, I'll try type it up before then but if not I'm not sure when it'll be out, I'm really sorry I know a few of you have been asking when it's out,

I'll get it out asap, Thank you for understanding.

Love you all xRachelx :))

I like this text :)) New story, it needs a new banner, but I think i may wait until i get my hair but but cheyeah, I hope it isnt too terrible guys, enjoy and thank you for reading

If you can tell me what band/song the title is from I'll be very impressed :)

I looked back down the street at the house and let tears run freely down my snow white face. I looked down at my bags in my shaking hand and then to my stomach, now she was all I had. She was my baby. Yes, I was four months pregnant and running away from the father, now I know what you are thinking, what the hell am I doing? But you see, I have reasons, many actually. I had to leave now, while he’s away it’s better this way. The ‘he’ I’m talking about is a guy, a guy called Frank, Frank Iero the rhythmic guitarist of the band My Chemical Romance. And I Rachel Powell am holding his child, our child. That is why I had to leave.

I know he doesn’t love me; he never has, even though I love him deeply. I understand though. I mean losing someone you care deeply is bound to have an effect on you. What I’m talking about is Frank, he lost his long-term girlfriend, Dawn, she was murdered, the police said it must have been mistaken identity; they never did catch the murderer.

I guess I was there for Frank in his time of need. I was able to comfort him, and that’s what he needed most, comforting. I was the one that would stay up late at night while he sobbed and mourned over the death of her. I never knew her myself. I was just a lucky fan I guess.

I met him about two months after the incident. I was the one that took him to the side and asked how he was, and I stayed while all my ‘friends’ disappeared after finding out that the rest of Mcr were not interested in whores like them. The first time I met him we talked for about two hours, he explained what happened and showed me pictures of them. I didn’t know what she looked like; I wasn’t one for stalking them on the internet. She was beautiful, just as he’d described her, her eyes and smile were perfect, and you could tell he loved her dearly. That night I fell asleep with him on the couch, in the morning we exchanged numbers and I left. Over the next couple of weeks we talked a lot over the phone and whenever he was in the area we’d meet up for coffee. Then one night he was back in town and he invited me over to his house. He showed me some more pictures of them and then we talked but this time it wasn’t about Dawn or himself, it was about me. He let me know how grateful he was, how much he appreciated me, and that he’s sorry that I’d had to listen to him go on about her, I of course said I didn’t mind. He just smiled at me and leaned forward slightly, I bit my lip nervously, and his lips touched mine, he placed a hand on my cheek and started caressing it with his thumb as he added more pressure to the kiss. His tongue slowly ran along my bottom lip and I opened my mouth and his tongue hesitantly slid in, our tongues crashed and glided together and my arms self-consciously wrapped around his neck. I pulled away for air and he smiled kissing my cheek. That moment was the happiest moment in my life, I was totally in love and I thought he was too.

Everything was amazing until the first time we had sex. It was about two months after we’d been seeing each other it seemed a bit soon for me, but Frank had been hinting for a while so I gave in. It felt so amazing, having him inside me, the feeling it gave me as he moved in and out of me, everything was sensational until he came, I remember it like it was yesterday. He moaned, yelling a name but it wasn’t my name, it was Dawn’s. That’s when I realised, he didn’t love me, I was just a distraction for his heart break. It was so hard hearing him say that, when we’d finished I went into the bathroom and cried for about fifteen minutes, I switched the shower on so he couldn’t hear me, he didn’t ask if I was okay and by the time I’d come out he was fast asleep in bed, well so I thought. I got in bed and he slid over towards me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He kissed the back of my neck and whispered “I love you Da-Rach.” He said. That broke my heart even more, and I quietly cried myself to sleep, so quietly in fact he didn’t hear me.

I stayed with him, hoping that he may learn to love me, but I didn’t see it happening. I went on tour with him and I hardly ever saw him, girls would be jealous of me and make bitchy comments but he wouldn’t say anything, he didn’t even look at them, but if anyone even muttered the name “Dawn” or something to that effect he’d freak muttering things, he’d be emotionally hurt and would sulk for the rest of the day. There was no one I could confide in, all the rest of the guys though we were happy together and Gerard was always saying how he was glad Frank had found someone to love again.

When we got back from tour I noticed I’d put some weight on, I got really nervous rushing to the store while Frank was out and buying every pregnancy test in the store. I got home and the first one I did said negative, I sighed with relief but decided to do the other three just to clarify. The second said positive so I did another and then the last one, those both said positive. I burst into tears, I couldn’t tell Frank, he wouldn’t want it, and he wouldn’t love it, like he doesn’t love me. I couldn’t get an abortion as I am one hundred percent against them, so basically I was fucked. I decided to stay a little longer, I’m not totally sure why I decided to stay, I just did.

Last week Frank along with the rest of the band went away. They went to create their third album, they had been working on some songs and it was set to be the best yet. That’s when I decided, I had to leave. There was no point staying longer, just so Frank could come home and find out I was pregnant and then leave me. I wasn’t sure where I would go, but I just knew I couldn’t stay here.

So one night about a week after Frank had left, I decided to leave. He hadn’t called so I figured he didn’t really care about me. I thought it was best, I packed all my stuff and grabbed some money, I silently left. And that is where you find me.

Running away I guess you could say was what I was doing. But as I’ve just shown you, I have reasons. I’ll bring up my child by myself and watch Frank from afar, just to make sure he would be alright. I’m sure he would be though. Gerard would look after him and he’d soon find someone he could really love. I guess all I ever was in life, a good ear someone that cared in a world full of haters.

I got on the bus and gave some money in, “Where to?” the driver asked. “Wherever.” I replied and he gave me a ticket for the whole journey. “Is there something wrong miss?” the driver asked and I shook my head. “No, I’m good.” I sighed and then sat down sitting my bags next to me. I leaned my head against the window. I watched as the town I’d lived in for the last six months, I was leaving behind all I’d known for all those months, all I felt slightly comfortable with was fading into darkness as I left Belleville, hopefully forever.

I was awake most of the night, as the bus just kept going, It stopped every now and then and a few people got on. I just thought about what names to give my little girl, I wanted to find out the sex of the child as soon as I could, so I could give it a name, personalise it. I eventually decided on Georgia, it’s such a pretty name. For a pretty girl, I knew she’d be pretty, I just knew.

Eventually we stopped and the driver turned around and looked at me. “This is the last stop miss.” He said and I nodded getting up, and picking my bag off the seat. “Are you sure you’ll be alright miss, I mean you with that baby and all.” He asked. “I’ll be fine thank you anyway.” I smiled and him and he nodded and I got off the bus. I started walking, getting extremely tired. I eventually found a hotel and I was able to book a room for the night. I threw my bag down and collapsed onto the bed. I slipped under the covers and quickly fell asleep, alone, I missed Frank already but I had to move on, for the sake of my child, she can’t grow up with a father that doesn’t love her, she’s better off with no father at all, we’ll be fine me and her, we don’t need him we don’t need anyone.

I woke up early in the morning and threw up, that’s the downside with being pregnant, morning sickness, I was supposed to have stopped having it about a month ago, but no it kept coming, I think that also the stress I’m dealing with probably doesn’t help either, but hopefully it’ll get better. When I’d finished puking I got into the shower and the baby started immediately kicking, she’s going to turn into a right little madam, just like her fa- never mind. I do remember though, Frank was particularly keen about hygiene maybe that’s why Georgia is kicking, why ever she was doing it, it was fucking annoying!

I collected my shit together and walked out of the room locking it up safely. I got some coffee from a Starbucks down the road and started my search for a new job and apartment, to start my new life. I was walking down the road when I came to a club, I paused seeing a sign and my I smiled slightly thinking that my luck may have changed. It was a ‘help wanted’ sign. I walked inside the club and coughed slightly as it was quite smokey inside, nothing I couldn’t handle though, seeing as Frank smoked. I walked up to the bar and asked about the job telling them I’d seen the sign outside. The girl at the bar told me to wait and she went into the back to get her boss. “Miss, is it you looking for the job?” he asked me and I nodded smiling. He had a kind face, greying hair and he was quite short and fat, but smiley all the same. “Do you know how to work lights and sounds, and if so can I see your proof?” he asked me walking out from behind the bar and walking me over to a table to sit at. “Yes, of course I think I have all the appropriate certificates.” I said and started rooting through my bag. Luckily I’d packed the certificates to say I that I had had the appropriate training to work with light and sound. Frank said it would be a good idea for me to get them, as it meant I could come on tour with them, and it would give me something to do while Frank was playing. Anyway, I laid out my certificates on the table. The manager picked them up and inspected them.

“These are very impressive.” He said before passing them back to me, and smiling. “When can you start?” he asked. “Are you serious?” I asked shocked and he nodded. “Well, I-I don’t mind, whenever.” I said. “How about tomorrow? We have a gig from a local band called Avenged Sevenfold, they wont need to much work, so it’ll break you in gently.” He said smiling. “Sounds great.” I said and he nodded. He got up and I shook his hand, “So be here by four okay? Then you work until about midnight, and I shall pay you one hundred dollars a day, and you work every week night, is that okay?” he asked and I nodded extremely pleased. “Okay good, thank you Rachel, I shall see you tomorrow.” He said smiling and I nodded and then walked out of the club.

I walked down the street smiling. Things seemed to be looking up, maybe I could do this by myself, well there was no maybe about it, I had to now. I walked back to the hotel and paid for another night, now I had a job I could plan my spendings. I went to my room and sat on the best in front of the television I switched it on and started flicking through the channels and I started feeling really tired I switched onto some programme about celebrities and lay down. I was about to fall asleep when I heard something I looked at the Tv and my eyes started watering. It was Frank on Tv, well all of My Chemical Romance. I switched off and walked into the bathroom, I ran myself a bath and sat on the toilet with the lid down and I let tears roll down my face. Why did it have to be so hard? I shook It off trying to forget about it. I slid into the bath-tub after getting undressed and submerged myself in water except for the top of my stomach, it stuck out of the water, which I thought was quite funny, boy I was getting fat, I opened my eyes under the water and then came up for air.

Once I’d had a bath I got dressed in my pyjamas and fell asleep. Frank tormented my dreams meaning I had a very restless sleep, I kept waking up in sweats, which probably wasn’t good for the baby, but there was nothing I could do. I got up eventually not wanting to be tormented by my dreams anymore, I sat on my bed wondering what to do I noticed there were computers in the lobby. I walked down and sat down at a computer. I bought two hours of internet time on it and then signed onto msn. I changed my name hoping to avoid talking to anyone that knew Frank well but it didn’t work Nicole Bob’s girlfriend popped up.

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Hey Rach,

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Hi

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Are you home?

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Coz I called yesterday and you weren’t in,

Blue_coloured_pencil says: And your mobile is off

Blue_coloured_pencil says: Hello? Earth to Rachel!

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Yeah?

Blue_coloured_pencil says: What’s wrong??

Kiss_me_im_contagious says: Nothing, listen Nic, I left home, and Frank, he doesn’t love me and I’m pregnant with his child, so I left and I’m not coming back, I’m trusting you to keep my secret, now, I’ve got to go, bye.

Kiss_me_im_contagious has signed out.

I sat there staring at the screen, I couldn’t quite believe what I’d just done and said, I really hoped she could keep my secret she was one of my best friends, I should be able to trust her.  I decided to go on myspace, for something to do. I got on and had several friend requests but when I looked they were all from fan girls that probably wanted to learn about Frank or pick a fight with me just for dating Frank. I declined them all and then looked at my photos I had many of me and Frank together, I deleted them all and then saw I had a new comment, it was from Nicole.

Nicole-BlueColouredPencil <33:

Rach. Wtf? I don’t understand please call me as soon as you get this, you left me with so many questions, I just wanna make sure you’re okay, please reconsider. xx

I sighed and went onto Frank’s myspace, only his close friends knew he had this one, he had a public one and a friend’s only one. I looked through it, it had one picture of me on it, and a big paragraph about Dawn which made me cry every time I read it as it was so sweet, and seeing as I was in a hotel lobby I decided not to read it. I sighed and exited myspace and shut down the computer. Great, I thought to myself, that wasted half an hour, now just three more the waste. I went back to my room and lay on the bed, I must have fallen back to sleep as I heard an alarm go off, I looked and it was three. I put some make-up on and changed my clothes to something more suitable and straightened my hair a little more. I left the room at quarter to four and walked to the club.

I arrived on time and walked up to the bar. The club hadn’t opened yet and the manager was behind the bar re-arranging things. “Hello Mr Rosette,” I said, he turned around and smiled at me. “Rachel, welcome to your first day of work.” He smiled at me and I laughed a little. “Now the band are setting up in the back, if you want to get acquainted with the sound and light board then you can go ask the band what they’d like to do for the show. Rachel sat at the board and looked at it, luckily it was just like the one they’d had on tour.

 I walked backstage and knocked on the door that had the sign “Avenged Sevenfold’s dressing room” attached to it. I heard someone yell come in and I opened the door and poked my head around. “Hi,” I said and then paused looking around the room. There were five guys and one girl in there. “Hey, what’s up?” one of the guys said, he had black short hair, and when he opened his mouth two of his teeth gleamed, he seemed to have grills on two of his teeth. “Hi, I’m Rachel and I’m doing the lights and sounds for the show, so does someone want to tell me what you want, and I shall carry that out.” I said smiling, they seemed a friendly bunch. “Zacky, you go.” One of the guys said. A guy nodded, I guessed it was Zacky he got up and led me back out to the board. He showed me what they wanted and then walked backstage. I sat down and started flipping switches and I moved a few lights for them.

Two of the band came out and the girl came and sat next to me. “Hi, I’m Becca.” She smiled. She had pillar box red hair and bright blue eyes lined with a little eyeliner. “Hey I’m Rachel,” I smiled back. “So what do you play?” I asked her and she chuckled. “I’m not in the band, I’m just going out with one of them, the drummer.” She said. “Oh sorry.” I said, but she smiled at me. “Don’t worry about it. So you new to this?” she asked me and I shook my head. “No, I’ve done it before, for some band,” I said not really wanting to get into detail. I think Becca took the hint as she nodded and didn’t talk about it anymore.

The band came out and started to introduce themselves and I flipped a few switches. I watched as they started playing a song they called Bat Country, I had to say I was quite amazed, they sounded so professional, so finely tuned. The guy I was talking to before seemed to be playing the same instrument as Frank did, rhythmic guitar. I watched them perform and I was quite taken aback by their skills. “Are these guys signed?” I asked Becca when the song had finished and she shook her head. “They’re hopefully in the process of getting signed, maybe in a month or two why?” she asked me and I smiled, “They’re amazing.” I said and she nodded. “Couldn’t agree with you more.” She said. I looked onto the stage and Zacky was looking at me, I smiled slightly and he winked at me which caught me off guard, I looked at him again and he smiled, I looked at the floor and blushed slightly. It’s too soon, I thought but then again, I should try and get over Frank, right?

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okay so yes last chapter, and I'm sorry this chapter has quite a few time changes in it, and i probably should have put it in 2 chapters  but I thought it was better to get it all out before I go away for 3 weeks, so enjoy :) 

*1 year later*

Rachel, Brina, Sarah, Sky, Nicole had gone along with the whole of My Chemical Romance to visit Fall Out Boy and Lois on the Warped Tour as a sort of holiday, they were staying for two weeks before going back to the recording studio. “Frank!” Rachel yelled walking around the backstage of the stage. “What?” he called from somewhere else, he then appeared with his guitar pansy around him. “Why have you got Pansy out?” she asked looking him up and down. “Some band called the Gallows want me to play with them, and seeing as I’d be bored the rest of the day as the others have fucked off to check out some band or other I agreed.” He explained tuning his guitar. “Ahh okay, well I’ll be in the audience watching you then, I was going to check them out anyway, seeing as they’re English.” Rachel smiled. “I checked them out the other day while you were shopping, they’re really good.” Frank said before kissing Rachel on the forehead and walking off. “You missed.” She said “Huh?” Frank said turning to her. “You missed, this is how you do it.” Rachel said walking up to Frank and kissing him on the lips. “That’s the way to do it.” She said smiling. “Ahh, sorry I’ll remember that next time.” He said winking before walking back again.

Rachel heard the frontman yelled “Okay fuckers listen up, we have a guy, likes to call himself Frank Iero, he’s apparently in some band My Chemical Romance, and he begged to come play with us so give him a fucking warm welcome.” He said and Rachel laughed, she then made her way down the stairs and got the security guards to let her to the front of the crowd. Frank spotted her and smiled before thrashing on his guitar and head banging.  Rachel started dancing and head banging also. Frank watched from the stage as he hips swayed and her perfect body danced to the beat the band was playing. He then watched as she started gasping, he thought that she was probably out of breath from the dancing. But before he could do anything she collapsed.

He gasped and ran to a mike. “Everyone keep still someone has just collapsed at the front of the crowd, don’t move!” he said throwing down his guitar breaking it. “Shit,” he said as he heard it smash. He jumped of the front of the stage and ran to the crowd jumping over the barrier, he picked Rachel up and kissed her forehead. “Rach, Rachie wake up please, come on baby.” He said as he took her out of the crowd. He walked to the ambulances situated at the side of the stage and some paramedics took her off of him. “Dude I’m sorry, I hope she’s okay.” The singer of the Gallows said as he ran up to Frank. “Thanks, I’m sorry I can’t play but I gotta go with her.” He said and then got into the ambulance and it drove them out of the venue. They arrived at the hospital and soon Rachel was being put onto a gurney.

“What’s wrong with her?” Frank asked straight to the point as he looked down at Rachel, the colour had now drained from her flawless skin. “I’m sorry sir, we will have to carry out extensive tests before we can be sure we know, now can you tell me what was she was doing before she collapsed.” A nurse asked as they wheeled her into accident and emergency. “Errmm, well I was onstage playing guitar and she was dancing and head banging just having an all round good time and like I watch her like gasp, and she like put her hand on her chest and then just collapsed,” Frank explained and the nurse nodded taking in what Frank was saying. The nurse started walking into the A&E and Frank followed but was soon stopped by her. “I’m sorry sir but you can’t come in, but can I ask what is your name?” she said. “It’s Frank Iero.” He said scratching the back of his head nervously. “I’m guessing that is Mrs Iero then?” she asked and he shook his head. “No no, she’s just my girlfriend, her name is Rachel Powell.” He said, the nurse nodded and then closed the door.

Frank sat outside on a chair before spotting a pay phone. He called up Brina and told her what was happening he then asked her to spread the word before sitting back down, he was shaking. He was worried sick, literally he could’ve puked he was so sick with worry, all he thought over and over was “what if it’s my fault?” He soon heard running and then Brina joined him on the chairs and hugged the living shit out of him. “What’s happening Frank?” Brina asked and Frank just broke down. “I don’t know Bri, I really don’t the fecking know, they wont tell me anything.” He said wiping his eyes. “What why not?”Brina said enraged. Frank just shrugged. “Right that’s it.” Brina said and marched to front desk. “What the hell is wrong with my sister?” she yelled with tears in her eyes. “Baby calm down.” Gerard said coming up behind Brina. “No Gerard I cant calm down I want to know what’s wrong with Rachel!” she said before bursting into tears and burying her head in Gerard’s shoulder. “Sorry nurse, we were just wondering do you know what is wrong is Miss Rachel Powell she was brought in about forty-five minutes ago.” Gerard said calmly while comforting Brina. “I’m sorry Sir she is still under examination, if you wait patiently a doctor will come out and tell you the news.” The nurse said and then walked away. “Come on Bri, let’s sit back down again.” Gerard said kissing her forehead and leading her back to the chairs were Sky, Sarah and Nicole were comforting Frank. “It’s probably nothing Frank,” Nicole said giving him a side hug.  “I have this feeling though Nic, that it is something, something real bad.” Frank said hugging her back.

They waited two hours more until a worried doctor came with a worried look on his face. “Mr Iero?” he asked and Frank looked up, many of the others had fallen asleep as it was nearly 11pm and everyone had had a busy day. “Yes,” he said quietly in a croaky voice. “I have news on Rachel.” The doctor said sighing. Frank looked up and so did Gerard as he was now awake. “She has a hole in her heart,” he doctor started explaining. “It seems, that she was born with it closed up soon after she was born, but somehow, it reopened for whatever reason and as she seemed to be, well from what you have told my nurses doing physical activity it’s put pressure on her heart on and she collapsed, she smacked her head on the floor and she’s in a coma, I’m sorry Mr Iero.” The doctor said and Frank started to cry again. “Wi, wil she wake up?” Frank asked. “We are not sure, there are no promises, we have to operate on her though, to fix the hole, otherwise she will definitely die.” The doctor said and Frank nodded. “So can you give me your permission please, as Rachel can’t.” the doctor said, Frank nodded signing the form on the clipboard. “Oh and I’m not sure if you knew, but Rach is pregnant, four months gone it seems, did you know?” the doctor asked and Frank’s jaw dropped. “N…no I didn’t, is the baby okay?” Frank asked. “Yes it seems fine, and don’t worry it should be fine during the procedure as well, would you like to know the sex?” the doctor asked and Frank looked over at Gerard and he shrugged. “Um, not right now thank you anyway.” Frank said and the doctor walked back into the room which Rachel was situated in. Frank got up and headed out of the hospital he got a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, he hadn’t had one in three weeks and was trying to keep clean for Rachel, but he was so angry , upset and worried right now he needed one. He put the fag to his lips and lit it he inhaled and blew it out of his nose, savouring the taste of nicotine once more. “Frank,” Gerard said walking towards him. “I thought you’d quit those cancer sticks man!” Gerard said looking at him. “I had but it’s just too much to deal with right now.” Frank said taking another puff. “I understand, so how come you didn’t want to know the sex of the baby?” Gerard asked. “Well I know Rachel never wanted to know until the birth so I thought I wouldn’t know either.” Frank shrugged. Gerard nodded. “She’ll be fine dude. She’s a fighter, just like you.” Gerard said before heading inside.

When Frank had finished his fag he headed back inside to see everyone but Ray and Sarah awake. “I’ve never seen them so quiet.” Frank laughed. “How are you holding up?” Brina asked. “Well, finding out Rach is pregnant was a big shock, but yeah I guess I’m okay, I just really want to see her.” Frank sighed and sat back down. “We’re gonna go Frank, I hope you don’t mind, it’s just me and Nic got a busy day tomorrow, we’re starting to plan the wedding.” Bob said standing up and Nicole stood up too smiling. “No that’s fine dude, see you some time.” Frank said hugging Bob and Nicole. “You sure you’re okay Frank? I mean I wouldn’t want to leave you if you’re really upset.” Nicole said looking him in the eye. “I’m fine Nic, honest, you go, don’t worry about me.” Frank sighed. “You know we will but yeah, see you soon okay?” Nicole said hugging him again before Bob took her hand and they left. “Everyone else you can go now if you want? They’re probably prepping Rach for surgery and it seems pretty serious so it’ll probably be a long procedure, I don’t mind if you guys go.” Frank said. “I’m staying Frank.” Brina said nodding. “So am I” Gerard informed Frank. “Guys you really do-” Frank said but Brina interrupted him. “We’re staying.” She said. “You should go home Frank, you look like death.” Sky said. “Gee thanks Sky, you boost my self esteem so much.”  Frank said sarcastically. “I was just saying.” Sky said in her defence as Mikey got up and wrapped his arms around her waist resting his head on her shoulder. “Yeah I know, I was joking.” Frank said. “Oh right sorry, not my fault, I’m tired.” She explained. “Ready to go Sky?” Mikey asked looking at her his head still on her shoulder, she nodded and kissed his cheek before he stood up and gave Frank a hug. “See you later dude.” He said and Frank nodded. Sky then hugged Frank and they left together.

About fifteen minutes later Ray woke up and woke Sarah up and they both left leaving just Brina, Frank and Gerard. “Frank I think you should rest, see if there is a relative’s room or something you can rest in.” Brina said. “BRINA! I don’t want to fucking rest okay!” Frank yelled. “I’m sorry it’s just-” Frank said but Brina stopped him. “It’s okay I understand, I’m worried too but seriously you need to rest Frank, please Rachel would want you to.” Brina said and Frank sighed nodding. “I’ll go see if they have a relative’s room.” He muttered getting up and heading towards the desk. Brina watched as the nurse pointed Frank towards the room and Frank nodded before walking off. “She’ll be alright wont she Gerard?” Brina said as her head lay in his lap. “Of course.” He said stroking her hair but he was lying, he was sceptical himself whether she’d be okay, what was wrong seemed pretty serious.

After a six hour operation Rachel was taken back into her room. Frank was now awake and waiting outside the room, Brina and Gerard had gone home to get some more clothes Frank and Rachel and to rest. The doctor walked out of Rachel’s room. “Mr Iero, I’ve got news on Rachel.” The doctor said and Frank nodded, the doctor sighed and then looked at his clipboard. “There were some complications during the surgery we almost lost her, but we fixed it, but we saved her and the surgery is a success she’s still in a coma though.” The doctor said. “Do yo..you know what she’ll wake up?” Frank asked. “It could be tomorrow it could be never, I’m sorry Mr Iero, there is nothing we can do from now on.” He said and then walked down the hall. “You may see her now.” A nurse said coming out of the room also. Frank walked in tears threatening to spill over again. He sat down on a chair next to Rachel’s bed, it all seemed so familiar. Only this time, there was a big chance, she may die.

He took hold of her hand and kissed it softly, I put his other hand on her small stomach, he remembered Rachel saying that she was missing periods but she said that it maybe just because of the anorexia so she left it.  He could hear her heart beat it was really slow and faint, it broke his heart to think what may happen to her.

“I’m sorry Sir, but we have to do some more work on Miss could you wait outside, or maybe sir, you should go home, you don’t look so good.” The nurse said “Can I not have ten more minutes with her?” Frank asked and the nurse shook her head. “I’m sorry but these tests should be done now,” the nurse said. Frank sighed nodding and getting up he kissed her on the lips, they were cold which made him upset, he kissed her forehead and stroked her arms. “Could you do something about the heat in here? It’s freezing; I want her to be comfortable.” Frank said and the nurse nodded. Frank walked out of the room.

He got his cigarette out and walked out of the hospital, he sat on a bench and lit it. After a few puffs of his fag when a girl sat next to him. “Excuse me,” the girl said, she was pale with black straggly hair and green eyes, she was wearing a black dressing gown with white stars. “Yes?” Frank asked stubbing out his fag as he didn’t want to be blowing smoke in her face. “Are you Frank Iero?” she asked nervously and he nodded smiling. “Oh my, I love you guys so much, your songs have helped me so much.” She said and Frank smiled. “Why are you here may I ask?” she said and Frank decided to tell her, she seemed nice enough. “Well,” he paused. “What’s your name may I ask?” he said and the girl blushed. “Alexandra, I prefer being called Alex though.” She smiled. “Well Alex, my girlfriend, you may have heard of her-” Frank said but Alex interrupted. “Rachel,” Alex said and Frank nodded. “Well I was performing with The Gallows at Warped and Rach, see was in the crowd and well she collapsed, please don’t tell anyone I told you that, I don’t want it on the news just yet.” Frank said. “I’m so sorry to hear that,” she said and he smiled at her. “And don’t worry about it getting on the news, I have no one to tell.” Alex smiled. “So Alex, why are you here?” he asked and she bared her wrists. “Oh I see, I…I’m sorry.” He said looking at the floor before looking back at her blood stained bandages on her wrists. “Meh my fault.” Alex shrugged. Frank sighed, “I don’t understand why you’d do that, you’re beautiful.” He said smiling and she shook her head. “As Gerard says, everyone is beautiful in their own way.” Frank said and she smiled. “Is Gerard married now?” she asked and Frank nodded. She looked disappointed and Frank laughed. “You gotta crush on him?” Frank asked and Alex nodded embarrassed. He just smiled. “Yeah he’s married to Rach’s sister.” Frank said. “Oh yeah that’s right and Pete Wentz is going out with their younger sister, Oh my god I just realised how much of a stalker I sound, sorry.” She said embarrassed. “Don’t worry about it, so I’m going to go home now, I need to rest,” Frank sighed. “Oh okay,” Alex said and then paused before she opened her mouth again. “Could I have a picture of just me and you?” she asked. “Are you sure you want one, I’m sure I look shitty.” Frank said and Alex laughed. “You don’t.” she said and took her phone out of her pocket. “Shhh, I’m not supposed to have it.” She smiled and then took a picture of them both. Frank then waved goodbye to her and then headed towards a taxi drop off.

He got them to take him back to the venue and when he arrived he was greeted by the lead singer of the gallows. “How is she?” he asked and Frank sighed. “He’s in a coma.” Frank said, he gasped and hugged Frank “I’m so sorry mate.” He said and Frank nodded heading for the tour bus they’d brought to stay on. He got into his bunk finding a cuddly toy Rachel had. Frank bought it for her, it was a little puppy king charles spaniel, he got it for her as she was missing her dogs back home. Frank hugged it close, it smelt of her still, he started quietly crying until he heard a commotion on the bus that woke him up, the curtain he was behind was pulled away and he saw a Lois’s tear stained face with Josh in her arms, Josh was almost one so it could babble and it sure as hell did. “Is it true Frank? Is Rach really in a coma?” Lois said crying. Frank nodded and Lois cried harder, Frank took Josh off her and she sat next to him on the bunk. Josh started babbling at Frank and Frank babbled back. “You’d make a great Dad Frank,” Lois smiled at him through her tears. “I may get a chance to find out.” Frank said, “Rach, she’s pregnant.” He said to Lois and her jaw dropped. “Oh my Frank, that’s great,” she said hugging her. He nodded and she took Josh back off him. “Anyway we’ve got to get back to Daddy, see you later Frank.” She said getting up and waving as she walked off the bus. He sighed and lay back down, he started looking at some photos he had tacked to the top of his bunk, she’d changed so much since the incident with Matt. He thought about her more until her eventually fell asleep again.

*5 months later*

Since Rachel had collapsed Frank had had her moved to a hospital nearer to home, she hadn’t woken up yet and Frank was starting to lose more hope everyday. He visited her like he did almost everyday but today was different. The doctor approached Frank and smiled at him. “Good Morning Mr Iero, as you know Rachel is pregnant and this baby of hers has been giving us signs the last couple of days that it wants out,” she said and then paused. “Now we could give Rachel a C section which would involve making a small incision in her stomach to get the baby out, or we could leave it and hope Rachel wakes up, both come with a lot of risks.” The doctor sighed. “The C section would make Rachel some what weaker and she may find it hard to heal, on the other hand if we leave the baby inside her and she does not awaken, the baby will die, and this may cause Rachel to become weaker.” The doctor explained carefully, she then took a deep breath and continued. “So what would you like us to do?” she asked Frank. Frank sighed running his hand through his hair. “I think, it sounds best to do a C section on Rach,” he said and the doctor nodded before walking over to the desk telling the nurse what was happening.

Frank saw as they took Rachel away again to a operating theatre. Two hours later they took Rachel back to her room in a hurry, the baby was no where to be seen, Frank stopped the doctor. “Is everything okay? I mean where is the baby?” Frank asked worried. “Oh the baby is fine, it’s just being weighed etc, it’ll be put in it’s Mum’s room in about ten minutes and you’ll be able to hold it if you want, the baby is yours right?” the doctor asked sceptically. “Er yeah,” Frank said looking at the doctor weirdly, thinking ‘is she trying to imply Rachel is a whore?’ he shook it out of his head when he saw a cot being wheeled into Rachel’s room, the doctor looked at him and he walked into the room to see a little bundle in a pink blanket, that told Frank it was a girl. He picked her up carefully, she was sleeping, and she looked so cute, she took her over to Rachel and got Rachel’s hand to caress the baby’s face, the baby woke up and opened its eyes slightly, Frank could see she had his eyes, which made her even more special to him. He kissed her head and studied every inch of her, she was perfect, she had a little tuft of white blonde hair coming from her head which meant she was going to have Rachel’s hair. He decided to go to the hospital shop and get the baby something to wear, he reluctantly put the baby down and went to the shop, he got her a little pink hat and a matching jumpsuit with little teddies on it, he paid for them then took them back to the room, when he got back she was asleep again so he just left them, not wanting to wake her. He watched over her as she soundly slept trying to think of possible names. He knew Rachel had always like unusual names, but he just couldn’t think right now, he decided to call Brina and Lois, for help.

He called them and told them the news and they both rushed down to the hospital. They arrived and the baby was still sleeping. “Awww Frank she’s perfect.” Brina said Frank nodded he was sitting next to Rachel’s bed holding her hand. Josh stumbled over to Frank and Frank picked him up placing him on his knee. “Uncle Frank, is Auntie Rachel still sick?” he babbled slightly but Frank understood. “Yes she is,” Frank said looking at Rachel. “Well she should get better, I miss her, she used to play with me all the time.” Josh said folding his arms. “I miss her too,” Frank said. “We all do,” Lois said taking Josh off Frank’s knee, as she could see Frank just wanted to sit for a while, she took Josh over to the baby and showed him his new cousin. “What’s her name?” he asked. “I don’t think she has a name yet, does she Frank?” Lois asked and Frank shook his head “I know Rachel would want to be something peculiar she loves those sort of names.” Frank said and Lois nodded. “I know she’s always liked the name Raphiella.” Brina said. “That’s a really pretty name.” Frank smiled. “I’m going to call her that I think.” Frank smiled and Brina and Lois nodded. “Mr Iero, I just wanted to tell you, maybe, and I’m sorry to say this, but maybe you may want to think about switching Rachel off, sometime in the near future, her condition doesn’t seem to have improved greatly.” The doctor said. “No, I’m not switching her off, I don’t even want to think of that, no no no no no!” Frank said the doctor nodded and left the room and Frank started to cry. Brina walked over to him and hugged him. “Bri do you think I should?” he asked. “I don’t know Frank, I just don’t know.” She said honestly.

*4 months later*

Frank had been able to take Raphiella home now for 3 months and she was doing great. Frank still visited Rachel everyday at exactly the same time with Raphiella but his hope of her ever waking up was fading.  He sat in the same old spot next to her bed and placed Raphiella on the bed next to Rachel and Raphiella started playing with Rachel’s hand. Frank smiled and started talking to Rachel and Raphiella. He   and looked at Rachel. “The doctors have been talking about, about switching you off Rachel, and I really don’t want to know, I know you’d want me to be happy and I really miss you Rachel, but I think you’re dying, we need you back Rachel, Raphiella needs her Mummy.” Frank said and started to cry he kissed her lips softly and went to leave.

Rachel’s monitored started bleeping faster, Frank turned around and saw as Rachel’s eyes flickered open. “Oh my god,” Frank said rushing back over to Rachel. “F-Frank?” she asked and Frank smiled kissing her forehead. “Who’s that?” Rachel asked backing away from Frank who was holding Raphiella. “She’s our child Rach,” Frank said. “No, I..I never had a child, I’ve never even been pregnant.” Rachel stuttered. “Rach, you’ve been a coma for nine months, when you went into the coma you were four months pregnant, this is Raphiella, she’s our baby girl.” Frank said just as a nurse walked in. “Oh my Miss you’re awake.”  She said before pushing a button on the wall. The doctor walked in followed by two nurses. “Sir can you please wait outside.” The doctor said. “I want to stay.” Frank said but he was forced to leave.

After about half an hour Frank was allowed to go back in. “Rach? Are you okay?” Frank asked and she nodded slowly. “Is it really mine Frank?” Rachel asked. “Rachel I love you, you’d be the only one I’d ever have a baby with and if you still don’t believe me look at your stomach there should be a scar where they did the C section.” Frank said, Rachel looked. “It really is mine,” Rachel said quietly and Frank nodded. “Can I hold her?” Rachel asked and Frank passed her over. Rachel held her close and Raphiella took hold of her finger. “I called her Raphiella, Brina said you like that name.” Frank said and Rachel nodded. “I love it, Oh Frank she’s perfect.” Rachel smiled, she leaned forwards and Frank softly. “I love you,” Frank said. “I love you too.” Rachel smiled. “But I just want to know,” she said. “What happened? The last thing I remember is watching you play onstage at Warped.”  Rachel said. “Well Rach, you collapsed as a hole in your heart had re-opened when you collapsed you hit your head which put you in the coma. They fixed the hole in your heart but you didn’t wake up well that is until now.” Frank explained, Raphiella started to cry. “Oh she needs feeding.” Frank said. “Can I do it?” Rachel asked and Frank smiled passing her the bottle of milk, Raphiella suckled on the bottle while Rachel talked to Frank.

Frank went out and rang Lois telling her she was awake and she said she’d be there as soon as she could, he then phone Brina and she said she’d call everyone else and be there soon. “The whole gang will be here soon.” Frank smiled. “Even Lois and Pete and Josh?” she asked and Frank nodded. “They’ve been staying at my place as they wanted to be near you.” Frank said and Rachel smiled. Sarah and Ray were first to arrive smiling their heads off and hugging Rachel. They were followed by Sky and Mikey, Sky wearing an engagement ring and then Nicole and Bob, who were having the wedding in a couple of weeks. “You woke up just in time.” Nicole smiled, “Just in time for what?” Rachel asked. “To be one of my maids of honour.” Nicole said. Brina and Gerard walked in and Rachel smirked. “Someone’s been busy.” She said looking at Brina and her pregnant stomach. “I may look really fat, but I’m having twins, so sue me.” Brina said hugging Rachel and laughing. Finally Josh ran through the door followed by Lois and Pete. “Auntie Rachel!” Josh said at the top of his voice and Frank put him on the bed, he was almost two now and could sleep properly. “Oh Joshie I’ve missed you.” Rachel smiled hugging him. “I’ve missed you loads you weren’t there to play fire-trucks with me.” Josh said. “Oh well when I get out that’s the first thing I’ll do.” Rachel smiled.

Two days later Rachel was let out although for the first six months she’d go back once a month so they could check on her heart. Six months later the band was doing great and after the success of their second album and touring they’d started working on a third album, which was set to be the best yet. Brina had her twins and named them Craig Mark Way and Natasha Lina Way. Nicole and Bob married in a massive church in Nicole’s home town Glasgow and they then went on a honeymoon to the Caribbean. Sky and Mikey were in the process of planning their wedding it would just be a small affair but perfect. Sarah and Ray were moving house and buying cats as they were not ready for children just yet. Lois was pregnant again and they were planning on getting married after the birth of their second child and Josh would be starting preschool very soon. Frank was planning on asking Rachel to marry him on Valentines Day and Raphiella was growing up to be a right little madam just like her mother and aunties.

So there is the end, I will be writing another while I'm away a Mcr/A7x so you have that to look forward to hehe or not as the case maybe I hope you enjoyed this story, and I'm sorry it wasnt long, but please comment/buzz, thank you &rarr;Rachel&larr;

*2 weeks later*

Frank, Rachel Brina and Gerard were all hanging about in Frank’s house. Frank was in the kitchen making coffee, Rachel was lying on the floor and Gerard and Brina were cuddling on the couch. “You guys make me sick.” Rachel said throwing a screwed up piece of paper at them both as they cuddled. “Rach, you’ll be just the same when you and Frank get married.” Gerard said. “Married? We’re not even engaged yet.” Rachel said sitting up. “You’re as good as engaged, why else do you think he gave you that ring?” Brina said “Really you think so?” Rachel asked getting excited “I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t mean it.” Brina said smiling and laughing slightly at how excited Rachel was getting. “But, I-oh shh, he’s coming.” Rachel said smiling like a fool and staring at her ring.

“Talking about me again are you?” Frank said walking into the room and setting coffees on the coffee table. Rachel laughed   rolling on her back and she stared at Frank standing above her. He smiled and her and kneeled next to her kissing her forehead before sitting on a couch at the other side of the room. Rachel got up and sat on his lap, he groaned as she sat on him and she giggled smiling at him completely content with the moment, she wanted it to last forever. “I love you.” He whispered in her ear and she looked into his glistening hazel eyes. She put his hand against his cheek and stroked it with her thumb, “I love you too” she said softly before pecking him on the lips which turn into a passionate kiss. “Hey! Slut, not while your sister is in the room!” Brina yelled. “Shut up whore!” Rachel said turning around and flicking Brina off while she sat there laughing. “There you go again with those insulting nicknames.” Gerard sighed. “We were teenagers okay? Young and stupid, and it’s not like we’re going to change them after all these years.” Rachel said in a matter of fact tone. “Sorry Mrs Iero.” Gerard said putting his hands up defensively. Rachel shot Gerard a glare until Frank spoke up. “Mrs Iero hey? I like it.” He said tightening the grip around Rachel’s waist. She smiled at him and he picked her hand up kissing her ring. “Do you really like it?” Rachel pondered. Frank nodded, “Reminds me of my Mum.” He laughed and Rachel grimaced at him, but he carried on laughing.

The doorbell rang and Frank got up pushing Rachel onto the couch. “Awww poor Rachie.” Brina said and Rachel got up and kicked her. “Dickhead.” Brina yelled. “Fuckface.” Rachel yelled back and then walked into the hall. “Nic!” Rachel exclaimed walking over to Nicole and hugging her, Nicole hugged Rachel back smiling. “Come on in guys,” Frank said as Nicole Bob walked into the house and he closed the door behind them. “Thank you kind sir.” Nicole said as Bob took her jacket off her “Anytime Princess.” Bob replied kissing Nicole softly on the lips. Rachel tutted and Nicole pulled at tongue at Rachel. “Go in guys, me and Rach will make you some coffee.” Frank said smacking Rachel on the ass and following her into the kitchen. Rachel jumped onto the counter as Frank started boiling the water in the kettle. “You’re especially cheery today.” Frank commented getting cups out. “Well, yeah it’s nice just hanging around with friends, it’s just a shame, Lois and Pete couldn’t be here and the others.” Rachel sighed. “Well Lois and Pete are flying back today aren’t they?” Frank asked and Rachel nodded. “Yup.” She replied while nodding and Frank turned around and chuckled at her. He finished making the coffee and carried it into the lounge. As Rachel was following out of the room the phone rang. She walked over to it and picked it up answering “Hello,”. “Hi,” the voice answered, Rachel immediately recognised it as Pete. “I just wanted to let you know Lois has started having frequent contractions and her waters have broken so we’re on our way to the hospital.” Pete said quickly. “Oh my, okay, what hospital?” Rachel said slightly panicked. “Umm,..” Pete said and Rachel heard him ask the cab driver which one he was taking them to. “Belleville State hospital.” Pete stated and Rachel made a mental note of that. “We’ll be there soon Pete.” Rachel said and then hung up. “Guys,” Rachel shouted into the house. “We’ve gotta get to the hospital, Lois is having her baby.” She said walking to the room. “What? Now?” Brina asked standing up. “No, in three weeks, yes now!” Rachel said throwing Frank’s hoodie at him and then putting her own on. “Will everyone fit in the car?” Gerard asked as they walked out of the house. “Well, they’re going to have to aren’t they!” Rachel said getting in the front seat. Everyone piled into the car, and they were soon on their way to the hospital.

Meanwhile Lois was being laid onto a gurney and carted off to the delivery room, her contractions increasing every minute. “Fuck, shit fuck, fuck fuck fuck!” she screamed as more pain came. She eventually arrived at the delivery room and to maternity nurses were there waiting for her. They attached drips to her and watched over her as she screamed. Pete was by her side getting his hand crushed by Lois. “Pete, I swear, you ever do this to me again I’mma fucking kill you.” Lois screamed at Pete. “I know baby, you’re doing great, just hang on in there.” Pete said kissing Lois’s sweaty forehead.

“I can see the head.” One of the nurses said. “Thank fuck for that.” Lois sighed. “Mrs Wentz, please refrain from swearing.” One of the old nurses said. “I will do, when you call me by my real name, we’re not married, I’m Miss Powell thank you very much.” Lois said and then screamed in pain again. “Shhshshh Lo, it’ll all be over soon.” Pete said softly in Lois’s ear and she nodded before squeezing the shit of Pete’s hand once more. “Miss, one more big push and the baby will be delivered.” The nurse informed Lois, Lois nodded and pushed once more before, she heard crying. She collapsed onto the bed sighing heavily. Pete kissed her before being handed the baby. “Well done Miss, you’ve just delivered a beautiful baby boy.” The nurse said. Pete smiled and passed the baby to Lois. She took it and kissed it’s forehead before taking it’s fragile hand and letting it wrapped it’s baby fingers around her finger. “We’ll be back in a couple of minutes to weigh him.” The nurses said and Lois nodded.

Rachel poked her head around the door and smiled at Lois and Pete. “We’ve got half the tribe out here, can we come in?” she asked. “Sure, just don’t be too loud.” Lois said and Rachel nodded, she opened the door fully and walked in followed by Frank, Brina, Gerard Nicole and Bob. “Awww, he’s gorgeous.” Nicole cooed. “How did you know it was a he?” Brina asked. “Come on, it’s pretty obvious, blue blanket.” Nicole said smiling and stroking the baby’s head softly. Lois smiled, “Well she’s right, it’s a boy.” Lois announced and everyone smiled. “What’s his name?” Gerard asked. “Well one thing is for sure, he’s not going to be called Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz the fourth.” Lois laughed. “Awww,” Pete said disappointed but he was laughing slightly. “We were thinking about Josh.” Lois said. “Awww, that’s so cute.” Rachel said and then stroked Josh’s cheek with her finger.

“Makes me want one now.” Brina said and Gerard smiled and whispered something in Brina’s ear which made her giggle. “Oh God.” Rachel said laughing and Frank wrapped his arms around her waist. “You know,” he whispered in her ear making her shiver. “It’d be nice to hear the pitter-patter of tiny feet around the house.” He continued and Rachel looked up smiling at him. “Well maybe,” Rachel said but was interrupted by one of the nurses coming in. “Oh we have quite a congregation in here, I’m afraid Miss Powell we’re going to have to take the baby away for a while to check him out, have you thought of a name yet?” the nurse asked taking the baby from Lois. “Yes, Joshua Lewis Wentz.” Lois said, the nurse nodded and walked out of the room cooing at the baby. “Lewis hey?” Pete said. “He had to have something from his Daddy.” Lois said. “I love the sound of that, Daddy.” Pete smiled and Lois kissed him. “And you Mummy look exhausted.” Pete said and Lois sniggered. “No, I’m fine, guys you should all get a chair.” Lois said, Rachel nodded and got everyone chairs. “So, are you going to go back to England now?” Brina asked. “Well, I think we’re going to have to stay a little longer because of the baby, but eventually we will.” Lois explained.

“I’m really going to miss you guys.” Rachel sighed as she was sitting on Frank’s knee. “We’ll miss you too Rach,” Pete said. “Yeah, but you can come home and visit, but if you come back because you’re running away we’ll send your ass back home, you and Frank need each other.” Lois said and Rachel nodded smiling as Frank tightened his grip around her waist. “You really think I’d let her go that easily now? Not after everything that we’ve been through, I’d fucking follow her.” Frank said and that was followed by and ‘Awww’ from the girls and laughter from the guys. “Frank’s finally gone soft, it took long enough.” Gerard said and Brina hit him lightly. “Don’t be mean.” She said and Rachel laughed. “Yeah, don’t be mean!” Rachel laughed. “God, sorry.” Gerard said putting his hands up in defence. “We forgive you.” Rachel said smiling and he pulled a tongue at her.

“Aw, Mummy’s fallen asleep.” Pete said smiling and stroking Lois’s cheek. “I’m so glad she found you Pete.” Rachel smiled looking at Pete stroking Lois’s cheek. “Yeah me too, so many guys took her for a ride, used her, but you, you’re the real deal,” Brina smiled. “Well, she’s extremely lucky to have you both as sisters, you two care about  her so much, I remember when we first started dating all she could talk about was how great you both were.” Pete smiled. “Brina, I can’t believe our little sister has grown up.” Rachel sighed. “How do you think I feel? I have two little sisters that have grown up, it’s all rather, breath taking to say the least.” Brina said. “Well I got one thing right.” Rachel said. “What’s that?” Brina asked. “I knew you’d be married first, I could tell, you seem the married type.” Rachel said laughing slightly. “Well I have to say married life is marvellous, especially with the great guy I’m married to.” Brina smiled and Gerard kissed her cheek. “I think I’m the lucky one Bri, to get such a wonderful woman.” Gerard smiled.

“I think me and Nic are going to go now guys.” Bob announced standing up and taking Nicole’s hand. “Okay guys, just use protection.” Frank said. “What if we don’t want to?” Bob said and Nicole blushed. “Do you need a lift back to our house guys?” Rachel asked and Bob shook his head. “We’re okay thanks.” He said and then walked out of the room with Nicole “Where are we going?” Nicole asked Bob as they walked out of the hospital. “That’s for me to know and you to find out darling.” He said smiling at Nicole. “Bob, you’re so sweet.” She said smiling at him. Once they were outside the hospital Bob spun Nicole round and kissed her. “Come on.” He said and then took her hand and they ran across the car park. They started walking Bob led Nicole. “Nic, get on my back, it’s quicker that way.” He said and Nicole nodded before jumping onto his back. He started walking down a road when it started raining heavily. Bob laughed and he ran the rest of the way. He got to where he was heading and put Nicole down. “Bob, why are we here?” Nicole asked looking at the park in front of her. “Well, it wasn’t supposed to be raining but-” Bob said and got down on one knee and got a little velvet box out. “Nicole Eilizabeth McWilliams Shand, will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?” he asked smiling and opening the box. “Awww Bob yes, yes I will.” Nicole said, Bob got up and hugged her before kissing her passionately. “You’re all wet.” She laughed rubbing her nose against him. “I could say the same about you.” He said, he pulled away from the hug and took the big diamond ring out of the box and slid it onto her wet finger. “It’s so beautiful.” She said admiring the big diamond set in platinum. Suddenly the rain stopped and the sun came out bringing a rainbow with it. “This moment is so perfect.” Nicole whispered to Bob. “A perfect moment for a perfect girl.” Bob said before kissing Nicole again.

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Rachel walked around corner, she figured Frank wouldn’t come after her, she was a terrible girlfriend and Frank would be much better without her. She started walking down an alley way and as she walked past a heap of what seemed like rubbish a tramp pushed her against a wall. “Give me all your valuables.” He croaked, his voice was rough and he stank. “I haven’t got any.” Rachel said calmly looking him in the eye. “Give them to me, or I’ll kill you.” I roared in her ear. “I told you I haven’t got anything on me.” She said. “Right, that’s it.” He roared and produced a knife from his pocket. Rachel closed her eyes and waited for the searing pain but it didn’t come, she opened her eyes to see Frank on the floor with a gash in his left cheek that was steadily seeping crimson blood. She gasped and kneeled next to him and dialled 999.She started dabbing at his cut but he reeled back with the pain. “ Frank I am so sorry, I’ve been a total bitch, you should’ve left me, are you okay? I love you so much.” Rachel said fussing.

“Rach, I’m okay, now please just leave me be.” Frank said and Rachel took a step back, and sniffed, trying to hide the fact she was crying, he really did hate her. The ambulance arrived and the crew cleaned Frank’s cut up they decided they’d have to take him into the hospital they helped Frank into the ambulance and then turned to Rachel. “Are you getting in as well Miss?” one of the crew asked. “I don’t know if I-” Rachel said but was interrupted by Frank, “Yeah she is.” He said and Rachel then stepped into the ambulance. Rachel sat next to Frank and started picking at her nail varnish. “Listen,” Frank said and Rachel looked at him. “I’m sorry for being cold with you before, I didn’t mean to, I was just pissed because of that guy, and well the fact you never seem to let me in anymore.” Frank said taking hold of Rachel’s hand. “I mean, it feels like there is this wall between you and me, and it’s only really broken when we have sex, that seems like a really stupid thing to say, but it’s how I feel. I want to help Rach, I want to be there for you, but you’re not letting me, I mean before today, I didn’t even know that Marc existed, and we’d been going out for like nine months before you moved over here, I mean losing a guy you love to an illness must have been so hard on you, yet you never spoke of it.” Frank said stroking the back of her hand. “I’m sorry Frank, I find that the only way to move on is if I forget the past, and never speak of it.” Rachel sighed. “Well, I’m just glad you didn’t do that with me, I do love you, you know that right?” Frank said putting his arm around Rachel’s waist and she nodded.

“I love you too Frank.” She said and then kissed him one his other cheek, he smiled and then brought his lips to her, kissing her softly. Rachel pulled away as they arrived at the hospital.

Rachel held Frank’s hand tightly as they walked into the hospital as the hospital had a lot of bad memories. “You can wait outside you know?” Frank said as Rachel dug her nails into his hand. “No, no I’m okay, I don’t want to leave you.” She said. “Well do you mind not digging your nails into my hand so much.”  Frank said and Rachel loosened her grip apologizing.  When they got to the corridor Rachel’s grip tightened again as they were walking past wards. “Rach, it’s alright, no one will die, no one’s going to hurt you, we’ll be in and out in thirty minutes tops, I promise!” he said kissing Rachel’s cheek and she nodded. “Sorry, it’s just we walked past the MRSA ward.” She said and Frank nodded sympathetically.

They got the room where Frank was going to get his stitches and Rachel was told that she had to wait outside. Rachel sat there staring at her hands. After what seemed like forever the door opened and Frank walked out of the room with a stitched up cheek with a big plaster over it. Rachel got up and hugged him. “Do you want to go home?” she asked and Frank nodded, wrapping his arm around Rachel’s waist. “How is your cheek feeling?” Rachel asked him. “It’s a little sore, but it’s okay I guess, how are you feeling?” Frank asked looking at Rachel. “I’m better, much better, now I know that you’re alright and that we’re alright.” She said smiling. “Aww, it’s lovely to see you smile again.” Frank said which made Rachel smile more. They walked out of the hospital and Rachel let out a sigh of relief, Rachel called the taxi service and there was soon one there waiting for them to get in. They got in the taxi and on the way home Rachel fell asleep. When the taxi arrived at the house Frank picked Rachel up and carried her to the house, as she was still asleep.

 When Frank got inside he saw Brina standing at the phone tapping her foot, when she saw Frank she gasped and put the phone down. “Frank, what the hell happened?” Brina said looking at Rachel in his arms. “Oh, well Rachel is asleep and well me, this guy tried to attack Rachel with a knife so I stopped him and he cut my cheek.” Frank said, “Oh my god.” Brina said. “Yeah, but I’ll be right back, I want to put Rach to bed.” Frank said he walked down the corridor and kicked the bedroom door open. He placed Rachel under the covers and kissed her forehead. He then walked into the lounge where everyone but Lois and Pete were situated in. “So what happened?” Brina asked. “I’ve already told you.” Frank said sitting down. “Well tell me again, in more detail.” Brina said. “Right, well I went looking for Rach, I found her talking to her Dad, Mum and Marc. Then we went for coffee she stormed out, like at first I didn’t follow her, but then something didn’t seem right she usually, comes back or texts me or something like that, so I went after her, so then I found this guy and he had Rach pressed against a wall. As I got closer keeping quiet so he didn’t notice me, I saw he had a knife, so I ran at him and I managed to get him to the floor, but then he cut my cheek open and ran off, so like then Rach called the hospital an ambulance came took me to the hospital stitched up my cheek and then we came home, that’s it.” Frank explained. “Right, wait. Did you say Rach was talking to Dad?” Brina asked and Frank nodded. “Oh my, things really must be getting her down, she hardly ever goes there unless she’s really depressed or it’s his birthday.” Brina explained. “Well, I think we sorted things out now, we had a talk, but I think we need to watch out for her for a while she was talking about suicide.” Frank said.

Just then Rachel walked into the room yawning. “Please don’t talk about me while I’m not here, I can hear every word you’re saying.” She said sitting on Frank’s knee. She kissed him softly and then rested her head on his chest and he stroked her hair until she’d fallen asleep again. Frank started playing with Rachel’s hair and then looked up. “Hey, did Rachel say that she wanted her hair purple again?” he asked no one in particular. “Yeah she did.” Sky answered. “Okay, well I’m going to get some so I can dye it for her tomorrow, it’ll be a nice surprise, because I know how much she loved her purple hair.” Frank said. “It’s okay, I’ll go and get it, you’ve got her on your knee anyway.” Sarah said standing up and letting go of Ray’s hand. “I’ll come with you.” Nicole said getting off Bob. “And me.” Sky exclaimed standing up. “Thanks Frank, because of you three of us are left alone while are girlfriends go to get Rach’s dye.” Bob complained. “Well, you could always come with us.” Nicole said. “Nah.” Mikey, Ray and Bob all replied at the same time. “Oh well, come on girls, with any luck they’ll be a sexy pharmacist.” Sky said smirking. “We’re coming.” Mikey said standing up and so did Ray and Bob. Everyone laughed and they then all left.

“I’m glad you sorted things out Frank, Rachel really does need you and she really does love you.” Brina smiled and Frank nodded. “So Bri how’s the wedding coming?” Frank asked quietly as Rachel was asleep. “Truthfully? It’s very stressful, but I think we’re almost done, Gerard seems to be sorting out his own suit which to be honest I’m a bit worried about, as you know I don’t want it to be a bullet-proof vest or anything.” Brina laughed. “Oh, don’t worry Bri, I’ve seen it, it’s fine, quite smart for him actually.” Frank smiled. “Really?” Brina asked, Frank just nodded and Brina let out a sigh of relief. “When is it again?” Frank asked. “It’s two weeks today so that makes it the 1^st of June.” Brina said. “You’re having it over in America right?” Frank asked. “Yup, then Gee is going to take a week off and we’re going to this cabin, somewhere, to be honest, I’m not too sure, he says his Mum and Dad own it, he wont tell me exactly what it’s like or where it is, and when I ask him he just says it’s a surprise.” Brina explained, Frank just nodded, as he knew exactly what Gerard had planned. “Will Rach, Pete and Lois be coming?” Frank said stroking Rachel’s hair. “Well hopefully, I’m getting them flown out, Pete and Lois said they’re definitely coming, but I’m not sure if Rach is going to be well enough, the poor thing.” Brina said, the phone then rang and Brina went to answer it. Frank got Rachel in his arms and carried her to bed, he lay her under the covers and then stripped to his boxers and joined her.

4 days later.

Rachel woke up early then remembered it was the day Frank went back to America, she really didn’t want him to go though she felt like she couldn’t go back with him, she wasn’t ready and she feared that she may see Matt again. No one knew that was the real reason she didn’t want to go over, she didn’t want to tell people, as she knew they’d just say that she had nothing to worry about. She rolled over and kissed Frank on the cheek. “Good morning beautiful.” Frank said putting his arms around her waist. Rachel was all right with him doing this now as she attended the last three sessions for her anorexia and they’d helped her both mentally and physically, she’d started eating regularly. “Morning handsome.” Rachel said smiling. He kissed her neck and started giving her a hickey. “It’s something to remember me by.” He said pulling away for a second and then going back to work. “Frank, like I’m going to forget you.” Rachel said pulling Frank away from her neck. She looked into his eyes and kissed him passionately. “I love you.” She said as she pulled away. “I love you too.” Frank smiled and kissed her again. “Hey guys do you want break-doesn’t matter.” Nicole said walking into the room then seeing them kissing and walking back out again. Rachel laughed and sat up. “We better get up.” She said sighing. “We could, or we could, do this.” Frank said pulling her back down and strattling her. “Let’s get up.” She smiled. “Don’t you want to say goodbye to me properly?” Frank huffed. “I already did that last night, twice!” Rachel smiled and Frank got off her.

Rachel got dressed in some dark blue skinny jeans, a green white and pink stripped hoodie and a white t-shirt and then went into the kitchen, were everyone was hanging about. “Hey guys.” She said and a few of them answered. “So do you want breakfast?” Nicole asked. “What are you making Nic?” Rachel asked. “Me? Nothing I can’t cook! Bob on the other hand he’s making pancakes or there is cereal as you know.” Nicole explained smiling. “Nah, I don’t want anything.” Rachel shrugged. “Er, yeah you do Rach, give her a pancake Nic please.” Frank said walking in the kitchen. “And I’m going to sit here with you until you eat it, even if I miss my flight.” Frank said sternly. “I’m not a little kid you know.” Rachel huffed sitting down. “I know I just want you to eat, and to be okay.” Frank said sitting next to her. “Please eat it, for me?” Frank asked. Rachel nodded and cut a little section off her pancake and ate it. In about ten minutes she’d eaten the whole thing. “Did you enjoy it?” Frank asked. “It wasn’t too bad.” She smiled. “Good girl.” Frank said kissing her forehead, Rachel tutted. “Frank do you need help packing?” Rachel asked. “I’m not a little kid you know!” Frank said taking the piss out of Rachel. “I’ll take that as a no then.” Rachel sulked. “I do really will you help?” Frank pouted. “Fine!” Rachel sighed smiling and followed him to the bedroom.

 Rachel started taking Frank’s shirts out of the draw and folding them, Frank walked up behind Rachel and wrapped his arms around her waist, “Can you please come back with me?” Frank pleaded. “Frank, I’ve already made up my mind now please let’s not speak of it, I don’t want us to have an argument.” Rachel said turning to Frank. “Ok. I’m sorry it’s just I’m going to miss you.”  Frank said kissing Rachel’s neck. “I’m going to miss you too Frank.” Rachel said turning to face Frank and kissing him. “I’m going to miss sharing your clothes as well.” Rachel said turning around with a stack of Frank’s t-shirts all folded in her arms. She walked over to the bed and put them on the bed. “Well, keep one of mine then.” Frank said taking the top off the pile. It was his ‘I’m a monster’ shirt. “I can’t keep this one Frank, you love this top.” Rachel said as Frank handed it to her. “Yeah, but I love you more so keep it.” Frank smiled. “Ok, well I gotta give you something.” Rachel smiled she went into her nightstand and got out a pair of black and white striped fingerless gloves. “I want you to have these.” Rachel said handing them to him, “And this.” Rachel said sliding a black and red beaded bracelet off her wrist. Frank smiled and kissed her passionately. “But I will be

seeing you in two weeks right?” Frank asked. “I’m still debating whether I’ll be well enough to go.” Rachel said looking at the floor. Frank nodded and kissed her forehead. “I hope you’ll be able to.” Frank smiled and Rachel nodded. “There is one thing missing on these gloves.” Frank said. “What?” Rachel said sticking the last of Frank’s t-shirts in his suitcase. “Your smell.” Frank said and Rachel laughed a little. “Well, there is.” Frank said. “Shall I spray some of my perfume on them for you?” Rachel asked laughing a little. “I dunno what does your perfume smell like?” Frank said. Rachel just laughed and offered Frank her wrist, he sniffed it. “Yup, that’s what you smell like.” Frank said, Rachel smiled and sprayed the gloves with her perfume. “Is that better?” Rachel said handing them back. Frank nodded and kissed Rachel’s cheek. She smiled and then started packing Frank’s jeans away. “Are you going to actually do any of this?” Rachel asked. “Umm, do you want me to?” Frank asked smiling. “Well it would be helpful if you just got all your clothes out then I could fold them and put them in your suitcase.” Rachel explained and Frank nodded. “Thank you.” Rachel smiled. “You’re welcome baby.” Frank said and Rachel laughed.

Once they’d finished packing they joined Mikey, Ray, Sky and Sarah. “You finished packing Frank?” Ray asked. “Coz you know we gotta go in like an hour.” Ray continued. “I don’t want to go back, I like it here.” Sarah said. “It’s our home hun, we have stuff to do over there, like attend Gee and Brina’s wedding.” Ray said, and Sarah nodded. “I know, it’s just. Rachel why won’t you come back with us, we’re all going to miss you loads.” Sarah said. “I just can’t and anyway, you guys will be fine without me, you have been for ages.” Rachel said. “I know but we’ve just been reunited and now we have to go back again.” Sarah said. Rachel nodded understanding and then walked into the kitchen were Lois and Pete were. “Hey guys.” She said as she sat at the kitchen table. “Hey Rach.” Pete said, Lois just grunted. “What’s the matter Lo?” Rachel asked. “The baby is feeling very, playful today, it’s kicking like no one’s business.” Pete said and Lois nodded putting her head on the table. “Aww you poor thing.” Rachel said laughing slightly. Lois flicked Rachel off. “I see she still has her attitude though.” Rachel laughed and Pete nodded eagerly.

“Come on guys, it’s time to go!” Rachel heard Gerard shout from the lounge. Rachel got up quickly and walked into the lounge. Brina had tears in her eyes. “Bri, don’t cry!” Rachel smiled hugging Brina. “I’m just going to miss you that’s all.” Brina sniffed. “You’ll be fine.” Rachel smiled. Lois came out of the kitchen followed by Pete. “Bye Brina.” Lois said hugging Brina. “I’m going to miss you two so much.” Brina said and they got into a group hug. They pulled away and smiled at each other. Rachel hugged Nicole, Sky and Sarah then Mikey, Ray, Bob and Gerard. “Look after yourself.” Gerard said as he hugged her. “I’ll try my best.” Rachel smiled. She then got to Frank who was standing in the corner of the room fiddling with his hoodie zip. She walked up to him and he pulled her into a hug. “I’m going to miss you so so much.” Rachel said taking in Frank’s scent for the last time. “I’m going to miss you more, I love you Rach,” Frank said kissing her cheek. “I love you too Frank, so much.” Rachel said and then kissed Frank passionately. “Sorry guys, but we really should get going.” Gerard said. Rachel nodded. They all walked out to the taxi’s that were waiting to take them to the airport. Everyone started getting in the taxi. Frank was last to get in. “I’ll call you as soon as I’m back in New Jersey.” Frank said hugging Rachel again. Rachel nodded and kissed Frank. “Come on Frank.” Ray said. “Ok.” He said then looked back at Rachel. “I love you Rachel.” He said. “I love you too Frank.” Rachel smiled though a tear ran down her cheek. Frank wiped it and then kissed her for the last time. “Take care of yourself okay.” Frank smiled and Rachel nodded. “Bye.” He said getting in the car. “Goodbye.” Rachel replied and the taxi reversed out of driveway. Rachel waved until the taxi was out of site, she then started crying and ran inside and into her room, she picked up the t-shirt Frank had given her and curled up in bed with it.

Right Guys, I’ve written this new fanfic, and well, I want you to tell me which one I carry on with, this one or my new one, so here’s a taster of the new one:

I loved the excitement of being with two girls.

Don’t get me wrong, I like Rach, she’s hott, but she’s just not Alexis.

Alexis was the most beautiful girl I’d ever met, and she was able to provide for me, if you know what I mean.

To be honest, I’m only with Rachel to piss her brothers off.

I mean, my band and me are always trying to get gigs

But no! My fucking chemical shitty romance always have to get there first.

So I figured, if I go with their sister, I’d psyche them out a little

You know annoy them, I’m trying to get inside their head, so I can put them off.

Also, I heard from some guy in school that Rachel is a good fuck.

I haven’t got around to that yet, but I’m sure when I do, it’ll make her brothers even more mad.

Oh and by the way it’s written in Pov’s so yeah please just tell me at the end of your comment which one you’d prefer to read Thank You! xxRachelxx

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Gerard slumped on the floor in his trashed room. He threw his empty pill bottle across the room and it hit a heap of empty alcohol bottles. “Figures, I’ve had them all.” He muttered to himself .His vision was getting blurry and the world eventually turned black.

The next time he woke up his head was leaning against something. He looked up to see his girlfriend smiling softly at him. “Alexandra?” he croaked.
“Yes Gerard.” She said quietly stroking his hair. “But I thought you were-” he said but Alex interrupted him. “Shh, honey I need to talk to you ok?” she said and he nodded. “Gee, you’re throwing your life away, all this drinking and all these pills are going to kill you.” She said looking around the room. “I don’t care Alex, I hate living.” Gerard said looking at her and she shook her head. “Gerard I know deep down that’s not true, you have so much ahead of you, why ruin it?” she asked kissing his forehead softly. Tears ran down his face and he sat up properly “Gerard, don’t cry, please.” Alex said taking hold of his hand. “The pills and drink help the pain go away though Alex.” He said wiping his eyes. “They cause everyone you care about even more pain though Gee, think about your parents, your brother Mikey, your friends and your fans, they used to look up to Gerard, want to be just like you, and they will do the same Gerard, if you clean your act up.” She said wiping the tears and eyeliner from his cheeks. “I’m not strong enough.” He muttered picking an almost empty bottle of gin up. “Gerard, you’re one of the strongest people I’ve ever met so don’t even say that, you got through that terrible time when your Grandma, Elena, died, why can’t you get through this?” She said patting Gerard’s leg. “It’s totally different this time.” He said opening to bottle. “How is it?” Alexandra asked. “You’re not with me anymore I have no one, I’ve lost all the people I love.” He said closing the bottle again. “Gerard I’ll always be with you, no matter what.” She said and Gerard looked at her. “But not like you used to be, nothing’s right anymore,” he said burying his head in his dirty, cold, shaking hands. “I know,” Alex sighed. “But you’ve got to keep living if not for anyone else for yourself.” She said looking at him.

He shook his head and slowly got up wobbling slightly as he stood. He looked at Alexandra she smiled at him. “I don’t understand, why are you here?” he asked. “I knew you needed help, I had to do something.” She sighed playing with her wavy walnut-coloured hair. “You have your hair back.” Gerard said sitting next to her again. “Yes, that’s one good thing about this whole situation, I was able to have my hair back, but it was hard persuading them to give it back to me.” She said “But what happened to it? It used to be so curly.” He said picking a lock of the glossy hair up. “The chemo made it fall out and I guess it just grew back differently.” She sighed dropping the curl she had in her hand. She looked around the room and sighed heavily her eyes noticed a small picture frame glistening in the little light they had in the room it was a picture of her and Gerard, they used to be so happy, but now everything is just so wrong. She went to wipe her eyes but no tears came out, nothing she sighed and shook her head wishing things were like they used to be.

“Alex are you pregnant?” Gerard asked after looking at her for a while, she just nodded smiling slightly. “But how? Who’s is the child’s father?” he asked looking at her small but rounded stomach. “Gerard, please calm down, the child, is your child, it’s a gift from God, when I left, I mean when I died, I got sent to heaven along with the baby in my stomach, God he let me keep it, as I didn’t actually know I was pregnant.” She explained. “So..so..the child is mine?” Gerard stuttered. “Yes,” Alex sighed. “And I hope it has all your amazing qualities your silky black hair, big hazel eyes and pale skin, if it looked anything like you Gerard it’ll be perfect.” She said stroking his cheek. “No, Alex it’s not fair! I want to watch this baby grow up, I love you, I love it already please can’t you just come back, God please bring her back to me!” Gerard said almost in hysterics. “Gerard there is no point God can’t do anything now, heaven is where I belong, it was my time to die Gerard,” Alex said with sorrow in her beetle black eyes. “But you’re so young, why couldn’t they take me instead.” He said looking at her pale face, the rosy ness she always had in her cheeks was no longer there. “It’s not your time, you have some many more things to achieve.” She said. Gerard shook his head “It’s okay Gerard, God explained everything to me, he’s a great man.” She said comfortingly. “If he’s so great why did he take you and Elena away from me.” He muttered. “We’re happier up there Gerard, I was in so much pain before I died, now I feel nothing and Elena, she’s as happy as ever.” Alex smiled slightly.

“I…I want to join you.” Gerard suddenly said. “What do you mean?” Alex asked confused. “I want to be up there with you the baby and Elena, I want us to be a family.” Gerard said wiping his eyes. “It’s not possible Gerard, you need to stay down here, to look after Mikey, and my sister Elizabeth. You need to live for so many reasons.” She said sighing; she let out one single tear, which immediately turned to dust. “Alex, I can’t, please I just can’t anymore.” He said smacking his fist against the cold concrete floor in frustration. He lifted it up and pain seared through it and it began to throb, he swore under his breath and Alex laughed. “I miss that.” He said looking Alex in the eye, she looked away.

“Gerard I have to go.” Alex said after a minute or two of silence. “No, please stay.” He begged. “I wish I can’t be he wants me back, I’m sorry but Gerard please get better, you know it’s the right thing to do.” She said, Gerard suddenly realised what the right thing to do was. “Goodbye my love.” Alex said looking at him. “Goodbye, for now.” Gerard said and Alex then faded away. He began to cry again and crawled over to the other side of the room, while dodging pieces of multicoloured glass that picked up the light so the glossy green glass was glistening in the light. He got to his destination at the otherside of the room and sat down. He picked up a cold clammy object and his icy tears dropped onto it’s metallic surface. I was a gun. He checked for bullets, and the gun was fully loaded. “I want to be with you Alex, with the child, our child, I love you.” He said his hands shaking. He held the gun up to his head.

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“….no, no I haven’t.” she sighed. “Rach, why not?” Frank asked. “I don’t know, I’m scared.” She said. “Why are you scared?” Frank asked squeezing Rachel’s hand. “I don’t, I mean I just I hate it when people judge me, they’re going to think I’m a freak or something.” Rachel said quietly. “Rach, they’re there to help you, they meet people like you every day so of course they wont think you’re a freak!” Frank said. “I guess.” She replied. “When is your next session?” Frank asked. “Um, it’s tomorrow.” Rachel said. “I’ll come with you.” Frank said. “Are you sure?” Rachel asked. “Of course, I’m getting a bit anorexic myself.” Frank laughed and Rachel joined in. “Thank you Frank.” Rachel smiled. “It’s alright you should’ve told me you weren’t going earlier though, I could’ve helped earlier.” He said. “I know, I’m sorry.” She said, looking at the floor. Frank smiled and kissed her cheek making her smile.

When they got back to the apartment it was empty. “How about we,” Frank said suggestively. Rachel just gave him a look as if to say “In Your Dreams”. She walked into the kitchen to see a note left on the table. <b>“We’ve gone out to eat, wont be back until late, if you want to join us we’re at Marissa’s Bar, if not I understand, I wouldn’t want to either lol, Love you Bri x”</b> The note read. “Frank, do you want to go out tonight or stay in?” Rachel asked routing through the fridge before deciding there was nothing there. “I don’t mind what would you like to do?” Frank asked wrapping his arms around Rachel’s waist. “Tonight is about you.” He said kissing her cheek. She turned around and kissed him softly, as she did this he slipped the charm bracelet on her wrist. She pulled away and smiled at him. “I love you.” She said. “I love you too,” he replied hugging her. “How about we go to bed?” Rachel winked smiling. Frank stood there for a second but then realised what she meant and ran upstairs, she followed laughing a little.

She woke up the next day and Frank was next to her, his arms were wrapped around her waist. She sighed and wriggled free from his grip, she hated that she was so thin he could almost wrap just one arm around her whole waist. She got up and put her dressing gown on, leaving Frank alone in bed she went to have a shower, thoughts of last night made her feel better. She walked out of the room to see Lois sitting on the banister. “Should you really be sitting up there? In your condition.” Rachel said. “I’m not ill, I’m just pregnant.” Lois sighed swinging her legs and smiling. “Where is everyone?” Rachel asked leaning against the wall. “Well, Pete is at the studio, Gee, Ray and everyone else except Frank who seems to be knocked out in there, I’m guessing you had fun last night, but yeah everyone else is food shopping.” Lois explained. Rachel laughed. “Does it really take eight adults to go food shopping?” she asked. “You know how they are.” Lois smiled jumping off the banister smiling. Rachel suddenly felt to arms around her waist but she quickly removed them. “What’s up?” Frank asked as she turned to face him. “I’m just not very comfortable with you putting your arms around my waist, it’s really horrible to see that you can fit just one of your arms around my waist.” Rachel said and then walked into the bathroom. “She’s really not well.” Lois said, Frank nodded sighing and then walked back into the bedroom to get changed.

About half an hour later Rachel still hadn’t got out of the shower, Frank was starting to get a little worried as she never usually had long showers. “Rach? Are you alright in there?” he asked, there was no answer. He could hear the water running but there didn’t seem to be any movement in there. He managed to force the door open by kicking it. He walked into the bathroom, to see Rachel curled up in the corner of the shower, crying. He switched the shower off and she looked up for a second before looking back down again. Frank got a towel and wrapped Rachel up in it, like she was a baby. He took her back into the bedroom and put on of his t-shirts on her frail shaking body. He tucked her back under the covers and joined her, he hugged her close though she tried to push away as his arms were about her waist, though it didn’t work as she was too weak, she soon fell asleep again and Frank sighed and kissed her forehead. He’d have to go back to America in four days and there was nothing he could do as he knew Rachel wouldn’t go with him and he wouldn’t be able to stay in England while the rest of the band were in America.  Frank soon fell asleep next to Rachel.

When he woke up Rachel was no longer by his side, and the t-shirt he’d put on her was on the bed. He got up and walked out of the bedroom wiping the sleep from his eyes. He walked downstairs and there seemed to be no one in. He called everyone’s name and no one answered…not even Rachel. He rang Rachel’s mobile but and heard her ringtone, ‘Astro Zombies’ he followed it until he found her phone, it was on the table, she’d left it at home, which was really unlike her, she loved her phone almost more than Frank. He decided to call Brina and Lois, but neither of them had seen her.

He decided to go and look for her at the park again, to see if she was there. When he got there all he saw was a bunch of teenagers, Rachel was nowhere to be found. He decided to call Pete, so he could call William, Frank thought that Rachel may have gone back to William, if so he’d have to respect her decision. After he’d called Pete he waited anxiously in the park for five minutes, tears in his eyes threatening to spill over. Pete called back and Frank quickly picked the phone up. “So?” Frank said as he answered the phone. “So what?” Pete asked. “So is she with William?” Frank said. “Oh, no she’s not he said he hasn’t seen her since she walked off on him.” Pete explained and Frank sighed in relief. “Why did you want to know dude?” Pete asked. “Oh, no reason it’s ok, thanks Pete.” Frank said hanging up, he looked up at the sky and tried to think where Rachel could be. He suddenly remembered this place he told her about a couple weeks after they’d met, it was a place she’d go to think and seek advice.

He got up and started walking out of the park, he wasn’t too sure where this place was but he was sure he’d be able to find it somehow. The place he was looking for was a Cemetery, the Cemetery where Rachel’s father was buried in. Rachel never really had a mother; she died in childbirth along with her fourth child, who was going to be Rachel, Brina and Lois’s younger sister. Rachel was only two when this happened so she hardly remembered her mother, when her father died he was buried next to her mother, but Rachel would always go and talk to her father, as she felt she was closer to him.

After about a ten-minute walk Frank got to a cemetery it was the closest one to the house so he figured this is were Rachel’s father was buried. Frank stepped inside the cemetery and looked around, in the distance he saw a person sitting at a grave with a hood up though he saw some purple hair, he slowly made his way over to her but as he got closer he heard her talking so he stood and listened to her. “And I’m just really scared, I don’t want to be like this but I don’t want to change. And I think I’m losing Frank I know he doesn’t like me this way. I love him so much Daddy I really do, I don’t know what to do, I think I may just kill myself, so I can be with you, Frank goes back to America in four days he wont know he told me to ring him everyday, though but I’m sure I can get around that somehow, I love him so much, but it’s just not the same anymore, and it’s heartbreaking Dad, I wish you were here, I wish Mum was here, I wish Marc was still here. I hope you’re looking after him Daddy, I know you never liked him but I loved him Dad, why does everyone I love have to be taken away from me? Marc was like the brother I never had and he had to get sick and die, if only you would’ve seen him Dad, I watched the life drain out of him, the day he died I nearly died along with him, the only reason I stayed alive was because of you, and the some motherfucker had to come along and take you away from me, Frank came along just at the right time Daddy, and now I’m losing him too, it’s all my fault.” Rachel said collapsing into floods of tears in front of the gravestone, she traced over the words “Loving Father and Son” and cried more. “Please Daddy come back to me. Please.” She cried. Rachel looked over to her mother’s grave and whispered something that Frank could just hear “I just want us to be a family again.” She said and then cried some more before standing up and gasping as she saw Frank.

“How…how long have you been there?” Rachel stuttered almost falling back. “Long enough.” Frank said and Rachel looked at her feet. She started crying and Frank walked over to her and hugged her. “I’m never leaving you, ever I promise, please Rach, don’t leave me.” He said kissing her forehead as she cried into his shoulder. “Shall we go?” he asked quietly. “I…I..i need to visit Marc.” She said as she tried to stop herself from crying. Frank nodded and Rachel bent down some flowers and headed towards the grave. When she got there she kneeled down placing the flowers in the holder, she stared at the grave for a while until she suddenly spoke. “Hello Marc, it’s me again, I was just talking to Dad, I hope he’s looking after you, not that you’re incapable I just want you to be safe.” She said looking at the grave like she could see his face in it. “This is my boyfriend Frank, I think you would’ve liked him, he’s very sweet to me he looks after me, he’s making sure I’m safe until I’m able to go up there with you, I love you Marc I hope we can talk again soon, be safe, look after everyone I know for me and look after yourself” Rachel said wiping her eyes and getting up.

Frank held his hand out and Rachel took it and they silently walked out of the cemetery. Once they were out of the cemetery Frank turned to Rachel. “Who’s Marc Rachel?” he asked. “He was my best friend and we dated for a while back in high school he was the only person I could tell anything, he got MRSA when he was in hospital for a knee operation and he didn’t get through it.” Rachel said crying. “Shall we go for coffee?” Frank asked, Rachel nodded still crying and they walked into the coffee shop. Rachel sat down at a table in the corner of the room while Frank  got the drinks, when he brought them over Rachel took hers and hugged it close to her chest. “Do you want to talk about it?” Frank asked. “Talk about what? Rachel said looking up from her coffee. “What you said at the cemetery.” Frank said. “Well to be honest Frank, you weren’t even supposed to hear it, so no we’re not going to talk about it because quite frankly it was no one’s business but my own.” Rachel said raising her voice and storming out of the café. Frank sighed shaking his head, he was getting tired of running after her, too tired……

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panicatthediscoxchik- xxCall It Attraction But I Call It Lovexx I love her, I love it! :D 

missxwentzx00- Love Can’t Save You Now

midnightnightmares- Miss You?

sweettransvestite- My Immortal

frank4life- Chemical Lifes

xxkissherkissherxx- [x]SometimesWeTakeChances,SometimesWeTakePills[x] 

girlwitaroseinhernee- xXXxAll The Cyanide You Drank/The Sequel/Staring Pete and CaydenxXXx

frankierosbadgirl- Welcome To The Black Romance

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weirdo4ever- No Name

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“What?” Rachel said and then looked over, gasping. “This Rach, look at it!” he said pushing the object in front of her. It was a magazine and on the front of the magazine it contained two pictures, one of Frank and Rachel kissing the other of William and Rachel kissing. The title read “We’re as confused as Rachel is about her love life.” “I..I…I..” Rachel stuttered out. “You what come on spit it out, I’m sure you’ve got a good explanation.” Frank said sitting down at the table. “It’s an old photo.” Rachel lied. “Don’t lie! They’re both new! You were wearing the clothes you have on in the photos two days ago.” Frank yelled. “So come on Rach, explain coz right now I really don’t understand!” Frank shouted. “It’s your fault,” Rachel muttered. “My fault! My fault! How the fuck is it my fault, that you were kissing your ex, or am I the ex and William is your boyfriend coz I just don’t know anymore.” Frank said. “Oh and by the way the present Gerard mentioned a couple of days ago well I got it here.” He said and chucked the box onto the table, she took it and opened it. It was a bracelet with charms all over it, all of them meant something to Rachel. She burst into tears and got up, heading for the door. “You going to William to try and think of an excuse, you never know he might give you some anul for free!” Frank shouted as Rachel left the room. “SHUT UP!” Rachel yelled and then slammed the door behind her.

“Woaw, what was that all about?” Bob asked walking into the kitchen. “Nothing, everything is fine, everything is just fucking peachy!” Frank said. “Sorry dude looks like someone got out of the wrong side of the bed today.” Bob said and then left the kitchen. Frank picked the magazine up and opened it. Inside it talked about Rachel being a groupie, and a slut. This made Frank really mad and he picked a glass up off the table and smashed it against the table, cutting his hand in the process, “Fuck.” He exclaimed and got some bandages from the cupboard, wrapping his hand in one.

“Hey Frank, what the-woaw.” Gerard said looking at the mess in the kitchen. “What happened?” Gerard asked sitting at the other side of the table. “You tell me.” Frank said sliding the magazine across the table. Gerard looked at it. “I’m sorry dude, is there anyway this could be photo-shopped, I mean Rach isn’t like that, she wouldn’t cheat on you, she loves you.” Gerard said. “She cheated on William with me didn’t she?” Frank said. “Did she?” Gerard said. “Yeah, we had sex, the night we came here.” He shrugged. “I knew it.” Gerard said quietly. “Hmmm.” Frank replied. “Yeah, but that’s different, she loves you she doesn’t love William.” Gerard said. “Really? Coz I’m not so sure anymore.” Frank sighed, picking the box containing the charm bracelet up and sliding it inside his pocket. “Guys, Gerard I’m back and I have lunch!” Brina said from the lounge. “I’m going to ask Brina about this, she is Rachel’s sister after all.” Gerard said leaving the room with the magazine. “By the way, you didn’t hurt her did you, I mean there is blood on the table, and well she’s not here.” Gerard said poking his head back inside the room. “Dude! You really think I’d do that, I love her! I just cut my hand, what they said about her in the magazine made me angry.” He said holding his hand up. “Ohhhh,” Gerard said and then left the room.

“Ugly bastard.” Frank said flicking through the magazine and looking at the pictures of William in it, he saw a picture of himself next to William and threw the magazine across the room, hitting the door. He got up and got a cloth from the sink wiping up the blood and glass.

 “Hey Frank, Gerard told me everything, where is the magazine?” Brina asked putting bags on the table. “On the floor.” Frank said pointing over to it. Brina nodded and picked it up and examined it. “Is Lois in?” she asked Frank. “I think so. Why?” Frank asked her. “Oh, no reason.” Brina said examining the magazine. She left the room and Frank heard her say “A slut? Fucking cunts, she’s no slut.” Frank laughed a little at how protective Brina was, but then again she had a reason to be, Rachel was anorexic after all. “Shit!” Frank thought, she’s anorexic, he had to find her she could be in danger, but then he remembered that she’d probably be with William. He got up and walked into the lounge to see Lois and Brina examining the magazine. “So?” he asked. “So what?” Lois replied. “What do you think?” he asked sitting down. “We still are, give us a minute.” Lois said.

After about five minutes Lois looked up. “What did Rachel actually say to you?” she asked. “Um, nothing, well she told me to shut up, well she sorta screamed it at me and then left.” He said. “Right.” Lois said and then sat back rubbing her stomach. “Hi guys, hello gorgeous.” Pete said walking in the room and sitting next to Lois. “Hello little gorgeous.” He said and kissed Lois’s stomach. “Hello Daddy.” Lois said in a baby voice making Pete and Lois, laugh. “Dude, what’s with the thorn in your side?” Pete asked Frank. “What?” Frank asked obnoxiously. “It’s Pete’s way for basically saying what’s the matter?” Lois explained. “Oh, nothing, I’m great.” Frank mumbled. Lois passed Pete the magazine. “Dude, what is William doing kissing Rach?” he asked. “Oh my god Pete! That’s it! You’re so right! I love you!” Lois said kissing Pete. “What? What did I do? And am I getting rewarded?” he said smiling evilly.

“Pete I’m pregnant.” Lois said. “Yeah so?” he said kissing her neck. “But what is he right about?” Frank asked. “Actually yeah, I wanna know that too.” Pete said. “He’s right, he said William kissing Rachel, that’s what he’s doing look, she’s not kissing back, look at the picture of you and her Frank then look at the other see her lips, in the one with you they’re pushed up against yours, in the other one, they’re just normal, she was caught by surprise.” Lois explained passing the magazine to Frank. “Hmm I dunno.” He said looking at it. “Frank! You really think Rachel would cheat on you! After everything that has happened, she got fucking raped for god’s sakes!” Lois yelled almost in tears. “She did cheat on William though, with me!” Frank yelled back. “Exactly, she loves you not William that’s why she did what she did!” Lois yelled and then stormed out of the room. Pete just looked at him and then followed Lois.

  “Do you trust her Frank?” Brina asked. “I thought I did.” He replied looking at his hands. “I know you love her, I mean you bought that bracelet for her didn’t you?” Brina asked and Frank nodded. “Then you have to trust her, you know she didn’t want me to tell you this, but when she was living over here with William, and I’d call her she’d always ask me how you were, and if you had a girlfriend, and that time you were going out with that girl for about two weeks, well I told her about that girl, I forget her name, and I swear Frank she was crying, thinking you’d moved on. You see Frank, she’s always loved you. I think William was more company than anything, as she was still scared of Matt, she needed someone there for her.” Brina explained and everything suddenly became clear to Frank. “So, William kissed her?” he asked, Brina nodded. “We need to find her,” he said getting up and Brina smiled and nodded, they both grabbed a coat and left the house.

Rachel hadn’t taken the car so she hadn’t have gone far. “Which way is the nearest park?” Frank asked Brina. “Lois said there is one about ten minutes walk from here, why?” she asked as they started walking in the direction of it. “Coz, whenever we like got stressed at each other or had little arguments there was this park we both used to go to back in America, and I think she may have gone to a park to be alone.” Frank said, Brina nodded and they carried on walking. “I’m sorry about this Bri, I know you’re probably mad at me.” Frank said as they walked. “Frank, I’d be mad at you if you broke up with her, I’m glad you realised that it was a mistake.” Brina said as they got to the park gates.

 “Well, we’re here, I hope she is too.” Frank said and then they started walking down the park path, they got to the part of the park that opened out, Frank spotted Rachel curled up on a bench, he started walking towards her slowly when he saw William sit next to her and pass her a drink, Frank hid behind a hedge and listened to them talking. “William? Why are you here? What’s this?” she asked. “I saw you looked sad and well I thought you might want some cocoa.” He said. “Oh,” she said and then took a sip. “Thank you.” She said. “I’m guessing you saw the magazine.” He said to her. “Yeah, and Frank did.” She sighed. “So?” William said. “So, what?” Rachel asked. “Are we getting back together?” William asked. Frank suddenly became very nervous; he didn’t want to lose Rachel. “William, I’ve already told you, I don’t love you, you kissed me in that pub, I love Frank.” Rachel said standing up. “Just think about it.” William said. “I already have, the answer is still no.” she said and then stormed off, Frank kept behind the hedge. Rachel spotted Brina and ran up to her. “Why do all lads have to be bastards?” he said while hugging Brina. “Not all of them are Rach; you just gotta find the right one.” Brina replied. “I thought I had, I wish Dad was here.” Rachel said sniffling. “I wish the same thing everyday, I wish he was here to give me away at my wedding, Lois wishes he was here to see her child, but everything happens for a reason, even though it doesn’t seem fair, it must have happened for a reason.” She said wiping tears from her eyes. “I wish they would’ve taken me instead of him.” Rachel sighed. “You know that’s not what Dad would’ve wanted, he wants you to be happy, he probably would’ve died anyway from heart break, think about that.” Brina said straightening up. “Remember what he used to say suck it up soldier.” Brina smiled and Rachel laughed nodding. She turned around and saw Frank in a hedge still. “Why is he here?” she asked. “We came looking for you it was his idea to come here, don’t be hard on him, he did have reason too, I know he should’ve believed you, but you’re beautiful so he’s worried that you’ll find someone better.” Brina said and Rachel laughed nodding again.

Rachel walked up behind Frank and tapped him on the shoulder. “Urm, hi.” She said, Frank immediately grabbed her and kissed her. “I’m so sorry.” He said as they broke away. Rachel nodded and hugged him. “I’m sorry too, for everything.” She said and Frank nodded. “Are you all right?” Frank asked. “Yeah, I am now, what happened to your hand?” Rachel asked. “Nothing it doesn’t matter.” Frank said putting his hand in his pocket. “Do you want to go home?” Frank asked. “Can we go for a walk first? Just the two of us.” Rachel said and Frank nodded. “I’ll just go and tell Brina,” Rachel said letting go of Frank’s hand and walking towards Brina. “Bri, me and Frank are going to go for a walk alone, is that ok?” Rachel asked. “Of course, I’ll go back to the house, I’ll see you guys later.” Brina said hugging Rachel, she then turned around and started heading home.

Rachel walked up to Frank again and took his hand. “So what do you wanna talk about?” Frank asked as they began to walk. “I want to talk about us.” Rachel said. “Um, ok.” Frank said, looking at her. “Um, so,…” Frank said. “I love you Frank, you know that don’t you, I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you.” Rachel said. “I know Rach, I love you so much too, I love you more than you love me.” Frank said taking her hands in his and stopped walking. “I don’t think that’s possible.” Rachel said smiling. “Oh I think it is.” He said and then smiled leaning in. Rachel leaned forward and their lips touched Frank wrapped his arms around her waist as he slid his tongue inside, Rachel sucked on Frank’s tongue and he smiled moaning slightly. Rachel laughed pulling away and kissing his neck. “I’m going to miss you when you go back to America.” Rachel said as Frank held her. “I still think you should come back with me.” Frank said. “I’m just not ready, I don’t know, I just…” Rachel trailed off. Frank nodded. “You better ring me every day.” Frank said. Rachel laughed and nodded. “I will, I promise.” She said and then kissed his lips lightly. He smiled and then started walking back to the house hand-in-hand.

“Rach can I ask you something?” Frank said as they walked out of the park. “Sure, what?” she replied. “Have you been going to those sessions we set up for you, to help you with your anorexia?” Frank asked, Rachel stayed silent. “Have you?” he repeated. “Ummm…” Rachel replied.

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missxwentzx00- Love Can’t Save You Now

petesahottie- Roll The Dice, Take A Chance

midnightnightmares- Before The Sun Goes Down

sweettransvestite- My Immortal

frank4life- Chemical Lifes

xxkissherkissherxx- Gotta new one, sorry Jess I can't remember the name at the moment,  

fobluva4eva- Stace wrote one and put it on Lo's site check it out fucking awesome!/ Lois’s story for Stace called Her Carer fucking cried buckets reading it hehe i loved it tho :)

girlwitaroseinhernee- xXXxAll The Cyanide You Drank/The Sequel/Staring Pete and CaydenxXXx

frankierosbadgirl- Welcome To The Black Romance

vengeanceluver25- Blue Eyes Of Heaven

weirdo4ever- No Name

rachspoon- [[Frank]]Vampires Will Never Hurt You[[Iero]]

rachelandbrina- I Brought You To The Dark Side But You Brought Me To The Bright Side (mine and Brina's fanfic)

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.....“It can’t it’s too early.” Rachel said. “Well it fucking feels like it is so call a fucking ambulance!” Lois yelled, Rachel nodded and called an ambulance while Brina called Pete to tell him what’s happening, Pete arrived before the ambulance did and helped Lois outside to wait for the ambulance. When the ambulance arrived Lois and Pete got in while everyone else made their way by car.

When they arrived Lois had been rushed to the emergency ward and everyone but Pete was made to wait outside, while she was in there Patrick, Andy and Joe arrived. “What are you guys doing here?” Rachel asked. “Nice to see you too Rach, Pete phoned us and told us Lo was having the baby, is she?” Joe asked. “It seems so yeah.” Brina said pacing. “Brina calm down! It’s not like you’re the one having the baby!” Rachel said. “I can’t help it! This sorta stuff always get’s me nervous, ever since Dad was in hospital and passed away while he was in I’ve hated even being near one, it just brings back memories you know?” she said crying slightly. Rachel nodded and hugged her.

Thirty minutes later Pete came out, “False alarm guys.” He said sighing. “What?” Sky asked. “She wasn’t in labour, well she was sorta, but well she isn’t anymore.” He explained. “Is the baby okay? Is she okay?” Brina asked. “They’re both fine, baby was a bit disgruntled from what happened with William as it got Lois annoyed and the baby sensed it, so the baby was just shifting about a bit and well that happened I guess.” He said, “Well can we go see Lois?” Rachel asked. “Well actually I think she’s just getting ready to come home so there is no real point.” Pete said running his fingers through his hair. “Oh okay.” Rachel said and then Lois came out of the room. “You okay?” Brina asked. “Not really, I’m pissed off, that scared me shitless, I thought I was going to lose it and well yeah that’s it.” Lois said. “At least we didn’t hey, it’s fine, you’re fine.” He said. “And you’re very fine.” Lois said kissing Pete’s cheek and laughing. “Oh my Patrick, Andy, Joe!” she said spotting them and walking over to hug them all. “Hey Lois.” Patrick said. “How are you all? I haven’t seen you in ages.” She smiled. “Lois it’s been two weeks.” Andy said laughing. “Oh, really? Well never mind, how are you?” she asked. “Good.” Joe said. “And you?” he added. “Okay I guess, you coming back to our house to hang out for a bit?” she asked. “Are you sure it wont be too crowded, I mean I heard all of Mcr are over at the moment.” Patrick said. “They are, but the more the merrier hey! Anyway I think our house is big enough and we could go out into the garden, it is a nice day after all.” She smiled, the guys nodded and they all headed for the door. Brina drove all the girls apart form Lois back as Joe drove her and Pete, Patrick, Joe and Andy back to the house.

When they got back Gerard and Mikey were in all the others had gone out for some reason, they wouldn’t tell any of the others why. Pete set up the stuff for a barbeque and started roasting some burgers in an apron saying “Kiss the cook” Lois walked outside and smiled. “Alright.” She said and then walked over to Pete and kissed him. Brina let out an “Aww!” and looked at Gerard. “Will get one of those aprons?” she asked sitting on his knee. “So, you’re not going to kiss me unless I’m wearing one of those?” he asked, she giggled and kissed him. “Tell me where Frankie went!” I said collapsing onto the grass in frustration. “He’ll be back soon.” Mikey said and then turned back to face Sky. “He better be!” I said and then stared at the sky, it was blue not a cloud in sight, which was rare for England. The sun wasn’t too hot, luckily as Rachel was wearing long sleeves because of her arms, she knew that everyone knew about her past, but she covered her arms from herself, to make herself forget about them. She put her hands at arms length and stared at her chipped nails, they made her laugh, as they must have been about seven different colours from when she couldn’t find the same colour to touch them up with. She was suddenly brought out of her day dream by her name being called. “Rach, fat ass! Dinner!” she heard Sky shout and laughed sitting up. “And that’s why you’re my best friend Sky.” Rachel said getting up and putting her arm around Sky. “Meet me in the bedroom in five.” Rachel said in a loud whisper so Mikey could hear. “What? I wish Frank really would hurry up, you really are getting desperate! You’ll be asking Gee next!” Mikey said taking Rachel’s arm from around Sky and replacing it with his. “What are you trying to say?” Brina said looking at Mikey and then back at Gerard. Mikey laughed nervously and then looked away from Brina as she was giving him evils. “Owhhhh how fucked up is our family and friends?” Rachel said walking over to Lois and all of Fall Out Boy. “It’s not the Fall Out Boy side, it’s the My Chemical Romance side.” Patrick said smirking. “Oh really? Have you seen what Joe is doing?” she asked Patrick looking over to Joe who was trying to get something out of this nose. “I got the fucking beer can pull stuck up my nose.” He said and then tugged the piece out of his nose, he looked at it in disgust and threw it on the floor. Rachel looked at him and laughed and then joined the queue of hungry people to get her food.

 They all started eating and were almost finished when Bob, Ray and Frank came back. Bob was very drunk and Ray was tipsy, but Frank was the worst. “We’re baaaaaaaaaaaack!” he yelled through the house. Rachel shuddered she hated when Frank got really, really drunk. “Hey babie!” he said walking up to Rachel and kissing her on the cheek. “How much have you actually had to drink?” she asked him. “Just a lil.” He slurred smiling he grabbed her face and passionately kissed her, she pulled away and looked at him in disgust, “Frank, you smell and taste of beer, it’s disgusting.” Rachel said backing away from him. “No I don’t, don’t be stupid!” he slurred trying to practically lie on her. “Frank, stop it you’re hurting me.” Rachel said pushing Frank off her, Gerard walked up and pulled Frank off her. “Frank, I thought you were going to get her a present?” Gerard whispered in his ear. “Ah! The present I forgot all about it! Here it is babe!” Frank said ripping off his shirt. “It’s me!” he said and then started unbuckling his belt. “Come on Rachie-Baby you know you want me!” he said walking up to her. “You know what Frank right now, I don’t, I’m going out.” She said storming away. “What did I do?” Frank said as Rachel walked away. “What do you mean what did you do? You’re drunk as fuck, that’s what you did.” Brina said. “Fuck yooooooou!” Frank slurred sitting in a chair. “Frank get to bed!” Gerard demanded. “You’re not my fucking Mum you know!” Frank yelled back. “Frank!” Gerard yelled and Frank sighed getting up and stumbling into the house.

Rachel stormed out of the garden and into the house, she heard Frank and Brina yelling and sighed grabbing her keys some sunglasses and money and got into Frank’s car. She drove for about fifteen minutes with Fall Out Boy’s “Tell Mick..” on repeat trying to calm herself down but it didn’t work. She stopped at a pub about twenty minutes away from her house, she walked in and sat down at the bar and ordered a double vodka and coke. The bartender put it in front of her and she quickly drank it. She ordered another trying to numb the anger and disappointment. She remembered the first time she saw Frank that drunk. They had an argument and he stormed out of the club, he went missing for about five hours. Ray eventually found him  on a park bench. When he’d rested and sobered up Rachel made him promise he’d never get that drunk, he’d just broken that promise and that broke Rachel’s heart, it made her feel like she didn’t matter.

She drank back the second and then lay her head on the bar. “Miss are you ok?” he bartender asked, Rachel looked up and smiled. “Nothing another drink wont fix.” She said and he nodded and poured her another drink and took away the empty glass, she sipped this one slower this time, and then someone caught her eye, Mike, the guitarist of The Academy Is, which meant one thing William will be there too she finished off her drink and got up only to be confronted by William, “shit.” she said under her breath but he seemed to just smile at her. “Hi Rachel.” He said, she smiled at him looking him up and down behind her sunglasses; he took them off and rubbed her cheek. “William I’m sorry we had to break up like that.” She said she felt guilty she loved Frank, but still cared for William, after all he didn’t mean for her to fall ill. “It’s ok, I understand.” He said smiling at her, Rachel was shocked he’d turned from being angry to caring and sweet, like the first time she met him in the airport. He was so sweet he carried her suitcase and held her hand all the way to the car as she was still upset and crying about what happened, in the weeks after he used to be up with her all night as she couldn’t sleep because of the nightmares, he used to sit and sing to her, four weeks after they’d met her asked her out. She smiled remembering all this and he leaned in, she went with it forgetting Frank and their lips touched, she felt…nothing. She pulled away quickly, and William gave her a strange look. “What?” he asked. “That kiss, there was nothing there I felt nothing.” She said almost pleased. He looked at her and then leaned in again. “William, please don’t I don’t love you, I love Frank, I’m sorry.” She said, she walked out of the bar and got in her car, she was slightly over the limit but if she drove carefully she knew she’d be ok. She got home and Frank was asleep. She got undressed and crawled beside him, she felt him put his arm around her. “I’m so sorry Rach, I love you.” He said, he’d obviously sobered up enough to realise what he’d done. “It’s alright, just go to sleep, I love you too.” She said kissing him briefly, when she kissed Frank she tingled all over it was so meaningful so loving.

Two days later Rachel was sitting at the kitchen table eating her breakfast, when Frank stormed in. “What the hell do you call this!?!” he yelled throwing something on the table next to her……

need to mention some peoples fanfics that I’m reading and to be read please take a look they’re so awesome!!!

panicatthediscoxchik- xxCall It Attraction But I Call It Lovexx She is so beautiful and caring and just an amazing person :) I miss her so much as Msn is being a fucker right now, Ly hun! I'm always here for you xx

missxwentzx00- Love Can’t Save You Now

petesahottie- Roll The Dice, Take A Chance

midnightnightmares- Before The Sun Goes Down

sweettransvestite- Life Is But A Dream For The Dead

frank4life- Chemical Lifes

xxkissherkissherxx- I.Can't.Commit.To.A.Thing.Be.It.Heart.Or.Hospital__&&.x

fobluva4eva- Stace wrote one and put it on Lo's site check it out fucking awesome!/ Lois’s story for Stace called Her Carer

girlwitaroseinhernee- xXXxAll The Cyanide You Drank/The Sequel/Staring Pete and CaydenxXXx

frankierosbadgirl- Welcome To The Black Romance

vengeanceluver25- Blue Eyes Of Heaven

sonnysblackrose- Sonny's Black Rose

weirdo4ever- No Name

rachspoon- [[Frank]]Vampires Will Never Hurt You[[Iero]]

rachelandbrina- I Brought You To The Dark Side But You Brought Me To The Bright Side (mine and Brina's fanfic)

They really deserve to be read so go read them!!! Thanx

Frank was sitting on the bed crying when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up to see a girl smiling at her and wiping his cheek. “Rach, is that you?” Frank asked wiping his eyes. “Of course it is, what’s the matter?” she asked sitting next to him. “I thought you, were dead.” Frank said. “What? Why?” Rachel asked as he pulled her onto his lap. “I came in here and your bed was made and you weren’t here.” Frank said. “I’m sorry I just went for a shower, it’s okay, the doctors said I’m going to be alright, they say I can come home this afternoon coz I’ve proved them all wrong and I’ve been getting better.” Rachel said holding Frank’s face in her hands. Frank leaned forward and kissed her passionately. “So are we back together?” Frank said leaning his forehead against hers. Rachel smiled and nodded, and then kissed Frank. Frank smiled back and then hugged her tightly. “I love you so much Frank.” Rachel said leaning on him making him fall back onto the bed, they both laughed and just lay there for a while.

“So, what happens now?” Frank asked after a while. “What do you mean?” Rachel asked. “Well, are you going to come back to America with me?” Frank asked as they both sat up. “I can’t.” Rachel said looking at the floor. “Why not?” Frank asked sounding hurt. “Coz, I have to go for check-ups.” Rachel said. “We can arrange that so that they’re over in America.” Frank said. “I, I’m just not ready Frank, I love you, but I’m just not ready, sorry.” Rachel said, looking over Frank’s shoulder. “I understand.” Frank said. “You do?” Rachel replied looking at Frank, he nodded. “Thanks Frankie you’re the best, I love you.” Rachel said smiling and kissing him on the cheek. “Frankie hey? You haven’t called me that in ages, I missed it so much.” Frank said smiling like a fool. Rachel laughed as the doctor walked in. “Right Miss Powell, ready to go?” he asked her. “I sure am, no offence but I hate it here.” She said. “It’s okay, it’s a hospital your not supposed to like it!” the doctor smiled and then handed her the clipboard. “Sign there and then you’re free to go.” Rachel signed it and then passed it back. “Right your first appointment is in a month’s time, but if you are feeling ill before that please check back in and well, I’ll see you soon, but hopefully not too soon.” The doctor said and then walked out of the door. “I’m going home!” Rachel said excitedly as Frank picked up her bags and they both started walking out of the hospital, Frank had Rachel’s bag in one hand and his other arm was wrapped around Rachel’s waist. Rachel had her left arm wrapped around Frank’s waist and her hand was tucked in Frank’s back pocket.

When they got out of the hospital, a few reporters started asking them questions but they just ignored them and walked to the car Frank had driven there in. He drove them home, and when they got there Rachel saw something that she thought would no longer be there, William’s car. “What? Why is William’s car here?” she asked. “He’s refusing to leave, he says it’s as much his house as it is yours.” Frank said. “But, it’s actually Lois and Pete’s house, does he not realise that.” Rachel said angrily. “We’ve all tried telling him that but he wont listen, he keeps bringing random girls back and like making out with them every time one of us walks in the room.” Frank said. “That’s it! I mean he drove me to this and now he won’t even leave me in peace inside my own house! That’s ridiculous!” Rachel said getting out of the car and storming up to the house followed by Frank. “Rach, calm down.” Frank said following her, he grabbed her arm and pulled her back towards him. “Calm down, you’ve just got out of hospital we don’t want you ending up back in there because of him now do we?” Frank said, Rachel shook her head and hugged Frank, he kissed the top of her head and they both walked inside.

 “Hello!” Rachel yelled as she walked into the house, Lois walked out of the kitchen and hugged Rachel. “Is he still here?” Rachel whispered in her ear. “Yeah, he’s really starting to get on my nerves, and the baby’s it’s getting agitated I can tell.” Lois said stroking her stomach. Rachel nodded and then walked into the lounge to see William making out with a girl on the couch on the couch across them Gerard and Brina chatting quietly. “Geeeee, Briiiii! I’m home!” Rachel said in a high-pitched screech they both looked up and smiled “Rach, what are you doing home?” Brina asked. “I got better, so they let me go.” Rachel said hugging Brina and Gerard as they both got up. Rachel turned around to see William on the couch making with out with some brunette. “Eugh.” She said and then Frank walked in she pulled him towards him and kissed him moaning loudly, she watched in the corner of her eye as William pulled away from the girl and looked at Rachel.

 Rachel pulled away smiling and then led Frank out of the room, “You having fun winding William up?” Frank asked. “Um, yeah you don’t mind do you?” Rachel asked. “Erm, sorta it just feels a little like you’re using me, that’s all.” Frank said looking at the floor. “Well you know I’m not don’t you? I love you I’ve always loved you, and Frank, I always will love you.” Rachel said and kissed Frank. “I know Rachel, and I love you too.” He said and then kissed Rachel again. “So what do you say shall we go throw William out?” Frank laughed, Rachel nodded eagerly, they walked past William’s room and he was packing.

 Rachel smiled at Frank and they walked down the stairs into the kitchen were Pete, Lois, Sarah, Sky and Nicole were sitting around the breakfast bar. “He’s packing.” Rachel said walking in smiling. “Really? How did you manage that?” Lois asked. “I did nothing I was just making out with Frank in front of him.”  Rachel said smiling evilly. “She’s baaack!” Sarah said laughing, everyone joined in, they suddenly heard the door slam. “I guess that was him leaving.” Sky said and Rachel nodded. “He better not be mad at me, after all he is signed to my label.” Pete said. “Pete, it should be him worrying that after all, he outstayed his welcome, he was ignorant so don’t worry about it, at the moment all you need to worry about is Lois.” Brina said walking into the kitchen. “That’s the problem, he does worry about me too much.” Lois said. “It’s just because I care.” Pete said. “I know, I know.” Lois said kissing him.

 “Well since you’re better Rach, wanna go out with me and the girl’s, we’re going to get bridesmaids dresses fitted.” Brina said smiling, Rachel’s face lit up. “Hell yeah! I’d love to!” Rachel said excitedly. “Okay then we’re leaving in soon so if you want to change I suggest you go now.” Brina said. “Is what I’m wearing now not suitable?” Rachel asked looking down at her green, white and pink hoodie, grey top with little blue dogs on and black jeans. “It’s fine I just thought you might want to change into something you can get out of easily.” Brina said, “That sounds like a good idea.” Frank said winking at Rachel, making her giggle, Brina just tutted. “I meant so it’s easier to try dresses on.” Brina finished. “Ohh” Rachel said realising. “Yeah, good idea, I’ll be back in a minute.” Rachel said and left the room; she ran up to her room and got changed into a black dress. She fixed her hair and then walked back downstairs. “Hey do you think we could go to a supermarket on the way back.” She said walking back into the kitchen. “Sure, why?” Brina asked. “I need to get purple hair dye.” She said smiling. “YAY!” Frank said. “I thought you’d be pleased.” Rachel smiled. “Well with your piercings back in, your sense of humour back and when you dye your hair I’ll have my Rachel back.” He said hugging her. “Do you not love this current Rachel?” Rachel asked pouting. “I do, but I love the old one even more, if you know what I mean.” He said winking again, followed by another giggle from Rachel. “Well I need to get it as soon as possible then.” Rachel said wrapping her arms around Frank’s waist and kissing his cheek. “Oh god, come on guys let’s go before they start off again.” Lois said laughing. Rachel kissed Frank goodbye and they left. “Lois, if you’re feeling ill or anything just call and I’ll be there in five minutes.” Pete said as everyone left. “He worries too much.” Sky said, and everyone nodded. “Guys this is our first child together you know and you know how Pete his he’s been searching all over the internet on how to be the perfect father, and he’s practising now, with me so he’s acting like I’m the child, which is fine with me as I hardly have to do anything anymore.” Lois laughed as Brina started the car and started driving towards the dress shop.

When they got there Brina told them her name and they led everyone to a room, it was full of dresses, couches, wine and water for Lois. “Wow, Gee sure does know how to look after you sis.” Rachel said admiring everything. “Yeah I know, well he wants everything to be perfect like I do.” Brina said looking around the room. “So I reckon you go for a black wedding dress coz it’s a nice day for a black wedding.” Rachel said and started bouncing about. “Isn’t it it’s a nice day for a white wedding?” Nicole said laughing slightly. “Yeah, but shhh Bri doesn’t have to know that.” Rachel said and then turned around to see Brina standing behind her. “Rach, I just heard that whole conversation! You’re mad! Next you’ll be telling me that I’m pregnant with twins with by some random guy!” Brina laughed, she knew her sister too well. “Oh but Bri you are, and you’ll be a terrible mother!” Rachel said shaking her finger at her. “Guys what the fuck is up with your conversations they’re like too random.” Nicole said sitting down next to Sarah. “You’ll get used to them after a while, we all have.” Sky said laughing and sitting on the other side of Nicole.

 “Right, let’s have a look at the dresses, well I was thinking of a white dress for me.” Brina said emphasising the word white for Rachel’s benefit. “Maybe, strapless and for the maids of honours dresses I want them to be-” Brina said but was interrupted by Rachel. “Wait there maids of honour, how many and who?” Rachel asked. “I want you all to be maids of honour me and Gerard talked, he’s having all of the boys, including Pete, as his best men so I want you all to be my maids of honour.” Brina said with a bit grin on her face. Everyone smiled back, “Anyway as I was saying, I want the dresses to be like the ones in the Helena video.” Brina said waving her arms about to show what she meant. “You’re so obsessed with that dress and that video, and it’s not even been released yet!” Sarah said. “What are you talking about?” Rachel asked confused. “Oh I forgot you haven’t seen it yet, it’s amazing! We’ll have to get the guys to show it to you.” Brina said. Rachel nodded and grabbed a glass of wine, she hadn’t had wine in so long as William said it was bad for her and since Pete and Lois were both straight edge they didn’t have any in the house so she couldn’t sneak a glass. She took a sip and swallowed feeling the velvety liquid going down her throat it tasted lovely. “And so what if I’m obsessed it’s going to be such a hit, I can tell I love it and it’ll be the big break the boys need, well I hope so, they all deserve it.” Brina said smiling. “Wait, Helena, isn’t that Gerard and Mikey’s Grandma?” Rachel asked and Brina nodded. “Why did he write a song about her?” she asked. “She died, while you were over here.” Sky said and Rachel put her hand over her mouth. “Oh my, why didn’t anyone tell me?” Rachel asked. “I knew you were having a tough time Rach, I didn’t want to make you more upset.” Brina explained and Rachel nodded understanding.

 Brina started routing through the dresses. “What about the hen party then?” Sarah asked. “Oh don’t worry girlies that is all sorted out and we’re going to have a great time.” Brina said smiling. “Okay what does everyone think of this?” Brina said holding up a strapless dress with white flowers embroidered on the front and the skirt of the dress splayed out from the waist downwards. “Meh.” Rachel answered. “Well I’m going to try it on, I’ll be back in a minute.” Brina said and then walked into the dressing room. She came out five minutes later and admired herself in the mirror. “No offence Bri, but it makes you look like you have a really fat ass.” Rachel said laughing. “Really?” she asked everyone. “Err yeah.” Lois replied laughing. “Okay well this is a definite no then, how about this?” Brina asked holding up another. “Sure if you want to look like a marshmallow!” Sarah said and everyone burst into fits of giggles including Brina. “Maybe I do.” Brina said still holding the dress. “Then go for it!” Sarah said. “I wanna try it on!” Sky said grabbing it and running into the dressing room. She came out five minutes later and you could hardly see her face from all the frills and puffs of fabric. “Do I look sexy?” she asked laughing. “Oh yeah! I’d so marry you!” Rachel said laughing, she got up and started dancing about with Sky while singing here comes the bride.

 “Okay, okay, okay seriously now though what about this.” Brina said stepping out of the dressing room, everyone’s jaws dropped, the dress was strapless and tightly fitted to Brina’s thin body, it went straight down until it got to her hips were it flowed to the floor the material was white silk and frills, on the back it had a small bow and on the front it had a band of material around the waist. “Brina, that’s the one, it’s so beautiful.” Lois said looking her up and down as the turned around. “Most definitely, I love it Bri.” Rachel said walking over to Brina and looking at it closely. “What do you think girls?” Brina asked, this was followed by “wows” and “it looks beautiful”. “Okay well I’m not too sure, I’ll think about it but now I want to have a look at your dresses girlies coz I got a couple made up in prototype to see what they’d look like.” Brina said walking behind a screen, when she walked back out she had five dresses.

“Okay so these are all different, I want to see which is the best look or if we like them all we can use these.” Brina said passing them out. “Now, go get dressed.” She said and then sat down picking up a glass of wine and sipping it. When they’d got dressed they all came out to show Brina. Rachel’s was exactly the same as Helena’s only it the red fabric was tartan, Lois’s was like Helena’s only it went down to the floor, Nicole’s was strapless and had a bow around the waist, Sky’s was the same as Helena’s, and Sarah’s has three-quarter length net sleeves and a slight train behind it made out of black fabric and net. “Right well what do you guys think?” Brina asked looking at them all. “They all look great.” Sky said smiling. “Hmm I like Sky’s as it’s exactly the same, but I do like the train on the back of Sarah’s what do you guys reckon?” Brina asked studying all the dresses. “To what? You mean Sky’s dress with Sarah’s train thing on it?” Rachel asked and Brina nodded. “I think that’d look great.” Rachel said smiling. “I really can’t wait to see this video now if the dress looks like that.” Rachel said pointing to Sky’s dress.

They all got changed and were waiting for Lois so they could have another look at the bride’s dresses, Lois walked out of the dressing room clutching her stomach. “Guys, I think, the baby is coming.” She gasped…

need to mention some peoples fanfics that I’m reading and to be read please take a look they’re so awesome!!!

panicatthediscoxchik- xxCall It Attraction But I Call It Lovexx Brina you maybe a bad mother but you're an awesome writer! And the best friend I could ever have! Ur lucky if you know her! :D

missxwentzx00- Love Can’t Save You Now

petesahottie- Roll The Dice, Take A Chance

midnightnightmares- Before The Sun Goes Down

sweettransvestite- Life Is But A Dream For The Dead

frank4life- Chemical Lifes

xxkissherkissherxx- I.Can't.Commit.To.A.Thing.Be.It.Heart.Or.Hospital__&&.x

fobluva4eva- Stace wrote one and put it on Lo's site check it out fucking awesome!

girlwitaroseinhernee- xXXxAll The Cyanide You Drank/The Sequel/Staring Pete and CaydenxXXx

frankierosbadgirl- Welcome To The Black Romance

vengeanceluver25- Blue Eyes Of Heaven

sonnysblackrose- Sonny's Black Rose

weirdo4ever- No Name

rachspoon- [[Frank]]Vampires Will Never Hurt You[[Iero]]

rachelandbrina- I Brought You To The Dark Side But You Brought Me To The Bright Side (mine and Brina's fanfic)

They really deserve to be read so go read them!!! Thanx

Sorry for the lack of updates..blame this lad I like and he likes my mate (he put me in a really bad mood) and Mcr, I went to see them last night (24th March) best day of my life!! If you're going soon you'll enjoy it! I can promise you that!

Frank dropped the phone and ran into the lounge, “Quick you guys! We need to get to the hospital, Rachel’s collapsed!” he yelled Nicole, Ray, Sarah and Sky immediately stood up and ran around, they left a note for Bob and Mikey as they’d gone out, Brina and Gerard grabbed some of Rachel’s stuff and they left the house. Frank drove them the hospital like a maniac. “So you do still do love her!” Ray said and Sarah smacked his head but his ‘fro meant he didn’t feel anything. “Of course he does, and she still loves him!” Sarah said, smiling slightly. Once they got to the hospital Frank practically ran out of the car leaving the engine on, Sky shut it off and locked the doors and then everyone followed. When everyone got inside Frank was at the front desk yelling at the secretary. “Frank! Calm down man, excuse me Miss where is Rachel Powell? She just came in, she collapsed I think?” Gerard said calmly, his hand on Frank’s shoulder so he didn’t go off again. “She’s in room 301, just down the hall on your right sir.” The nurse said Gerard nodded and then took hold of Brina’s hand as Brina was crying. “Calm down babe, she’s going to me fine, she probably just over did herself a little bit.” Gerard said as they walked towards the room, which Frank had already, ran in.

Frank ran over to Rachel and sat on the edge of the bed, she was still unconscious. He kissed her frozen lips and let one of his tears drip on her cheek, he wiped it away and then sat on a chair, William entered the room and Frank got up walking over to him and grabbing his shirt, slamming him against the wall. “What the fuck did you do? You fucking bastard this is all your fault!” he yelled, Gerard suddenly entered the room just before Frank swung at William. “What the fuck man calm down.” Gerard said looking over at Frank. “It’s all his fault she’s like this! You want her to be this anorexic girl, which she has never been, she hates it she told me everything! And you take her to the gym just because she eats a little bit of junk food! It’s just fucking ridiculous! You’ve put her there!” Frank said starting to cry. Lois walked into the room and over to Frank and she hugged him. She then sat on a chair next to the bed and hugged Rachel’s arm. William looked at everyone else now coming into the room and left rapidly. “What a bastard.” Sarah said looking at the door he’d just walked through. Ray nodded resting his head on her shoulder from behind, staring at Rachel. Bob and Nicole were talking quietly in the corner while Pete was comforting Lois, and rubbing her stomach making sure the baby was alright, she was five months pregnant but looked about 5 weeks, she was thin so it hardly showed. Brina was hugging Gerard and they were both quietly sobbing on each other’s shoulders, Brina crying a little more than Gerard. Sky and Mikey were sitting at the back of the room, Mikey on a chair and Sky on his lap. She was starting to fall asleep. Frank was standing at the end of her bed staring at her seemingly lifeless body absorbing every minor detail watching her, waiting for her to blink.

After about three hours Bob, Nicole, Mikey, Ray and Gerard decided to get some rest. As they were playing a show the next day, Frank stayed though, along with Lois, Brina, Sky, Sarah and Pete, Pete wanted to make sure Lois was alright he was really worried as this would be his first child. When they’d left, Rachel suddenly moved, all the machines started beeping and a doctor ran in and told them all to wait outside, three nurses then entered the room. Frank watched as they started working on Rachel until they closed the blinds so Frank could no longer see. Frank turned around to see Brina and Lois almost in hysterics. Sky and Sarah had walked off to get some air as Sky had started feeling sick and Pete was just sitting there silently. After about half an hour the doctor came out of the room shaking his head. “No,” Frank said. “I’m afraid to say that she’s slowly dying, we’re giving her three days to live, her body can’t cope with what’s going on so it’s slowly shutting down.” The doctor said, and then walked away. Frank ran into the room and hugged Rachel tightly; she didn’t hug back as she was still unconscious. He kissed her, and held her.

After about an hour there was suddenly a movement, the machines started beeping, but this time it seemed to be good beeping, Rachel’s heartbeat seemed to be increasing and was soon normal. Frank watched as her eyes fluttered open, and looked straight back at Frank, she smiled slightly and kissed Frank hard. She gasped and stroked Frank’s cheek. “Hi Frank.” Rachel said quietly. “Hey Rach, how-” Frank said but was interrupted by William walking though the door. “Rach, you’re finally awake!” he pulled Frank away and kissed her, but when he pulled away Rachel was frowning. “What’s the matter babe?” William asked sitting down on the chair next to the bed. “Nothing can you just bring Brina and Lo in here, and I want you both to wait outside.” She said looking at them other individually smiling when she looked at Frank, they both left and Lois and Brina burst into the door and smothered Rachel with hugs.

 Rachel laughed slightly and Pete popped his head in the door. “Pete! Come in! I thought you would’ve gone home by now.” Rachel said. “No, I had to make sure Lo and you were alright, and the baby of course.” Pete smiled walking into the room and sitting on a chair, Lois got off her chair and sat on Pete’s lap. Rachel smiled “So what’s the damage?” Rachel asked biting her nails. “What, what do you mean?” Lois said. “What’s wrong with me?” she said looking at her. “Oh, umm, I er….” Lois said. “Just tell me, please.” Rachel pleaded. “They’ve given you three days to live.” Brina said looking at the floor. Rachel nodded and then started crying Brina walked over and hugged her. “Can you get William for me please?” Rachel said wiping her eyes. Brina nodded and stuck her head out of the door and then William walked in. “Rach, so how are you?” William said walking over to hug Rachel. “William, don’t.” Rachel said looking at him. “What’s the matter?” he asked shocked. “William I can’t do this anymore, I can’t pretend to be something I’m not, this is whole persona isn’t me, so I think we should call it quits.” Rachel said looking at the floor. “This is all Frank’s fault isn’t it? Ever since he arrived you’ve been off with me! Actually ever since you found out he was coming you’ve been off with me!” William said raising his voice. “Listen! This is what I mean! It’s not just Frank it’s you it’s me it’s everything, please don’t be like this.” Rachel said looking at him. “Whatever.” William said and then walked out of the room, Rachel looked back to see Lois and Brina staring back shocked. “What?” Rachel asked shifting about, uncomfortable.  “I can’t believe you said that to William, that took guts, I thought you loved him?” Lois said. “I guess I don’t love him like I did yesterday.” Rachel sighed and then got up. “Wh-where are you going?” Lois asked standing up. “Just for a walk.” Rachel said looking at her bony feet. “Are you sure that’s wise?” Brina said. “Um, yeah.” She said and then walked out of the room, she looked to see no one waiting outside of the room, she figured Frank had gone home.

 “He probably hates me now.” She muttered to herself. “I should’ve never taken advantage, I should’ve kept my feelings a secret.” She said again to herself. “No you shouldn’t have.” A voice said from behind her. She turned around to see Frank smiling at her. She hugged him tightly. “I broke up with William.” Rachel said pulling away from Frank. “Shall we give it another go then?” Frank asked hopeful. “Is there any point?” Rachel said taking hold of Frank’s hand and they started walking back. “Of course!” Frank said. “There isn’t I’m going to die really soon, you should move on.” Rachel said her eyes welling up. “I could never move on Rach! And besides we are going to make sure you stay alive, I can find a way.” Frank said squeezing her hand. She nodded, trying to believe Frank and they then walked back into her room. When they walked in Sky and Sarah looked up and smiled, as they must have walked into the room when Rachel was out. “So are you two back together now?” Sarah asked. “Sarah!” Sky said looking at Sarah. “What? We all wanted to know I’m just the bravest.” Sarah said. “So are you?” she asked again smiling. “Erm, sorta.” Rachel said. “What do you mean sorta?” Sky asked. “Well I might die soon so I don’t want Frank making any commitments.” Rachel said. “We are together, like it or not, I’ve made a commitment because I love you Rach.” Frank said. Rachel smiled and he kissed her. “I love you too.” She said getting back into bed and Frank got in as well. Brina and Lois smiled and then Gerard walked back into the room.

“Hey guys I came back, coz I was bored and I heard you were awake, so how are you?” he asked sitting next to Brina and kissing her cheek. “I’m okay thanks, I broke up with William.” She said. “Good, no offence Rach, but I didn’t like him at all, he seemed cold, towards everyone, even you.” Gerard said, Rachel nodded. “He wasn’t always like that, he jus-” Rachel said trying to defend him but stopping as she saw Gerard looking at her sceptically. “Well I personally think he was a bastard.” Sarah said. “Sarah, you don’t realise how much I’ve missed that big mouth of yours these past months!” Rachel smiled, making everyone laugh. Frank kissed her cheek and she smiled at him. “So, Brina, when is the wedding?” Rachel asked out of the blue. “We haven’t set a specific date yet but we’ll let you know when we do.” Brina said frowning knowing that Rachel might never get to go to the wedding. “I’m so bored!” Rachel then said after a while, she groaned and got out of the bed. “Let’s do something.” Rachel said, she looked at Sarah and Frank who were both smiling, Frank because, the something he wanted to do was her, and Sarah because, well she just wanted to cause trouble. “That doesn’t involve us getting thrown out of the hospital.” Rachel said and she saw Frank and Sarah frown. “I know! Gerard sing us mine and Frank’s song, You know what they do to guys like us in prison?!” Rachel said smiling. “Erm, I’ve never heard that.” Lois nodded. “It’s amazing! Well I would say that coz Frank and I came up with the concept, but yeah, it was when Frank and I were really hyper and we started playing cops n robbers, it was the best day ever!” Rachel smiled. “Do I have to sing?” Gerard asked. “Yeah, and Brina can sing with you! Coz her voice is amazing!” Rachel said laughing. “Fine” Brina and Gerard said together and then started singing.

“That is one mad song!” Pete said at the end of it all. “Yeah, and I don’t want Fall Out Boy copying it either!” Gerard said half playfully, half meaning it. “I don’t think we’d be able to get away with that, it’s too surreal, I think only Mcr could get away with playing that.” Pete laughed. “Too true, you couldn’t really imagine Fob fans singing, they made me do push-ups in drag.” Rachel laughed. “What are you trying to say?” Lois said. “Sorry Mrs Fall Out Boy!” Rachel said. “What the hell?” Lois laughed. “I don’t know either! I think the drugs they gave me have gone to my head!” Rachel said. “I know what it is.” Sky said. “What?” Frank asked. “You’re among us again you’re back to your old crazy self again and I’ve got to say, I’ve missed it so much.” Sky smiled. “Yeah me too.” Rachel said resting her head on Frank’s shoulder.

“I think it’s time I take Lo home, I mean she needs her rest.” Pete said. “No I don’t!” Lois said and then yawned making Pete laugh. “Actually Lo, as much as I love having you here, Pete’s right, you need to take care of that baby. I want to be an auntie.” Rachel smiled. “Yeah! Me too.” Brina agreed smiling. “Fine, I’m going I mean we’re going.” Lois said and then chuckled. She hugged everyone goodbye and then her and Pete left. “I want a child!” Rachel said looking at Frank, Frank was smiling. “Yeah, but not no Frank calm down.” Rachel said laughing. “Damn it!” Frank muttered. “Do you really expect me to have sex with you while everyone is here?” Rachel said looking at them. “They could leave.” Frank said stroking Rachel’s arm. “Even if they did I would fuck you in a hospital.” Rachel laughed. “Why not? We’ve done it in some pretty weird places.” Frank laughed. “That was a dare from Lois though!” Rachel laughed. “But you still enjoyed it!” Frank said. “Why? What happened?” Brina asked. “Well, when Lo came over with Fall Out Boy, we were being really weird and random and she was like I bet you wouldn’t fuck in a bush! So I just said that next time we were next to a bush we would and, we did.” Rachel laughed and Frank smiled. Brina and Gerard were in hysterics while Sky looked slightly disturbed but soon got the funny side of it and started laughing too. Sarah was almost rolling on the floor laughing. “That sounds like fun!” she said and then ran out of the room. They all stopped laughing and then looked at the door shocked. Sarah then poked her head through the door. “I was joking of course!” Sarah said walking back in the room. “Of course you were.” Brina said. “I was! Gawd!” Sarah said slumping back into a chair.

While they were all talking the doctor walked into the room. “Hi Miss Powell, sorry we haven’t come earlier, we had a problem with a patient, now how are you feeling?” he asked while writing her heart rate. “I’m okay I think, a little sore, but okay.” She said. “Sore? Where abouts?” the doctor asked looking up from his clipboard. “Well my chest area, like inside.” She said putting her hand on where it hurt. “Right, well it could be your body, slowly itself down, I’m sorry to say that you waking up maybe just your body letting you say goodbye to everyone, you might still die in three days time.” The doctor said and then walked out of the room. Rachel looked at Frank and then burst into tears he pulled her close to him and they stayed like that for ages. Afterwards everyone left giving Rachel hugs and saying they’d visit tomorrow. Frank stayed and he fell asleep in her bed, but that night Rachel couldn’t sleep, she stayed up crying she couldn’t bare the thought of having to leave Frank again.

Three days later, around seven in the morning Frank decided to go and see Rachel, he had left her to get a decent night’s sleep as the hospital bed was killing his back. Rachel had seemed to be improving over the last couple of days so Frank was almost certain she could get over it. He walked down the corridor and to her room. When he opened it he saw a made bed, and no sign of Rachel, he looked all around the room, nothing, he burst into tears and sat on the bed…

need to mention some peoples fanfics that I’m reading and to be read please take a look they’re so awesome!!!

panicatthediscoxchik- xxCall It Attraction But I Call It Lovexx Brina you maybe a bad mother but you're an awesome writer!

missxwentzx00- Love Can’t Save You Now

petesahottie- Roll The Dice, Take A Chance

midnightnightmares- Before The Sun Goes Down

sweettransvestite- Life Is But A Dream For The Dead

frank4life- Chemical Lifes

xxkissherkissherxx- I.Can't.Commit.To.A.Thing.Be.It.Heart.Or.Hospital__&&.x

fobluva4eva- Demolition Lovers

girlwitaroseinhernee- xXXxAll The Cyanide You Drank/The Sequel/Staring Pete and CaydenxXXx

frankierosbadgirl- Welcome To The Black Romance

vengeanceluver25- Blue Eyes Of Heaven

sonnysblackrose- Sonny's Black Rose

weirdo4ever- No Name

rachspoon- [[Frank]]Vampires Will Never Hurt You[[Iero]]

rachelandbrina- I Brought You To The Dark Side But You Brought Me To The Bright Side (mine and Brina's fanfic)

They really deserve to be read so go read them!!! Thanx